Boys Love

By Mi-chan

Part Two.

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Yusuke sighed and turned towards the wall, burying his face into his pillows again, as tears trekked a sad sorry trail down his face. He blinked his eyes rapidly, desperately trying not to cry, desperately trying not to think about Miyake. That kiss had happened a few days earlier, what an idiot I was to think that just because he would kiss me that he would like me… Yusuke sighed, his eyes shut as he bit into the pillow to stop himself from crying out…

After that kiss he could never get him out of his head… Miyake just filled his mind, Yusuke lifted his face and smiled sadly, "you must be tired Miyake-chan…" he sighed and then lowered his face, his red eyes all watery as his sad voice filled the room softly. "You must be, because your always running through out my mind…" His eyes shut and his face sank to the pillows again…

It always amazed him how he had managed to somehow fall for his best friend, it had happened slowly but surely… And now the feelings in his heard just seemed to grow stronger and stronger as each day passed, intensifying with a horrific pain. The worst thing was that the pain didn’t go away it just faithfully stayed the same in his heart… Bitterly he smiled, the ache hurting him again, my pain is just like my love, faithful, it never goes away…always haunting me…

Every time he tried to sleep, he just ended up crying out, he was grateful that no one had over heard! But now he was so tired and felt so weak. He knew it was morning, he knew he should go to school today, but what for? There was nothing there to make him want to go ever again, seeing Miyake would just be like having a stake driven into his heart, not that that could makes things feel even worse, after all he already felt like that! Surely Miyake would just tease him too…or tell everyone about him liking him!

He sighed and let tears flood his eyes again, he didn’t care that he was being weak, nothing made sense at all anymore, neither did crying but…there was nothing else he could do.

"Ne! Get up!" Kousuke called out as he ran into the room, he frowned seeing the weird way that his brother was lying and how he seemed to jerk, as though he was crying, "Yusuke? Daijoubu?" Kousuke sat down beside him putting his hand on his shoulder. He squeezed his brother’s shoulder reassuringly and hugged him.

Yusuke remained silent and numb ignoring his brother. After some time he spoke, "I just want to miss school…" he trailed off and looked to Kousuke’s face with his filled with pain and agony. Kousuke sighed and nodded, "alright, but it’s not good!"

"I. Don’t. care."

Kousuke sighed shrugging he then left leaving Yusuke with his sadness… Yusuke sighed and then began to cry again…

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Each day passed slowly and ever so long, but Yusuke had no energy at all to get up, to do anything but lie in bed and cry. His red eyes fell to the beautiful sky, every day was just so beautiful it made his heart ache more, he wondered what exactly Miyake was doing… He sighed and then let the curtain drop down again, the darkness depressing him but somehow made him feel better as he was not confronted with the warm bright sunlight…

He was so sick of lying in bed all day, but still he didn’t want to face school or Miyake, surely Miyake would have told everyone by now! He pouted and snuggled into the blankets feeling guilty for thinking of Miyake in such a bad light. But he needed someone to blame!!

Slowly he got up and made his way to the kitchen, opening the fridge and getting some cold left over food out. Silently and numbly he ate the food and then washed the plates. He felt so dead…

Yusuke was just about to turn on the computer when he heard banging on the door, he froze, they’re hear to tease me! He thought but then he could hear Miyake calling his name out, he sighed Kousuke had told him that he always called and visited. Yusuke had not wanted to face him… But now as he heard Miyake banging and calling out to him he couldn’t resist…

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"You know I have missed you? A lot…these last two weeks…where have you been?"

Yusuke just opened the door wider and motioned for him to enter…his heart melting as he saw that familiar pout, he longed to hug him tight in his arms and never let him go. But that was being stupid…

Miyake went in…and saw that no one else was home yet… he had skipped school that day just to see him…

"I guess I was being baka ne…Miyake?"

Miyake shut the main door and hugged Yusuke, wrapping his arms around him…happy that Yusuke did not at all expect it… "No…" he whispered, "I was stupid…not you!" Surprised but happy he put his arms around Miyake’s waist… enjoying the feel of his skinny waist in his arms…shyly he invited him to his room…

He realized that Yusuke was the smart one…when Yusuke wrapped his arms around him…he knew it was ok…so shutting the bedroom door…he lay on Yusuke’s futon…hoping Yusuke would lay next to him… Yusuke put L’Arc~en~Ciel on…and then lay beside Miyake…with a small gap between them…he was too shy to lie closer even though he wanted it desperately…

"Come here silly!" Miyake said… "Closer….baka!" he said as Yusuke inched nearer…

When he was lying so close to Miyake his heart began to beat…he wanted to kiss him…was Miyake teasing him? He hoped not… he turned onto his side and touched Miyake’s face…just to test… but when he went to move it away…Miyake held it there…

Yusuke leaned over and kissed his cheek…Miyake turned his face so now they were facing each other…looking his eyes he moved forward till there was not a centimeter between there mouths… Quickly they pressed their lips together…kissing, gently Miyake’s mouth slid open…and he stuck his tongue out… Yusuke was surprised and opened his eyes pulling away from Miyake…

"Miyake! What are you doing?" he said genuinely confused…

Miyake laughed…and said, "That’s what your supposed to do...you did not know?"

