April 25, 2oo4 - a new week
I'm a procrastinator yo. Nvm that now, but today.. odd, but guess what? I got a new nickname, SLUT MONKIE lol, nuthing new. I hmmm sorta "brought" up the entire thing. That's my bf's word <3 I called some girls in my school that. Now like, they end up calling me that lol. It's all cool, it's better than being called "hoochie" [victoria, admirally gaven by moi] or "hoe and whore" [michelle, evily gaven by moi]. We're just joking, but yeah, that's our names, yet you're not allow to call me "slut monkie." See, the joy of being in a charge. It is just so awesome.
Hmmmm, my sis drained my hopes to the uhhh... sea.. gosh.. I don't know what to say or how to convince mother, but yeah.. one of these day.. she will and I will be truely happy. It's so odd, but so many people know my name.. and like I don't know theirs.. lol. No, nothing to laugh about. It makes me feel embarrassed and kinda upset with myself. Do I like have difficulty memorizing names or what now? Well, honestly, their names... are like sometime.. hard to pronounce. They're like... made-up names... lol. Ghetto people. Yeah, I think today was a "greeting" day or something, but everyone like "Hi, sup, can't even say hi to me, Chao" to me.... It was weird... And dang, those snicker bars.. good and all, but I will.. and shall never carry a BOX of it! It's all Beth's faults.. That girl lol.
If someone is like "fine," wouldn't it be right to let them know.. or at least tell someone about it. Well, I did.. just because he is.. and because I want to see "her" expressions... lol, stupid girl told him. It doesn't matters because Erich Major *winkies* already know he is. All girls know he is too and they respect that. So I can't call my old buddie "fine"... It's not like I'm hitting on him. No way! We go way back in Elementary. Bryan and I kinda hmmmm.. like distanced.. We never clicked always. Oh well, It's still good to have one of the twins as a friend =).
Well, it is raining outside. I was going to go to my bf's house, but then I have to be home right after school. Just to make sure someone is going to keep up the siblings. They're home now. I'm going to go shower. Bye.
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April 25, 2oo4 - eyyy my tummy
HURTS! I know I shouldn't eat breakfast! I'm not a breakfast person. Well, just done eating noodles. Dude, I have been eating it so this week. Do you know it causes pimples? Like, I don't want that to ever occurs! My face is like pimple-free lol. Acnes is a bad thing yo. Some of the prettiest people with acne still make them bad looking. But it's aiight, It is curable. But unfortunately, for some ugly, pale looking girl, it's just a nightmare they're trying to hide. I pity them, but they think they're all that and don't even care about their acne. I say, everyone with ance should take better care of their face. Jessie proved herself one of the smart one and she is indeed beauitful. I'm not saying all this because I'm her big sis, but it is true. She have potential and of course the capability to be beautiful because she's a perfectionist. I am too, but being perfect is not all I have in mind.
Anywho, I don't know what gotten into me today, talking aabout Acne. I just want to educate you guys and all those acne-looking people out there. It is such a disaster to be seen and known as the "full of pimples girl" [I'm just concerning about the girls right now]. I mean, when people describe you, do you want such a description like that. Okay, so you think you're "hot, cute, sexay" the way you look? Ha! I know so many girls with acne, think they're cute. Well, no offense, but you're butt ugly. *Ahem* Acne can be cure. It is just overwhelming devastated for me, but I gotta speak my mind you know. So you see, my choce, I won't be eating too much instant noodles. Plus, it's not "real" food anyways.
OH yeah, I finished that Hana-Kimi's manga. It's good. It's book number 1. Argh! But I want to finish the thing, but noooooo. How am I gonna get book number 2? BOOK STORE! I like Chapter 2. Because the gay school's doctor found out Mizumi is a girl. It's funny how Nakatsu, the gay doctor's nephew, like Mizumi and all. He's thinking he's gay. I mean, for liking a boy with such a desire, to like touch him.. Now that is just plainly g-a-y. But little did he know, Mizumi is a girl and he had fallen for "her" not "him." The thing is, Mizuki, is a girl,an Japanese-American track and field star, she wanted to see her idol, high jumper Izumi Sano to do a jump so bad, that she lurked her parents to let her disguise and join Sano's school, which is a all boys' school. Mizuki, then known as the prettiest guy in school and the very first day of school, Sano thought "she" was GAY.. lol, so true. This one senior spread rumors and posted a poster about Mizuki and Sano, being "roommate [they're roommate too!] and being GAY." Sano, quiet yet popular, but rarely talk. Sano warned the senior, but the senior kept on talking smack, so for the very first time, Mizuki punched someone, punched the senior in the nose, so hard the gay doctor have to check him out. Mizuki and the gay doctor [sorry, I forgot his name!] formed a friendship. That is so true. It is possible! Gay guy are girl's bestest friend! The thing is Gay doctor have a gay record in high schoool. He liked one boy who hate him deeply. When asked by Mizuki, why he liked him anyways, He replied, "I suppose It's because I'm twisted." Twisted, so true! Lookie.. this is how he replied when Mizuki want to know how he discovered she's a girl, without stripping her [lol], "One develpoes some sensitivity to gender cues... when one is GAY", lol.
