Dreams and Time

by Maharet

comments: It's really late *again¬¬*
and i've got class tomorrow early T_T
this part's kinda short, but i think that everything's clearer*at least that's
what i think ^^*
anyway, this fic's dedicated to Mi-chan, Arna & Audrey.
Luv
Maharet~
-_-Z mode once again>

part 4


Toshiya entered the apartment quiet really carefully to not wake up Kaoru who
was sleeping in the couch soundly, he rather looked dead than asleep.

"Poor baby, you should take care yourself better, since i can't do it for you
now." Said toshiya softly caressing kaoru's cheek lovingly.

I can't believe how beautiful he is.

It's been so long since the last time...

Why did it have to be that way?? It's so unfair.

Everything was just fine, not perfect, but i didn't needed to be heaven in
earth.

Life's a bitch.

Toshiya's eyes were filled with tears, his hand shaking against Kaoru's velvet
skin.

"So cold, you're so cold kao-kun"

Toshiya walked away to find a blanket for the tired guitarist

And put it on the shivering body.

"Say my love, do you remember?? Of corse you don't cuz you haven't lived that
yet.but if it's true that the time's not lineal.then everything's different and
you might remember mon amour"

Toshiya was lost in the beauty resting in front of him, lost in his memories.

"nous sommes allés en France cela année"

He was so concentrate in the life that they used to share together, that he
didn't saw kaoru's eyes blink under the moon light.

"Mon doux et bel amour" Whispered Toshiya gazing the dark sky through the
window.

"Totchi??" asked Kaoru half asleep hearing the bassist voice through his tired
dreams, his eyes were open but it was all just by custom.

He was too much tired, and his heart and mind filled with Worry and love for
toshiya.

"Shh My love, don't worry, just go back to sleep, you need it, i'm
alright.you're the one who needs to take care yourself better"

"But." His voice was filled with the fatigue that weighed so much his soul.

"But nothing kao-kun, just sleep please" whispered the ex bassist into kaoru's
hear softly.

It was killing him to see kao like this, he was almost a dead man. And it was
all his fault, Totchi was sick just for his own cause, but it wasn't his cause
too??

Everything felt so unreal and nothing was clear anymore.

He was so confused..

Was it the right thing to come here??

"You were speaking french Totchi." and with a sweet smile Kaoru fall asleep
again.

"yeah my prince French.do you remember now??" Totchi asked to himself feeling
despair creeping his heart.



Kaoru woke up feeling hot and thirsthy, the sun was in the middle of the sky.

He felt also relaxed for some reason.

"It must be noon already, well i know totchi's better, so there's nothing to
worry about"

He went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water, a beautiful smile never
leaving his still pale face.

The water felt so good against his dry throat.

Heavenly.

I'm so glad that you're finally better my beautiful Totchi.

All my efforts were worth it.

He felt so satisfied and relieved he thought he could fly.

Life seemed gorgeous and brilliant right now.

As if he had been walking through shadows the last days.

He went to Totchi's room to check everything was fine.

It was such a shinning day, the apartment was full of light.

Kaoru entered the room softly just incase toshiya would be asleep.

After all he knew it was really late when he saw him last night in the couch.

"Totchi??" he said tenderly

the room was completly silent.

"Toshiya, wake up sleeping beauty, it's a beautiful day" he said approaching
the bed.

Still no answer.

"Come on Totchi, don't pretend you're still sick, i know you're alright, so
stop playing ne" Kaoru said sweetly shacking the bassist a bit.

Toshiya's arms fell lifeless without reaction against kaoru's shocks.

"Totchi.?" Kaoru was feeling scared.

Toshiya opened his eyes a bit.

"Kao-kun?" His voice sounded lifeless and tired.

"What happened Totchi?? You were alright last night when i saw you."

Kaoru placed Toshiya's body back in the bed and pulled the blankets 'til all
his body was covered, only his beautiful head and neck at kaoru's sight.

Toshiya tried to seat in the bed, but kaoru didn't let him.

