Die eyed Kyo that was sitting in front of him in one of the corner’s tables, the blonde singer was quite excited about the band playing at the moment feets away from them.

"They are really good Die, and so young, of course they need a bit more of practice but i think they are gonna make it big soon" Kyo said, his small eyes never leaving the stage.

Die rolled his eyes tiredly grabbing his friend’s chin to force him to look straight into his eyes.

"have you even listened anything i’ve said?" he screamed anger filling his voice.

"Of course i’ve been, what kind of friend do you think i am? I left kengo go to join you tonight, remember? But if you wouldn’t be so worried about your little shinchan you would be able to have fun too and realise we are hearing one of the best bands i’ve heard in ages, just stop worrying so much Die! There is nothing you can do so get over it!" the singer pushed die’s hands away staring at the guitarist seriously.

"What are you talking about?, can’t you see how serious this is? We need to do something or shinchan might get hurt" Die said grabbing his head in despair trying to let his friend understand the whole situation.

"WE don’t have anything to do about it Die, Shinchan is a big boy now and he can do whatever he wants and there is no way we are gonna interfere in his life, he knows what he is doing and if he gets hurt then………well, we will be there to catch him during the fall but now let the poor boy breathe, let him live his own life and make his own decisions, why don’t you start worrying about your own life instead and take a look around?, i am sure he is having fun right now, we should be doing the same, damn! you should!" the singer was reaching his limit of patience.

"No! You don’t understand, i am just worried cause you know he is like my little brother and i don’t want him to suffer, ever"

"Well Die, then we have one big problem, HE IS NOT YOUR BROTHER! So don’t give me all that crap, i am not that stupid, don’t underestimate me i tell you" Kyo’s fist hit the table causing all the beers to stagger in response to the sudden movement.

Of course he is not my brother, but well…………i care about him as if he would be, but is it really just that? What if Kyo is right? If i can discard brotherly love’s option then there are not that many left to find the real answer, the only truth in this chaos there is right now inside of me.

"i know…………he is not my brother, but i still care, i don’t want him to get hurt, how could anybody want to hurt him, i just don’t understand that, why does he has to be so stubborn? i know he doesn’t really love this guy, why is he doing all this?" the guitarist pouted slightly taking the beer to his lips in an attempt to cling into reality, anything to make sure that all that was going on it was completly real, and he found exactly what he was looking in the bitter taste of the drink.

Kyo smiled triumphant hearing the older man’s words and got closer to pat him reassuringly in the shoulder.

"Don’t worry Die, things will be alright at the end no matter what, remember? You are the one always saying that" the petite man smiled sweetly.

"I know kyo but this time something seems different, for once i am not sure about anything, and what worries me the most are Totchi’s words, i just can’t stop thinking about that"

"Totchi?" Kyo raise his eyebrow suddenly very interested in what Die was saying.

Die stared at his friend’s worried face a bit shocked.

"Well yeah…………what is wrong? Totchi went one night to Shinya’s apartment and i was there, it was maybe a couple of days ago i think, totchi was really sick already but somehow that night he seemed slightly different, and a lot better, he said Kaokun was sleeping and that he had gone to warn shinya about some danger that was going to appear on his life, and he was talking about miyabi, at first we were really surprised cause he was already in bed sick when we met the guy, remember? But he said that how he had found it didn’t matter and that we had to trust in him, he said Miyabi was very dangerous and that shinya needed to stay away from him and he even said that do that it was not going to be enough since they had already met, he looked really sad and worried, scared i guess i could say, he was very sensitive and sweet, he said he loved us and that all of us were the most precious in his life, then he made us promise we weren’t going to tell kao he had been there cause he didn’t want him to get worried and as suddenly as he arrived he dissapeared in the darkness of the night" Die said in a hurry suddenly noticing how unbelievable everything he had said was.

"Oh………" he muttered opening his eyes wide in confusion.

"Exactly my friend, i can’t understand how all of you can be so blind to not notice that something really strange is happening in here, and i think it is what is causing this big mess we are drowning into and i am sure Totchi knows what is all this about, we need to talk to him" Kyo tilted his head to the right a bit giving one last glance toward the stage before getting up.

"Go find shinya and i will meet you at my apartment, just need to pick up some stuffs first.

Hopefully we will find out what is really going on soon" said Kyo seriously waving his hand before walking off the bar.

"Shit!" Die got up running out of the club.

His mind was chaos now, what was going on, he just had no idea at all, he had been so focused in shinchan and everything that was blooming inside of him he didn’t even notice the world around them was changing.

But now i know, that must be real love, it just has to be that way, i love shinchan i just don’t know which kind of love it is, but does it really matter? All that is really important is how strong and deep my feelings for him are and that is it.

He hurried running toward shinya’s apartment, his silky red hair gracefully moving under the power of the wind’s whims.

It was almost dawn he could feel it even though it was impossible to tell already, the night was as dark as the deepest borders of the sea, and the air was sticky and cold, it was going to start raining anymoment.

When he finally reached shinya’s place he didn’t even knocked but entered the still dark apartment running, his breath harsh.

"Damn i need to stop smoking or i am really gonna die because of it" he whispered to himself in the living room trying to catch his breath before raising his head and meet the most horrible image he could ever think of.