I truely love this manga, my very first one. Actually no, I downloaded a manga from the net for sis Gen this one time. It's still in my computer, but I never read it though. I'm going to read it later on. Well, since I liked chapter 2 so much, I'm going to scan it to the "reading" section. For you lazy bum, here's the direct link to it, clickie. Well, I like to learn more about "death" and all you know. Death is such a hot topic. I mean, everyone is going to die one day right? But somehow, somewhere in your life's lines, you're going to want to commit suicide or cut yourself or whatever to take your stress, anger away... See, I want to know the truth behind "Death".. Feeling Of Hopelessness Increases Risk Of Dying..... check it out. And no, I'm not no afraid-to-die freak, because I had thought of suicide and cutted myself.
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April 24, 2oo4 - one saturday lol
Well, I finally know how to read that Manga. Ukoy loved it. That anime/manga freak. I'm reading Hana-Kimi : For You in Full Blossom. It's Lili's, but I'm reading it. I think It's good for her because she actually enjoy reading it. And oh she don't read! But now she does! Oh yeah, my day? It was aiight! Freaky Day lol. It was so beautiful out today. I woke up like around 9, did morning's routines, then went downstairs and help Ha's with Madie's soup. Poor Madie, my niece, she have been sick for a week now. I got tired, so I left Ha and talked to my parent. They're happy that I'm changing. Meanwhile, they are still disappointed in Lili. Oh well, the smart ones always are loved <3.
DAng, I'm so broke yo. I know why I like to spend my money on junks now. I just want to be seen carrying a bag full of snacks and a black cherry soda on my hand. It is so weird, but yeah it is true. I would feel empty, a feeling of sadness if I do otherwise and that's not cool, you know. I'm so used doing that. Now that I'm so broke, lol, I won't be able to do that anymore. Good thing I have many older sis. I can always work my way out in order to get order *wink wink* I gotta pick up my speed when I walk lol I walks way to slow. Nah, I just enjoy the fresh environment so much, I like to drag myself and just enjoy it. No rush needed anyways.
Well, didn't go to the wedding's after party, but it's aiight. I wore a skirt too. Hien said it was short. Yeah right. It was kinda long for a mini skirt. That high heels of Hue's is so high. I know she won't be wearing that. BTW, I don't thing it fit her =X. I just realized, I'm the boniest in the family, but then I always complains about being FAT. One little girl, Tina [Jasmine], who is like only 8... oh my gosh, she was like, "You're skinny. I don't think you eat." Nah uh, this girl, my daughter *muahs* dunno what she's talking about. I eat so much.. so much today that I can't even keep track of it, so much for that meal chart. I'm about to go eat more, instant noodles! I love it! Well, my bf and I didn't go, we stay and watched Shaolin Soccer like for the 5th times now! Then I babysitted lol. It was aiight. I don't mind.
*Ahem* I changed my buddylist. So many SNs with such a poor memory, I only listed some of them. But I changed their sections'. Now there 13 sections, which are My bf, Myself, I, Me , Companions, Random Sis,
Blood Sis, Complainey, BBF oversea, Childhood Rivals, Cellie Buddies, Sickenin' B itch, D ic k head, IM just for help, and Viet rapper. And yes, I'm promised my bf I won't "type" cuss words anymore. See, I'm a nice person. I'm just so pissed online nowadays. But you never see me cuss because cussing.. uhh just so disgusting and uneducated. Well, unless you're really really mad.... then yeah, go ahead and express yourself. Anyways, I'ma go eat. Bye!
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April 23, 2oo4 - tgif, what shall i do?
It's odd but every single Friday when I'm alone, I would hmmmm... do basically nothing. Well, Ukyo came by. 4 longsome hours, she played the computer. See, told you. I dislike this friendship. Anyways, I don't mind because she's like another "sis" to ignore. So I went on did my thing, showered, straightened my hair, used this one Hair Serum, hot!!! Yeah... It was boring. I walked to the corner store with her, brought packet of 2 hotpockets and 2 cans of sodas. I love black cherry soda so muchie! It is like the best!
