All In The Band

by Kurara

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Part 12

Kyo woke up the next morning and moaned, shifting to snuggle in more
with Toshiya. The bassist smiled and held him closer, kissing
lightly at his neck. "MMmmm... ohayo." Kyo responded, closing his
eyes and resting his head on Toshiya's shoulder.

"Ohayo." Toshiya replied, kissing Kyo's forehead and sitting them
both up. "Let's take a shower, ne?" He got up and grabbed Kyo's
hand, taking the naked boy with him into the bathroom.

***

"Toshiya!" Kaoru ran up to the bassist, throwing an arm around his
shoulders. "Wanna go out tonight?"

Toshiya giggled and kissed his cheek. "Sure, Kaoru. Let's go!"

As they walked out of the practice room, Kyo sighed and collapsed
onto the couch, staring absently at the wall until it was blocked by
a familiar body. "Ne, you alive?" It joked.

"Shut up, Die."

"Ooo... snappy."

"I see you're in a better mood. What happened, Shinya finally let
you fuck him?" He snapped back. Shinya walked in at that moment,
before Die could strangle Kyo, and as he walked by, he didn't even
take notice of the two. "I guess not. So what, did you get Kaoru to
give you some? Or maybe you've gone back to---"

Die clamped his hand over Kyo's mouth and pressed hard. "Why are you
spitting venom today, Kyo? What's wrong?"

Kyo pulled away. "I'm sorry..." he whispered.

"Ne, why don't you come over for a drink?"

"I don't like alcohol." Kyo muttered.

"I know, but if anyone needs some, it's you right now." He grabbed
Kyo's wrist. "Let's go."

***

Kyo stumbled into the bathroom, gripping onto the toilet and throwing
up, Die mumbling apologies from the door. "I didn't know you had
such a low tolerance! Gomen gomen!" He frowned as Kyo heaved again
and then came up, rushing to the sink and washing his face and
rinsing his mouth before flushing the toilet. "Gomen!"

Kyo frowned and took a step foreward, only to have his toe poked by
something. He looked down and saw a razor.... with blood. "Die?"
He peered up. "Why's this so bloody?"

"Eh.. I just cut myself shaving..."

Kyo raised an eyebrow and pounced on Die, making him fall back
against the wall as he shoved up the guitarist's sleeves, gasping as
he saw a fresh scar across one arm. "Die... people don't shave their
arms...." He looked up into the other man's eyes.

Casting his gaze away, Die sighed. "It's nothing..."

"Your first time?"

Die looked back. "Huh?"

"This was your first cut, huh?" He ran a finger down the scar.

"Yeah..."

"It's not too deep... should heal up actually.... like my first... I
didn't do more after that, you know? Didn't make me feel any
better..."

"Kyo..."

"Die... do you think Shinya would want you anymore if you're all cut
up?" Kyo frowned.

"You.. know?"

"Who doesn't? Die.... you just need to tell him. Cut all this
bullshit that's happening. Tell that boy you love him. I don't care
if it's hard, this is KILLING YOU and I'm not gonna lose you because
of it!" Kyo felt tears stinging in his eyes.

"What about you? When are you gonna tell Kaoru? If it's so freaking
easy---"

"I NEVER SAID IT WAS EASY!" Kyo yelled. "But I'm not the one that's
HURTING myself because of it!" Tears streamed down his face and he
buried his head into Die's chest. "Die... you're not gonna do this
again, are you?" He began to sob.

Die hugged Kyo tightly and they both slid down to sit on the floor.
Die held Kyo close and sighed as Kyo cried himself to sleep.

***

"Kaoru..." Toshiya frowned. "Kaoru.. let go... I gotta go back to
the apartment..."

"Stay here tonight..." Kaoru began to kiss the back of Toshiya's
neck, reaching around and stroking the bassist, trying to get him
hard again.

"No Kaoru." Toshiya got out of Kaoru's grasp and started to put back
on his clothes. "I gotta go back."

"Why don't you ever stay the night, Toshiya... don't you like me?"
Kaoru pouted.

Toshiya smiled softly to Kaoru and kissed him lightly on the
lips. "Of course I like you, Kaoru. But I like my bed alot... and
plus, my teddy bear is at home."

"Then I'll come with you." Kaoru got up and started putting on his
clothes. "You'll find I'm a better teddy bear."

***

Shinya turned on his phone, determination on his face. //Finally...
I have to...// He pressed the number for Die's cell and waited as it
rang.

***

Die slowly slid away from Kyo and walked over to the table where he
had his phone. "Moshi moshi?"

"...."

"Moshi moshi?" Die frowned.

"...Die?"

"SHINYA?!"

"Yeah... ummm.... listen..."

"Shinya, wait! I gotta talk to you too... but.. in person."

"... yeah... I have to tell you this in person too... can we meet up?"

"Ahh... sure... Uhmm.. I'll go to your place, okay? I'll be there in
fifteen minutes."

"Okay... bye."

"Bye." Die hung up the phone and sighed. He walked over to the
bathroom and picked up Kyo, bringing him into his bedroom and onto
the bed and writing a note for him saying where he was. He smiled at
the small man and walked out.

***

Shinya waited on his couch nervously while he waited for Die to come
over. //What does he have to say?// He frowned. //Maybe he's gonna
tell me he doesn't wanna be around me anymore... or that he hates
me... but.... why would he try so hard to get into my clothes if he
hates me...// When the doorbell finally rang, Shinya heart raced so
fast he couldn't even get up. "C--come in!"

The door opened and slowly Die came in, eyes roaming the room and
catching on Shinya. They both stared at each other in silence before
Die gave a small laugh and took off his shoes, closing the door and
coming to sit next to Shinya. "Kon ban wa."

Shinya smiled slighlty and nodded. "Kon ban wa."

"Eh..." Die bit his lip. "I think you should go first... What I have
to say might... might make you feel uncomfortable... and I wanna hear
what you say first..."

Shinya nodded. "I... I think I'll make you uncomfortable too...
but... uhh... Daisuke..." Die held onto his hand and Shinya looked
up, slighlty scared. "I... I..." He bit his lip. "I'm... in
love..." he whispered.

Die's heart quickened and he reached his other hand up to Shinya's
cheek. "With.. with who?" He asked, anticipation and fear causing
his voice to tremble.

"With... with..." Shinya squeezed his eyes shut, trying to stop
himself from crying as he whimpered, "you..."

"Houtno ni?" Die asked happily, joy overriding his voice.

"H.. hai..."

"Shin-chan... that's... that's great!"

"Huh?" Shinya opened up his eyes to see Die smiling widely. "What?"

"I came over here to tell you... well... that I love you too..."

Shinya shook his head. "No.. Die... don't just agree with this...
don't lie to me..."

The grip on Shinya's hand tightened as Die looked deeply into
Shinya's eyes. "The only reason I agreed to this bandcest stuff was
because I thought we'd get a chance to be closer... and when you
rejected me that morning... it broke me so badly... Shinya... I love
you." Die whispered lightly before taking Shinya's lips in his.

***

Sap.. pushaw...
C/C?? PLEASE!!! ;_;
~Kurara

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