He sat up pushing Yusuke onto his back, and then leaned down kissing him forcefully, opening his mouth with his own… Yusuke felt so odd as Miyake’s tongue began to massage his…he moaned and pulled Miyake on to his chest…Miyake pulled away smiling, "There, now you have had your first proper kiss! Was it good?" he then laughed and said… "I don’t need to ask that…I can feel you enjoyed it…hahaha!" he said…

Yusuke blushed…and then retaliated with, "Oh! And I suppose you did not huh? If that’s the case…then maybe…it’s your turn ne?" he said raising an eyebrow at Miyake…

With a single motion he pushed Miyake down and straddled him…pleased with himself as he sat on him…Miyake looked a little scared… "Ha! Now its your turn!" Yusuke said grinning as he leaned down…

As he began to kiss Miyake, he settled himself comfortably across Miyake…laying down him…he could feel Miyake’s erection…and hear Miyake gasping, as he gripped Yusuke’s head…holding firmly down so they could kiss… the door suddenly opened…they nervously sprang away from each other….

"Hey you two….what are you doing in here?" Kousuke said walking in as they began to blush…

"Um…Kousuke…school over already huh? Well…Yusuke was practicing … um… first aid on me…"

"Really? Can you show me? I never learned it you know!" Kousuke enthusiastically said looking very excited and happy, "we’re did you learn it?"

Kousuke came in to the room and sat on his brother’s bed…waiting for them to demonstrate… nervously Yusuke kissed Miyake…showing Kousuke how to do it…

"Man…you guys loosen up! You’re so tense! Hey maybe you should do it like this…here let me try…" he said leaning in on Miyake…

Yelping Miyake moved out of the way saying, "Um…I think we get the picture ne!" as he nervously grinned.

"Hey you guys want something to eat? Ka-san left some onigiri…"

"No Kousuke…I don’t think so…" Yusuke firmly said…he wished that Kousuke would just leave them alone! He had been having fun with Miyake and didn’t want his annoying elder brother their bugging them!

"Now Yusuke shouldn’t you ask Miyake-san? Before you decide… he might be hungry? In fact I know he is…right Miyake?" Kousuke menacingly said.

Miyake could do nothing but nod in agreement to Kousuke…silently they followed him out to the kitchen…

Neither said a word and Kousuke thinking something was wrong…pushed them into a hug…

"Come on guys! Why are you so quiet? Did you fight?" Kousuke asked surprised that they weren’t there usual selves.

Miyake was so nervous … when Kousuke did that … it was not a good idea for them to touch…unless to kiss…or something! He pulled away and Kousuke pulled him back making him hug Yusuke.

"Miyake! You’re too skinny, you better put on weight!" Yusuke glared at his brother, I like him that way! Leave him alone!

Finally Kousuke left the two alone saying he had to go out and see his girlfriend. Both were sighing, very relieved that he had finally left! They both just went to Yusuke’s room, not even speaking about it at all. Miyake locked the door behind him.

"Um… Yusuke, can I kiss you?" Miyake asked beginning to blush, he was also surprised at the way he just suddenly asked Yusuke if he could. Yusuke also blushed and he just nodded in reply. But both were a little unsure as to how they should do this, even though they had earlier been kissing. They sat back on the bed, but they were far away from each other.

Soon Yusuke began to pull Miyake towards him, motioning for him to lie down next to him. Yusuke took Miyake’s face in his hands, and for a few seconds looked him in the eye … to Miyake it felt like eternity … he just wanted that kiss, to feel Yusuke’s lips again … on his…

Yusuke shut his eyes and their heads moved in together … mouths parting in time … Yusuke had to have Miyake on him … he pulled him onto him, running his hands up and down Miyake’s slender and well shaped form… Slowly he began to slip his hands inside Miyake’s shirt… loving the silky skin under his fingers. He pulled his mouth away, and roughly pulled Miyake up and took his shirt off; Miyake looked scared he looked all the sweeter to Yusuke. He began to blush as Yusuke stared wonderingly at his now semi-erect nipples …

Yusuke lowered his neck, bending down towards Miyake’s neck, gently he kissed his neck, and it was so light that it was barely felt. Soon however Miyake lost all his earlier inhibitions and he began to moan under Yusuke’s touch …

Miyake was in heaven, he felt like he had died, his body was all hot and cold and Yusuke’s tongues caressed his neck and moved on to his slightly bony shoulders…

A knocking on the door jerked them back to reality, with sad faces they pulled apart. As Miyake pulled his shirt on Yusuke stole a kiss, and smiled as Miyake blushed …

"Er… maybe I should go home ne?" Miyake whispered his face beetroot red…

"All right my sweet…" Yusuke lunged for him … wrapping his arms around him and making a smacking sound with his lips…

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Fini…^^

*sweatdrops* so what do you think? *blinks* Maybe I should change some ne? Or add some more? What do you think? Comments anyone? *begs* pinkusupida@yahoo.com

Sakurai Mikiko. 17^th Sept. 2001 12:24am.

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Owari…

Sakurai Mikiko

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