I used to hate Cherry... Anything that is cherry, I would like just hate it, you know. I gotta thanks my bf cause he forced me to drink cherry coke lol.. That thing is so good. I'm dying for a drink right now. *sighs* I miss my hunnie. I was going to go visit him, but he said something yesterday about dropping by. I dunno. Plus, I have to stay home and watch over these siblings of mine. Yesterday was so weird. See, my buddylist on AIM... all SNs disappear and I didn't do neither.. I started the whole thing and that's what I got... lol. But anyways, just IM me (k3llisw33ty) if you want me to add you to my list because I will only add those that IM me. Plus, I know you will IM me. I'm sooo lovable! Qui! Qui! It's true! <3.
Oh yeah, I found one site that suit me perfectly. It's a poetry site... so many poems on our negative feelings. I think it's hot. Life is not all about happiness and so should the net! I'm going to read one each and every day and add a section to this site and post it here as well. Hey... didn't I said something about adding a section on "vocabulary?" Well, I haven't read any other book after Ella Enchanted [btw, the movie is gonna come out, how excited!], so hang on. Aiight? pz. [20 mins later] Okay, I made a section on everyday's poetry [it is called]. It's in the "reading" section.
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April 22, 2oo4 - no enrichment
A normal everydays' day today was. No computer class. I have to email my bf soon. I promised him like 2 days ago. But why should I? I don't FEEL like emailing him! >_< I don't WANT to! Well, today... Gomez's class, a test... boy oh boy, I didn't study, didn't even know about the test! As shocked as I was about the test, he going to mention about my poor attendence. I know, I know. He have every right as a wonderful teacher himself and I'm glad me mentioned it. But before he can yaps on, I stopped him... I asked him to call my mother, important issue. Anywho, I took the test right? I did so bad on it. I thought I did pretty good, but NO! Look, this is so WEIRD. Last week, I didn't even study, didn't even do his assignments [because we can do it later on... for some reasons and I missed his class and all *oops*], and I PASSED that TEST with an A's!!! I got the top grade too.
I felt bad cause' this one girl known as "dumb" had a higher grade than me. I'm so stressed, you see. I'm ashamed of myself. AANYWHO! I stayed after school to do my CHAPTER REVIEW. These "tutors" was there to help me. I think I'm stubborn and I'm vain and overall PROUD.. I basically did everything by myself.... Okay, they hate me. This one lady decided to go cause' I was the only one there. See, if my sis, Lili, was there, alone, she wouldn't EVEN think of doing that. See, you vainfull ppl out there, chill, don't be like me. Even the tutors dislike you. Shame. Shame.
Took the Detention Bus home. That Bus is so freaking loud, bunch of lunatics trying to be "cool." It was a longsome ride too. Anywho, got home, changed into a short & white shirt [over my summer bikini's tank] and I went downstairs, read a story to my niece, just chill with her, you know. Dude, My crayon-coloring skills is so like FINE. I can win a contest cause' it's that FINE *muahahaha*. Anywho yeah, just chilling with my favorite niece who loves me unlike *someone* geez!
Well, lookie.. I'm so broke right now that I've opened my own "massage centre" YES it's TRUE! come come come over and test my talents! See, lookie.. It's so odd.. touching, massaging other ppls [ whatever you wanna call it ], meaning my big sis. She asked me to massage her and she would gimme money. So I'm like, okay.. I need money! You see, I never touch.. massage anyone, besides my bf... yes, 349 days experiences! [17 days more!!!] *wink wink* So like, it's odd for me, so awkward! But I did it anyways. 20 minutes! and she gave me.... 2 bucks.... wuh the fuk? lol. I'm MAD! But yeah. Then she asked me to do some more. See, she liked it! You will too! 6 more mins, then here I am! Okay.. I'm j/k about the whole massaging centre okay? Don't come by and be like, "kellie, massage me and here goes the money" cause' I'd kick your ass and be like, "biach, who do I look like, massaging your slickass face self lol." Kellie only massage this one person she EXTREMELY HATE and his name is TONY BUI! ARGH!
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April 21, 2oo4 - ahhhhhhhhh
I LOST MY ENTRY FOR THIS DATE! >_< stressed so I became CLUMSY *sighs*
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April 2o, 2oo4 - sso freaking hot
IT IS! OMG! Well, I forgot today was testing, SAT [9]. It consist of three section, Reading Vocabulary [so lame and my vocabs suck!!!], Reading Comprehension [great!!! didn't complete task =/], and Math [betweenies]. I'm gonna start reading and set out a "vocab chart." Hmmmm.... it was so hot, wasn't it? The hot wheather got everyone insane, dressing all slutish lol. Slut Monkies! Anyways, I hate it so much, but I can't help it. Yes, so I'm going to school now, but I don't like. Blamed on the school, well probably is the true, but who cares. No one really love school anyways.