It has to be nightmare, please someone wake me up, please.

Tears filled his eyes that were locked with shinya’s as the younger man was being impaled by Miyabi roughly.

Shinya seemed so fragile like that, in the air, pressed against the wall, his legs around the dark haired man’s waist as he was being torn apart by the violent thrusts.

A single tear slid down his cheek, his eyes never leaving Die.

Miyabi didn’t even bother himself to look at Die, he knew the other man was there and that was enough, he couldn’t care less, absually he seemed even as if he would be enjoying more of the whole situation.

After some minutes, that seemed an eternity to the older man, Miyabi came inside of shinya screaming his name loudly, shinya came just seconds later and fell to the ground, blood tainting everything.

Miyabi just put his pants on and after give a deep kiss to shinya he walked toward the door of the apartment right next to the immovable figure of the older man, an evil grin in his face as he turned around and said slowly.

"I hope it is not a problem Die, you know with the band and all i don’t want you guys to have problems because your drummer can’t even sit straight from the pain in his ass, but i can’t help myself when i am with him, he is such a delicious slut, My babe" seeing no reaction from the other man he just walked outside the place closing the door behind of him softly.

Silence fell on the dark room, the only thing that could be heard was both men’s breathing……………

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Tish opened his eyes worried, he knew he had to leave the apartment as soon as possible and fix the mess he had caused, kaoru was aware that something was happening now and he couldn’t take any risks.

He got up quickly and grabbed some clothes ready to leave when he felt kaoru’s hand tight around his wrist.

"Who are you? what is happening in here?" the guitarist voice sounded full of anger as he turned the other man around so he could be staring at his face.

It was all a mistake and i am sorry, it was really stupid and shallow of me to think you were my kaoru, but still reasonable, if the only thing we alter is the time then you gotta be always the same person just that in different levels of evolution and maturity, right? Why then it feels so different? So wrong………… i loved you with all my soul already in here and still something just don’t fits quite right.

He could see the tragic images beginning to form in front of his eyes once again.

No!!!!!!!!!! The scream inside his head kept echoing for minutes and hours, centuries, and he was aware that the scream was his and that no matter how loud and for how long he would keep it it wasn’t going to change anything at all, no, he needed more than just a stab of pain through the night to change it all.

"Hey! I asked you something!" kaoru’s voice brought him back to reality, away from the world were his dreams and realities became one, where everything was just the same and nothing was at all.

I am sorry kaokao

He smiled sadly at the pink haired man and raising his hand he punched him strongly in the stomach and pushed the body against the wall causing him to fade out for some minutes, time more than enough for him to flee.

He ran away of the apartment closing the door to gain some time, he had the hope in his heart that kaoru was not going to follow him anyway so he stopped to catch his breath back when he saw himself in the floor fainted in a pool of blood.

"Totchi?" he felt his heart shrink at the vision of the beautiful man so badly hurt in the ground, he ran to check if he was ok even though he knew that would be impossible he just wanted to know he was going to live, he fell on his knees and took the fragile body on his strong arms carefully.

I am so sorry beauty, i never meant this to happen, i shouldn’t have come here ever, this is all so fucked up now, i didn’t want to hurt you, nor kao nor anybody else, i just wanted to save us all, to create a bright beautiful future for us, for me.

I can’t believe i was so selfish as to came here tonight and forced kaoru to made love to me with dirty tricks……………

Tears started to fall down his pink cheeks as he felt all the pain bursting inside of him, desperate for release.

"I am sorry totchi, please wake up, it is not what you think, i swear! I am gonna fix all this i promise, just wake up, without you in here i can’t ever be" he lowered his lips to kiss the bassist tenderly when he heard Kaoru screaming his name.

"Damn!" he placed the dark haired man back in the floor and ran away quickly without turning back to see what was going on behind.

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When Kaoru finally managed to go after the man that had just ran away of the apartment he wasn’t thinking anymore, he just wanted answers to all the questions that were flooding him.

But he wasn’t counting at all with what he found in the corridor.

As soon as he crossed the door he saw the man in the floor, there was blood everywhere and he saw that there were tears in his pretty eyes, no matter how much the man looked like totchi it was so different at the same time, he couldn’t understand how he hadn’t noticed before, they were so different……………… the man didn’t even looked like his precious totchi at all.

Fear grew inside of him mixed with uncertainty and doubt as he stopped running, frozen watching the scene in front of him

Where is all that blood coming from?

God i hope i didn’t hurt him that bad………… i never wanted it to be this way i just wanted to know what is going on.

"Hey! Are you alright? Wait!" he screamed as he saw the other man looked at him fearfully and then dropped something in the floor and ran downstairs.

Damn! I scared him again.

He was about to start running after him again when he noticed that what was in the floor laying as a broken doll was someone and that all the blood was coming from that person, he got closer walking slowly begging for the person who was in there to be still alive though he thought it was impossible due to the amount of blood it had lost already.

So focused was in his thoughts and all the past events that he didn’t hear the door of the elevator when it opened nor saw Kyo’s eyes wide in fear and worry as he ran toward the person in the floor and he only realised what was going on when he heard Kyo yelling at him to call an ambulance.