"Stay there, you have fever again, and you look even more sick than before"
Kaoru said lovingly brushing a tuft of hair off Toshiya's angelical face (¬¬*
HoHoHo Totchi's angelical in my fic!!it's becuz of his illness ne ~Mahy~)

"But Kaoru, what're you talking abt, i was the whole night asleep, i didn't
went to the couch.." Toshiya said blushed by Kaoru's proximity.

"What?? But i'm sure.." said Kaoru confused.

"Kao." Toshiya said his voice filled with known.

"No, don't worry abt it Totchi, i'm sure it was just a dream" said kaoru
smiling sadly.

It was all just a beautiful dream.

You were better..

I should known it wasn't real.

"Kao-kun, please listen to me, I'm gonna be alright don't worry. You're the one
who needs to take care, you look almost sick, your skin's so pale and your
gorgeous and deep eyes now seem empty, i'm so worried and i wish i could get up
from this bed and take care of you with my own hands, but i don't even have the
strength to seat in here.and i don't wanna see you getting ill in front of me
without been able to do anything to help you" The bassist fragile hand reached
Kaoru's cheek and caressed it lovingly.

"Totchi." He knew the younger man was right, he was so tired.but it wasn't his
fault, he loved to take care of the bassist more than anything, it felt so
right.

It was just everything.the whole world was upon his fragile shoulders; Shinya
who was with this unknown guy, Die who was dying for shinya but he don't even
know it yet.and then the worst, Kyo left the apartment 2 days ago, saying that
he was going to Shinya's aparment to finish a song, but he never was at
shinya's and he didn't even call to say where he was.

Kyo was just missing.

"Shh..It's ok Kao-kun, why don't you rest a while" said Toshiya opening the bed
so that way Kaoru could get inside and then at least he could warm the body of
his love.

"Thanks Totchi, let's make a deal, ok?"

Toshiya nodded smiling

"I'm gonna call the doctor now, and then i'll sleep with you for a while,
before he gets here, ok?" said Kaoru blushing

I'm gonna sleep with you??

what am i thinking

Totchi's sick and he's so worried for me, and i'm thinking abt him next to me
in the bed.

"You got a deal" said Toshiya pleased.

Kaoru took the phone tiredly.

"Yeah Dr Kawabata?. Hi!! It's kaoru, yeah everybody in my family's alright, mom
always sends you hugz, sure i'll tell her. You see..my friend's really sick and
i don't know what's wrong with him..Like around a week, but in bed since 2 days
ago..thanks, the address's xxxxxxxxxxxx (^^ they need privacy) At 10 pm??Great,
i'll be waiting"

Kaoru placed the phone back feeling more relaxed than before, at least now the
dr was going to examine Toshiya.

And he walked back to the bed.

Admiring the dark haired man for a moment before getting inside the blankets
next to the slim body of the bassist.







Kyo opened his eyes slowly, the sun was so brighten it hurted him

"What time is it??" he looked around and seeing his watch he got up to take it.

"3pm??" he was shocked.

"GOD!!!!!!3pm already???I'm dead, totchi must be so worried, Fucking
great!!!!!!this is the first time i've stayed out without calling" screamed Kyo
panicking 'til he realize his lovers were still asleep,

so he relaxed..they were so beautiful.so angelical like this.

Kyo got out from bed trying to do it really quiet.

He didn't want to wake them..they were so peacefully asleep.

"Kyo-kun, are you leaving already?? It's still early" kengo's voice sounded
sleepy and tired.

"It's 3pm ken-chan, totchi must be really worried" said the blonde singer
seating in the bed next to the dark haired man.

"*yawm* but.i'm sure he'll understand, after such a wild night, u need to rest
ne" said Kengo with a hentai smile in his lips remembering what they believed
it was 'last' night.

Kyo went down and softly kissed kengo's thin lips tenderly introducing his
sweet tongue into the younger man's mouth.

"Hey you two!!good morning ne.feeling lonely here" Mast pouted finding himself
alone while the other two men were warming eachother cutely.