Say and gonna do it too. Yes my new motto. Just don't pressure me thought, cause I'll end up doing the opposite. I do gotta save money. I spend so much on junks. The amount I spend on junks would shock you. I'm very sad, that's why I go and spend money on junks... Every pennies, doesn't matters, but I feel guilty. It's money, hard-working money and I spend it in less than 10 minutes. I should be ashame of myself and I am. No doubt about that.
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April 19, 2oo4 - such a feeling
I feel bad.. I'm a bad daughter, a lousy student, and a mean gf =(. I promised my daddy things, but I end up breaking it. I know it's not the right time to say "I can't help it" because I CAN and everything I do, say are all my OWN fault! See, don't ever get me to promise you on little, such as going to school regularly, because someone/something are always there to tempt me into skipping school. No one fault this time, but my own's. Dude, I had a feeling I wasn't going to school today. Poor Derek, brought the cake and everything for me. Sorry if you're here and reading this dumbass entry. I feel bad. Additional to "I'm a bad" lists, I am a bad FRIEND!
I sitting here, wondering, "maybe I should change my schedule." Like how I set the clock to alarm at 5, I should get up that time instead of going back to sleep until it is 6. Yes, then I should shower, istead of showering at night or until the very last minute and like go to school with wet hair. Then I can have quality time to spend updating this site, IM my hunnie and tell him how much I missed him and how I miss hitting him in my sleep, lol how I miss him! Then I would be all wide awake that time, I would be enlighted to walk to the Bus Stop to catch the Bus. See, I blame my big sis for all of this. If only she's not afraid to drive.. *sighs* Still haven't got my permit. Sunday, PennDot closed. But I got everything done though. I got my cutted, layered [2 inches shorter], I got my physical check up done, and watched Kill Bill volumn II. Great, now GO TO SCHOOL REGULARLY and BE HAPPY! lol, it's funny, but I'm like always telling myself to "be happy" nowadays. It's cheepy. I need counseloring =X.
All nail polish remover products stinks! Yeb, removeing the polish. It is so fugly. Glitters.. uhhhh, why did I even putted it on.. weeks ago? Funny thing, it didn't fades away. Well, it did because my nail grew longer. They're like too long right now. After a long shower, feel so good. I love to shower around noon, best time to spend some time with your body =X. *sighs* My Yves Rocher's products all almost gone.... Yves Rocher is a genuis! If I ever get to meet him, It would be a honor. I would shake his hand, hug him if possible. Then I would slap and kick him in the crotch! lol, Then I would be like, "biach, I spend a fortune on your products.. good thing i was a new customer, lesser price, thanks!" His products are soo like great yo! Anywho, mommy is making those yellow pancake [will look like it] that have meat inside of them. It's a Vietnamese cuisine called BANH XEO. It is good! But I don't like to eat it, so messy whenever I eat it. I wanna make one for my hunnie, gonna ask mom to lemme fry one or she can do it for him, doesn't matters. Gonna go do my hair, curl it a little bit. Bye! Btw, stupid polish remover is no good, didn't remove the glitters and my hair are still WET.. and can't curl my hair, hair machine not hot enough =(.
YUMMIE! Banh Xeo is soooo good. I asked mother to save one for Tony <3. Hmmmm, I've just thought of something. Since Derek brought me cake, I should let him try Banh Xeo. I dunno, I'm going ask him if he want any. He tried Pho at Pho Pasteur and loved it. So why not Banh Xeo? Okay, Banh Xeo is very different from Pho. It is not a soup, that's all I gotta say. Well, I'm so like full right now. Been eating too much lol. Well, been keeping a meal chart, listed all the food I eat. It getting difficult to keep up with the chart *sighs*
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April 18, 2oo4 - last night
What a day! I've finally did everything that was scheduled, odd. Well, went to Derek's grandma's Birthday Party. A Birthday shoutout to her and may all her wishes come true! I went because I got invited, wanted to introduce Jessie, and just to meet his family. They're pretty cool. I feel awkward at first though. Everyone was like "ricans." lol, but it's cool. His one cousin, "Willie," I think he is cool. Jessie wanna "dig" him. Lol, I don't blame her... =X I ♥ my hunnie! Anyways, after that we had to decided what to do. Bowling was our first choice. But Jessie and I was like "nahhhhh." So we went to the threatre and watched Kill Bill volumn 2. It's aiight. Pretty decent. I like the first one though, much more actions. I'm getting sleepy and my drink are getting cold, so I'm going to make this entry so. Well, we went to Deny's around that. We had to pick between McDonald's and Denny's. We talked and laughed so hard. It's weird having a guy telling meGuy's stuff, although I knew them.
