All In The Band

by Kurara

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Part 20

"Kyo..." Hakuei spoke up once Kyo's sobs subsided. Kyo pulled away
slightly, hanging his head, and Hakuei brushed his bangs out of his
face. Kyo peered out of his hair to look at the other man. "Let's
go get some drinks, okay?"

//...if someone needs a drink, its you...// Die's words rang in Kyo's
head along with his memories. Getting drunk, Die's blade, walking
alone, coming home to find Toshiya and Kaoru, the run to the river,
getting in and drifting away... He nodded. That chain of events
wouldn't happend again.

Hakuei smiled and stood up. "Let's go tell your friends first."

Kyo nodded, knowing that Toshiya would worry if he suddenly
disappeared. They walked to the waiting room and Kyo saw Toshiya and
Kaoru sitting next to each other on a couch. //I guess they're
together? ...no.... Toshiya isn't on him enough...// "Guys?"

Toshiya looked up. "Kyo! Where'd you go?"

"I... I just went to go back here and saw Hakuei..." he motioned back
to Hakuei. "We're going to go out for a bit, okay? Then I'll go
home... I'm tired. Tell Shinya I said bye?"

Toshiya nodded while standing up and hugging Kyo. "I'll see you when
I get home." Toshiya kissed Kyo lightly before walking outside to
smoke.

Kyo watched as the door to the outside balcony closed before turning
to Kaoru. "Now you have sometime with Toshiya..." He smiled weakly
before turning and walking out with Hakuei.

***

//Kyo... you're with Hakuei?// Toshiya sighed, sucking on his
cigarette. //It's only natural, I suppose... Hakuei DID save Kyo's
life... but...// Toshiya sighed, blowing out smoke. //I suppose now
Kyo will want out... and he's my favorite part of the
bandcest...// "Suki da... Kyo..." Toshiya could see the parking lot
from where he stood and could see Hakuei and Kyo walk to Hakuei's car.

Kaoru came out a few momemnts later and looked with him. //He looks
so depressed...// Kaoru wrapped an arm around Toshiya's shoulder and
pulled him close, Toshiya's head falling to rest on his shoulder.
Kaoru rested his head on Toshiya's, sighing inwardly. //It's like
we're a couple...//

"Do you think it's okay?" Toshiya asked, just above a whisper.

"What?" Kaoru responded, just as softly.

"Kyo and Hakuei."

"Mmm.... I don't know... I suppose." Kaoru turned Toshiya to face
him. "You worried?"

Toshiya bit his lip and looked down. "A bit..."

Kaoru lifted Toshiya's head by the chin and brushed his lips against
the taller man's. "Don't worry... Kyo won't let Hakuei hurt him..."

Toshiya nodded and hugged Kaoru loosely. //That's not all I'm
worried about...//

***

Kyo sighed, sipping at his beer. Hakuei had decided to take the
other vocalist to his apartment instead of a bar, saying that he
didn't want to have to drag Kyo's drunk self home. Kyo sighed,
licking his lips free of the drink while Hakuei sat next to him,
turning on a movie. "Hakuei?"

"Hai?"

"I... I told Kaoru how I feel..." Kyo took another sip.

"Oh?" Hakuei looked over, uninterested in the previews. "How did it
go?"

Kyo bit his lip. "He doesn't feel the same..."

Hakuei nodded and sipped at his beer. "So... what happened?"

"We... we slept with each other."

"What?! Kyo... your band... are you really all..."

Kyo nodded. "We have a mutual understanding of physical contact..."
he sighed. "So, Kaoru and I slept together... that's why we left
yesterday."

"Hmm... did... did anything--"

"I told him to lie to me." Kyo took a long swig. "I forced him to
tell me he... that he loved me."

//Kyo....//

"I'm... I"m such a fool... and he loves Toshiya and so I... I offered
to help him..."

"Kyo! You're pushing yourself too hard! You can't just blindly
ignore your own pain!"

Kyo nodded. "I know... It's just... I want him to be happy, you
know? Even if it's not with me...."

Hakuei looked down, not knowing what to say.

***

"Shinya...." Die groaned as his eyes fluttered open.

Shinya gasped, pulling his head off of Die's chest and tears filling
his eyes. "Die!"

Die's hand moved shakily up, soon clasped within Shinya's and pressed
to the drummer's face. "Shinya... where...?"

"The hospital. Die... Die what happened?"

Die shook his head. "It doesn't matter, Shin-chan... it doesn't
matter...." He tighted his hand around Shinya's. "You're so
pretty... Shin-chan... am I alright?"

Shinya nodded. "I hope so! Die... I was so worried you wouldn't
wake..."

Die smiled slightly. "Of course I'd wake. I love you too much not
to."

Shinya's eyes and smile brightened as new tears spilled down his
cheeks. "Oh Die!" He bent down and kissed Die as the guitarist
tightened his hand more around Shinya's.

Shinya pulled back a bit and used his free hand to stroke Die's
face. "I love you too..." Suddenly, the room began to
shake. "What?" Shinya threw his gaze all over. "What's happening??"

"SHINYA!"

"Toshiya?" Shinya looked around, but couldn't find Toshiya... and
Die had left. "Die??" Shinya panicked as the room shook more.

"SHINYA!"

***

"Shinya! Shinya! Wake up!" Toshiya frowned, shaking Shinya's
shoulder more until the bishounen shot suddenly up. "Finally."

"DIE! Where--" Shinya's eyes rested on Die and his eyes filled with
tears again. "Die..." //You didn't really wake....//

"Shinya, it's time for Die to get his meds and examination... let's
go eat, okay?" Toshiya calmly requested, helping Shinya up.

Shinya nodded numbly, standing up to go and gasping as he noticed
Die's hand tightly around his own.

***

::yawns:: a friend of mine just called and she's boring on the
phone..... @_@ I'm like, "uh huh... yeah... oh?..."
Gah.... I'm soooo tired... Comments? Please?? I need something to
make me smile >_<



~Kurara

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