Kyo broke apart the kiss and went to the other side of the bed where Mast was
pouting sweetly.

"Hi Mast-kun, How're you feeling today Babe??" said Kyo sensually into Mast's
right ear.

"uh uh..lonely??" said Mast doubtful.

"How can you feel lonely Mast when you got us 2 around??" said kengo lovingly
putting his arms around Mast's little waist, his chest against the blonde long
haired beauty's back.

Kyo held Mast's chin and placed his now warm lips against the guitarist's
shivering ones.

Kyo felt in heaven.

This is great.

It feels so good when i'm with them.

It's like if i melted in their embrace.

Kengo started kissing Mast's long neck softly, while his hand caressed Kyo's
chest in slow movements.

Suddenly Kyo broke the kiss and walked away.

"Kyo-kun!!" said both men feeling frustrated.

"It's ok my boys, i'll be back in moment, i'm just gonna call Totchi so he
don't worry becuz i didn't slept last night in home ne, and also to tell him
that i'll be late tonight" the singer threw a kiss to the couple in the bed and
went to the kitchen for the phone.

God!!It's such a shiny day, thought kyo dialing Totchi's number.

"Hi!!!Kaoru?? what are u doing at Totchi's apartment??" Kyo's mind was full of
hentai thoughts.

So finally Totchi told kaoru abt his crush.

Kyo felt happy for his friends, he knew Kaoru was crazy for totchi since the
first time they saw eachother, and Totchi felt the same way.

But they were so..Damn!!

"Kyo??Are you crazy?? I've been worried sick becuz of you!!!!" kaoru's voice
sounded full of anger.

"Woah!!relax leader-sama, it's not such a big deal, so what?? I didn't slept
last night at home and i forgot to call, sorry, ok??I thought you should be in
a great mood today..." Kyo didn't understand why kaoru was such a pain in the
ass sometimes.

He should be happy, he's finally with Totchi, and it was thanks to me cuz if i
would have been in the apartment last night they would have lost their chance.

"Kyo.."

"It doesn't matter kao-kun, is Totchi there??"

"Totchi's sick, he's in bed with fever and it has been that way for the last 2
days" said kaoru tired

"That's impossible Kaoru, cuz yesterday he was fine, ok.maybe feeling a bit ill
but nothing serious" Kyo said worried.

He was sure Totchi was ok when he left him.

"Kyo, you've been missing the last 2 days..i don't know what the hell you were
doing that you didn't even realized of the pace of time, but you left saying
that u were going to be at Shinya's place, and that never happened, then you
didn't came back at the next day nor the other, and here we are now" kaoru's
voice sounded lifeless.

"What????"

Kyo was shocked, 2 days??

"It's ok Kyo-kun, listen to me, the doctor's comming tonight and Totchi needs
to be relaxed anyway, so ."

"I get it, i'll stay here tonight again."

"Thanks"

"Kaoru.. I'm really sorry, i didn't knew, how're you???"

"I'm fine Kyo.just worried for Totchi"

"Ok, i'll call later to know what the DR thinks, ok?"

Poor Kaoru, he must be devastated

How could i've been so irresponsible??

Then we slept for 2 days..

So what?? It sure was a wild night, but.

2 days???????????????????????

Kyo entered the room walking slowly.

He felt tired and guilty.

"Are you alright Kyo-kun??" asked the 2 boys worried seeing their friend's sad
face.

"Yeah.. everything's ok, Totchi's sick so i'll stay here tonight again, Kaoru's
taking care of him." Said Kyo sadly

"I'm sorry" said Kengo holding Kyo tightly trying to confort his lover.

"well, this kinda things happen, and btw abt last night.it wasn't last night,
we were slept for 2 days" and saying that Kyo seated in the bed feeling very
sleepy again.

Kyo and Kengo fell asleep again missing the look in Mast's face.

"So..He's finally here" Mast smiled and then he fell asleep hugging Kyo's
little body lovingly.

to be continued~

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