Dude, I can't believe it, but I'm never going to do this again. I will not stay up til 7 am! I'll promise you that! Well, I did slept for like 10 hours. Kinda hate myself for doing that, but I was just too sleepy. I hitted my bf too. How mean of me! *slap self* Well... I started on a new layout. May is coming up that's why <3. May is such a special month too! You'll eventually know why! TOP SECRET! I didn't like the layout that much. Thai couldn't make this one banner for me, tough luck. He just got photoshop, not skilled... yet. Hmmmm... I ♥ yogurts yo! 10 for 4 bucks, wayyyy too cheap! School is 9 hours away. Jessie want to walk to school...I agreed, but I don't know...
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April 17, 2oo4 - good morning!
Wow it's only 9:04! I'm up so early and it's a Saturday too! lol. Well, I used to wake up at 7, but then being around my lazy bum bf so much, I became lazy. So you see, I blame him <3. I think I'm sick. I coughed and my nose... running nose. I loathe it so much!
Okay, lets discuss about something. How about the looks of my hair? lol. I love when I swing it. IT IS JUST SO SHORT! [not short short] I'm like so used to my long hair. 2 inches shorter. I don't know if I can handle it =(. Stupid Mother kepts on bugging me about my haircut, saying shiet like, "it's better long." FUCK! Long and full of split ends. This lady, don't know my purpose in cutting my hair. Plus, I don't like it all freaking long. She need to mind her own busy. Anywho, that's her.
Yo, I fucking hate it when people be like, "calm down, your hair cut is aiight" when you fucking know it's not! Dammit! And whenever you like something, someone have to say shiet that bring you down. What the fuck? Fucking Asian's way. Always saying shiet to make people happy. Like they go up to a parents with some fugly kids and be like, "Such beautiful daughter you got." I saw these shiet all the times at parties. Or when ladies wearing their tight ass jean that makes them looks fat, They'd go, "It looks perfectly on you. such elegrant tall legs you got!" These bullshit sicken me. It's like people want you to look fugly. And when you look nice, "Go change the outfit. It looks wrong. You look FAT" WHEN YOU DON'T! bitches these day! Anywho, webcam blows, can't take pic. It looks the same.
All these shiet, I don't give a fuck. Lets talk about something else. So, I read a book this week. I finished it too. That's amazing, beacuse you know, I never finish a book. I really do love young adults novel. Novel such as Flyy girl or The Coldest Winter Ever are indeed filled with sexual desires, teens going through experiences, faces difficultities in life, teens' relationship abuse, etc... OMG, I love books like these. I love all category of books [novels]. Yesterday, I asked Cassandra to let me read this one novel [it belongs to this one lady she was holding it for her]. It is titled "Addicted by ZANE. I like the plots of the story. High School Sweethearts [moi & mon copain <3] being married to each other, 3 kids, succeed financially, got their dreamhouse... then the lady, due to her addiction to sex, she committed adultery [3 men, ouu la la]. I skimmed through the book. I'm going to read it on spare time =X. Must get the book first tho [library time!]. I've alway wanted to read "THE LOST BOY" by Dave Pelzer and "THE LOST CHILD" by Marrianne White. My favorite childhood's author is Judy Blumes. She's so awesome <3.
DUDE! I have a birthday party to attend! Where the fuck is big sis? I am going to be so piss if she doesn't come home today. I swear.. argh! Oberlin PA? So it's not in Harrisburg, good. Shiet.... the invitation... in my locker! time? Why didn't I ask him? Ouuuu.. he's on! Just mentioned him too.. That is so creepy! lol.
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April 16, 2oo4 - tgif for real!
Well, lets see. I decided to set the layout this way. I separated the old entries in another page, so everytime you drop by, you'll only see the new one. But nevertheless, I linked it to another page, where the old entries belongs.
Anywho... Ukyo came by. Jackie and Azeline too. But Jackie and her sis left early. We walked to the corner store, got some junkies, then they left Jessie, Ukyo, and moi. Oh well. Ukyo hogged the computer for 4 hours long, I believe. It doesn't matter anyway. Friends come over, so I gotta treat them well. That's the Asian's way. Right my Asian fellows? I read the entire book in a day. Aren't you proud? It was only 232 pages long. Ella Exchanted is such a sweet book. I love it! I like chapter 29. I decided to publish it in the "read" section on your right. I gotta type it up tho. Check it out. I'm also posted my poem up. It is titled "THE MASTER, THE MAN & THE WOMAN". As I warned you, you'd never get the true meaning of it, but do try. I know I have to explain my poems, but I'm not in the mood to do so. And please do note, this poem tells a story. It is a deep one too. It's weird, but I've been saying deepest things, composing deepest emails, and wrote some deep poems.
Anyway, I planned to get my hair cut today. That stylist dude was suppose to come at 6. He called at 7, to found out, Lili wasn't home, so what's the use to come, so he didn't. I don't blame him. I also wanted to go watch Kill Bill volumn 2, but I cannot. If I dare to ask Hien, she would say No. But then she's never home nowadays. I hate it. I'm jubilant over here. Pissed as hell. Everytime I ask my mother, she would answer me no. As day goes by, I lacks respect for her. I don't know why. But I do pledge for forgiveness. I just can't help it. It's how I feel toward her now. She cares too much, yet careless when it comes to family. I'm dumbstrucked as I types, but then I rather stay this way. I can be careless about her now. This entry, a dedication to a big sis, I now offically hate.
I wonder what's my bf doing and where is he. I do admit it was absolutely wrong of moi to talk to him that way. But then, I don't know. It was over a stupid matter too. I am ashamed. OMG! hold on! my big sis got her hair cutted! [1 hour or so later] I just got my hair cutted, layered. How cool. It's like 2 inch shorter =(. But it's aiight I guess. It's too short, my bf gonna yell. I really hate haircut. I used to cry after a haircut =X. *Sighs* I miss my hunnie. It's times like this, I realized how silly it is for me to be mad at him over easy-to-solve matters. I really do miss him, yet he annoys me sometime *muahahaha.* How he always try to comfort, faking a baby, his big baby self, and how he always smiles and close his eyes shut when my hair get in his way, lmao. Oh how I miss it so much! A day without him. A day I died.
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April 15, 2oo4 - very funny
Yo, I stayed after school... did nothing but read Ella Enchanted [good book!]. Hattie left.. stupid lady. Lili, my big sis, got detention for being tardy the other day. Everyone bascially left me there with a bunchies of Rican boys and that lady Taresha. *sighs* Then those boys started leaving too. One of them waved bye. Boy always waves bye to me. He looked familiar too. Can it be Quan? I don't know. Anywho, yeah I ignored Taresha and this one Rican boy. She was helping him with his homework, while I minded my own business and relucantly read my book. Love that book! Lady Kim called and talk to Taresha, then asked for me. How are you doing, My dear?... uhhh correction, don't call me that.. it is just so like WHITE and CREEPY! I don't like her >___< OMG! Jasmine brought her baby daughter to school today (and I didn't even get to hold - kiss her!). She is so KUTE (I saw from a distance away)! Maybe next time, who knows. Btw, her name is Leilani with no "e" hehehe That's where I got my nickname. Hot eh? Don't hate. I made one LONG poem last night. Actually I thought of it the other night (sunday) when my bf and I talked, but finished it last night. The poem is a little weird because it is trying to say something, but I'm just playing with your mind, mix things around, you know. It's hard to understand. There a "inner side" meaning to it. You'll never know, but it's cool. Post later.
computer class
I'm in school right now. So bored. Stupid computer class. We're searching for college. Last time we have to plan a vacation, booked hotels, planes, rented car, and etc. It was dumb. But I think it's better than this. I know which college I'm gonna go... so blahs. What a waste of time! Well, I'm going to stay after school. Gotta work on my French II's project about JOAN OF ARC. Bye World!
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April 14, 2oo4 - after school's program
Hey... it's not bad at all. This is like my second time in 2 weeks. She's talkative tho, but it's all cool. I think it's cool because my sis and I got to talk more, become closer, you know. Anywho, we talked about so many thing. It was hilarious when this lady snaps out. I was like, omg, she's so WHITE! I'm so like going to be white-washed by her. She gave us a ride to Pho Pasteur. I spend 20 bucks there.. on food.. again. Sigh, when am I going to save money? We walk to Little Saigon. I was going to rent some TVB's series tapes, but my sis was like, nah lets get some subs instead. I love food, so with no hesitation, I hogged the subs, paid, and left the shop. Walked a little further, then Quanie drove me home. It was fun. Blah. I'm so like full right now. I didn't drop by my hunnie's house to just like chill with him. I was full. I felt uncomfortable carry my big tummy around LOL.
and over it goes
Slackies... Slackies.... call us harrisburgians that... Slackies when it comes to school. Dude, I'm actually getting a little worry here. 39 days of school left. Don't that sound near to you? Okay, my litto sis said it don't. But it's close to me. Well, I'm not going to make any promises in going to school regularly anymore because I doubted it. [See what you get for not believing in yourself?] *sighs*
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April 13, 2oo4 - Spring Break ends
No school for me.. because.. man, seriously, I'm slacking off when it comes to school. It's not about getting up early in the morning. It's just I loathe school so much I would wake up darn early and sit at the computer and stares at my bf's sn. lol. Well, I decided to make the day a worthy day by going to visit the Docs, but they scheduled it tommorrow. *Sighs* another day absent. I feel like I can't go to school anymore. I ♥ my bf <3.
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April 12, 2oo4 - New York New York
Yes, I took a trip to New York. It was freaking RAINING! lol yo, I wasn't prepared. I was like at my bf's house. I thought they [jessie & lavor] wasn't gonna go, but we went anyway. On the way there, we just listened to rap songs. Man, I thought I was about to be black-washed, lol. I slept all the way to New Jershey =X. It was like so boring.... lol. But it was all cool. When we got to the Holland Tunnel... Man, people started driving *freaking.* Like this Bus, yo out of nowhere, it was there. We almost hit it, lol, [jk!]. People make slow decision when it comes to turn signals in New York. It's weird, but it's true. The Manhattan's Pretzel was no good.... or that guy's pretzel was no good. Didn't dipped it in butter like the way I wanted it. And.. and... KETCHUP. OMG! I must eat it with KETCHUP. We didn't do much shopping. We ate at Pho 89 in Broadway St near Canal [?], somewhere there. Anywho, I didn't get anything in New York. The wheather really did ruined my day in New York. I wanted to get something for my hunnie and mother, but then I can't =(. Jessie and I went to this one shop, forgot the name of it. But dang, the boss, she look like a supermodel, so freaking TALL and EXTRA thin. I wanna be like that. Wait, she had on EXTRA high high heels, but still, yeah that's my image. And no, not like those bony-short azz asian girl. That's so like ASIAN, so uhhh... AVERAGE. So until then, I will be physically and emotionally ready for New York <3.
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April 11, 2oo4 - Hell Boy the movie
One "out-of-this-world" movie. I thought we [lavor, ted, jessie, and i] was gonna go see Dawn of the death but noooo... Hell Boy. It's was aiight. But there are certain things I dislike about this movie. Like Hell Boy, himself... He's so like careless and he's always acting all freaking bored, like he's always being sarcastic. And oh, his [so-called] father death, right after that scene, dude gonna tell his girl that he's not gonna give up on her... wtf? Lets talk about the father... dude! Okay.. I don't wanna spoil for those who hasn't seen it yet. But I still do wanna go see Dawn of the death <3. I aslo want to go watch [dont' call me a girlie girl] 13 turning 30 and WHITE CHICKS!
All these tears
I lied... I do sincerely care what people think of/say to/about me. Sometime Ijust want to let everything go, let him go, but the thought of it, tear me apart and tears would automically drift down my cheeks. It just like that. I hate it, how sensitive I am and all. No wonder I hate life. People get me down so easily. I must avoid them.
What is your personality?
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April 1o, 2oo4 - Spring Shopping
And no I didn't spend a fortune on it =P. It amazingly cool and beautiful outside. I loved the wheather at first, but as the Sun came out, I was like.. "uhhhh.. I'm getting a lil bit sleepy here." Sun irritates me. They burns me as well. I hate the Sun with a passion [for real!]. Just to make thing short, I went shopping with Jessie + Hien. On the car, Mother told us stories of her youth days and how Father, being a "handsome" pimp, cheated on her, but told her the truth. I love hearing stories from the adults. They experienced a lot in life, so hearing them out, I gain knowledges about Life and they're also can be head ups for me as well. As usual, I didn't get as much as Jessie... but her stuff was like cheaper. She can shop. That's all I gotta say. I just get what I want and what I want is what I get. Make sense? Of course! Reminder : I still owes Jessie $21.34 + Lili still owes me $50! I got 3 shorts, looked beautifully due to that fact, I'm "short" material <3. Love shorts! Also got some T-shirts, a headband, a Liz Claiborne's white belt [$15]. Do you think it worth it? I think so! Cause'.... Liz Claiborne dude! I do sincerely love belts! I should start a collection of it and I will! Hopefully, I won't throw out =X.
Virus the movie
Good movie. At least characters in this movie aren't DUMB like in the old version of TEXAS CHAINSAW! But I hate them so bad yo. The "something" star Captain, man, If I were to be his crewmate.. I would *BANG BANG* this dummy. I would punch the sizzle out of him, toss him in the air, like I'm superman [lady], tear his ass up, spank him and be like, "what's my name, nukka?" lol. I would torture his ass, man. Why? Dude, this guy is like a gothic. Wait, gothic wear all black... and mostly express weird ppls.. anywho, whatever. He wore all black, so? He's self-fish. All he care about is DOEs and HIMSELF! "dominant of lifeform" my ass, that's why you got controlled, biach! Then came Steve, he was self-fish at first. He's with the Doe as well. 30 millions.. shiet. Hiko, what a cute name. I like this guy. He want to use his millions in doing good, start a school for children. That's hot. Nadia, girl is a lil slut! jk! But she wasn't that brave til like the very end of the movie. Foster, forgot her name, she look like a man. Nothing more to that, but she lived. I like this movie. I like horror movies. 13 ghosts and Ghost ship is like my favorites! Just love the sea horrifying movies, where people die... creepy. I like to get myself scared.. lol *sighs* reading Chermaine's latest fanfic right now [Death Occur].
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April o9, 2oo4 - offically Spring Break
First day of Spring Break... I stayed up all night yesterday. Didn't sleep until 7 am. I woke up at 10 am and did something amazing! I spend times with my niece, Maddy. She is just adorable. We talks. I took her to the Creek, nearby Ivy Lane's and told her there are fishs in there, but she didn't believe me. I did not lied neither because there are actually fishs in there. It is just too cold for them to come out. We went to the corner store. She got all dressed up too, very cute! I told her she can get anything she want. Nice girl, also got something for my litto bros and her big bro. And oh! She wanted to get my boyfriend something too.. and with her OWN money too.. geez, that pimp, got lil girls getting him stuff... lol. Well, yeah we went to Tony's house... He ass was still sleeping, scared the sizzle out of him, I guess. Maddy is too sweet <3 . I walked her home, but man, I haven't notice this, but she is so tiny..... for a 7 years old and I'm way too weak for a 16 years old. She was getting sick, so I had to give her piggie rides. But she would ask me, "are you tired?" "can you make it?" and would ask me to let her down, but me being stubborn, heck no! But I did let her off several of times.. couldn't stand it. I spend the entire day with my boyfriend. We watched TEXAS CHAINSAW, the old version, blows! It was so weak, so dumb, and it's characters are just simply dumb morons/bithches =X. I spend all my money today.. my Mother just gave it to me too... Lili still owe me 50 bucks!
Brought so many junks today.. all snacks... Man, I need to save money. I miss my hunnie <3.
what a coincidence
1 Month away.. from my one year's Anniversity.. with my boyfriend, Tony. I don't know seriously, but his words.. they are extremely discouraging. He always let me down without knowing he's actually doing it. It's like I'm uncomfortable with him. He always twist things.... and make me confuses and I feel all negative all over again.... it's not like I like being like this.. Sometime, I just want to end my life and get over with all this bullshit....
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April o8, 2oo4 - lili's birthday
Well... lookie.. I'm back! Today is my big sis, Lili's 18th birthday. I want to wish her a happy happy birthday! I'm going to take her out later on and treat her... Two sis are coming along... lets have fun..... but.... I feel horrible right now. This feeling... this anger.... for no specific reason... or I'm hiding something.. something deep... deep inside... I'm probably just pissed at life... no excitements... but then, I don't really appreciate anything... how ironic huh? I don't even know what to think anymore.. Life is basically routines.. things I do, say, and how I reacts.. are routines! I know I sound miserable.. depressed... got a fugly zit too [argh!]... I just can't help it.. I'm who I am.. I'm happy when I'm with certain people.. but when I'm alone.. I start thinking over things.. and would get offended... even worst... would questions myself... It's not like I want to have split personalities.. It is just who I am... I'd understand if you can't accept it.. because I, myself don't accept such a thing as two personalities.. but I realized.. took me some times... got to the lowest point in my life in which I gotta shout this out loud... I AM INSECURE!
Well, just to let you guys know, my daddy brought an X-box. No, we ain't rich >____< I don't get it. We don't even play games all like that and He's going waste money on it.. should have give me money so I can go shopping! lol. I know he's slick. He got it for Kennie and Stevie. Good! Because now.. they're all into it.. no more MY COMPUTER! Good... suck is.. that... It is going to be in my room. Btw! I cleaned my MESSY room... LiLi need to help me around the room. She kepts on turning it into a mess. ARGH! I can't live with her anymore. It took me at least 3 hours last time to clean the entire room. This time, nah uh hunnie, It only took me 2 hours. I didn't fold the clothes that's why. She's doing it. But my bed looks BEAUTIFUL! ^__________^
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