All In The Band

by Kurara

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Part 21

"You sure you're gonna be alright?" Hakuei asked as he opened up
Kyo's door for him. Kyo nodded. "Okay..." He smiled and opened his
arms a bit, Kyo coming in and hugging him. //I feel like protecting
him... hah....// "Nii-chan." He muttered, catching himself.

"Eh?" Kyo pulled back a bit, looking up into Hakuei's face. "What
did you say?"

Hakuei shook his head. "I was thinking.... you're like a brother. I
know that sounds weird since we hardly know each other, but... you
seem like a close brother or something..."

Kyo smiled. "Nii-chan...." he repeated, liking the sound of it. //A
real brother...// He looked over Hakuei's face. //Yeah... come to
think of it... it does seem a bit like brothers on TV...//

Hakuei smirked. "Well, I have to visit my friend again tommorow, so
what do you say I pick you up and take you with me and we'll go do
something after?"

Kyo nodded, a feeling of acceptance washing over him. "Hai!" He
hugged Hakuei again. "Tommorow." He smiled as Hakuei waved and he
shut the door.

//Amazing... I don't even feel drunk.... I guess I'm not....// He
smiled. //I didn't need to drown in it...// He wrapped his arms
around himself as he walked to his room. //I had other comfort...//
He smiled a bit before changing into just his boxers and a shirt.

Walking back out into the living room, Kyo flopped onto the couch and
turned on the TV, falling asleep at the first commercial.

***

Toshiya opened the door and closed it quietly after slipping into the
apartment, noticing the TV on. "Kyo?" He called out softly, not
wanting to wake the other man if he was asleep. When no response
came, Toshiya sat down on the couch next to Kyo, taking the remote
and turning it off while lifting the bishounen and taking him to his
room.

Kyo stirred a bit when Toshiya placed him down on his bed, but ended
up just snuggling into the pillows. Toshiya smiled, stripping off to
his underwear before slipping into the bed behind Kyo, wrapping his
arms around the shorter man and nuzzling his face into his
neck. "Oyasumi, Kyo." Toshiya kissed Kyo's neck lightly.

Kyo turned around, waking from the kiss and he wrapped his arms
around Toshiya as well, kissing the other man briefly on the
lips. "Oyasumi, Totchi."

***

"Die woke."

Those two words where enough to get Kyo's groggy self to immediately
wake up, shaking Toshiya to wake as well as he rushed to get dressed
and call Hakuei. //Pick up pick up pick up pick---// "Hakuei?"

"Uhh.... Kyo??"

"Hakuei! I need to go to the hospital NOW. Die woke up! I'll see
you later, ja!" Kyo hung up the phone, knowing Toshiya heard what he
said as he saw Toshiya quickly throw on clothes and a little bit of
makeup before hastily brushing his hair back into a ponytail and
grabbing his keys.

"Let's go!"

***

The memebers of Dir en grey crowded around Die's bed, asking if he
was alright, telling him how much they worried, complimenting his
hospital gown, and Die replied to them all slowly but surely... all
but the blonde closest to him... //Not even his eyes acknowledge
me...//

In the excitment of Die's return to the conscious realm, no one
noticed as tears slipped silently down Shinya's cheek, or the sob he
muffled while walking unnoticed out the hospital room door.

Shinya walked for a bit before going out the doors and into a corner
in the garden where no one could see him. He hugged his knees and
rested his chin on them, tears sliding down his cheeks with
occasional sobs. //It's true... he really _doesn't_ love me...//

He let out a shuddered breath. //But... what can I do now? I can't
just leave... they need me... but... I... With Die there...// Shinya
began to sob consistently, shaking with pain. //It'll be torture in
the purest form!//

***

Kyo frowned. "Where's Shinya?"

Toshiya looked around the room. "Yeah... I don't see him in
here..." He grabbed Kyo's hand. "Ne, Kyo, let's go look for him,
ne?"

Kyo nodded. "I guess you'll stay with Die, Kaoru?"

Kaoru nodded back. "Okay."

Toshiya and Kyo waved goodbye to Die and walked out, Toshiya not
letting go of Kyo's hand. "So, where should we look? He's not out
here in the waiting room."

"Well... hmm.... let's look around.. then maybe to the kitchen? Then
I dont' know...." Kyo suggested and Toshiya nodded, happily walking
with Kyo. "Ne.... Toshiya?" //Shit.. I HAVE to... for Kaoru...//

"Hai?" Toshiya smiled down to Kyo.

"You.... you know...."

"Yes?"

Kyo kept his eyes to the floor. "You know, you and Ka---Kaoru....
would...."

Toshiya furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. "Would what, Kyo?"

"Would... be good...." he took a deep breath. "For each other."

Toshiya stopped their walk, turning to Kyo. "What do you mean,
Kyo?" //No... please don't tell me you're suggesting....//

"Maybe you should... hang out with Kaoru more.... get to know him..
you know?" Kyo's heart went at a strange pace, knowing that he was
giving up the one he loved. "He... if you were trying for something
more.... permanent--"

"Kyo! I can't believe you!" Toshiya's voice was shaky and his eyes
were also to the floor as his hands gripped at his pants. "Are you
trying to set me up with Kaoru?!"

Kyo nodded. "I think.... you'd be good with... with him."

"Is that what you think?" Premonitions of tears resounded in the
bassist's speech as he spoke. "Is that what you REALLY think, Kyo?"

"...I..."

"Then you REALLY don't know me at ALL!" Toshiya spun around and
began running as fast as he could back to the car, looking Kyo
quickly due to his long legs.

When he flopped into the car and closed the doors, Toshiya finally
broke, burying his face into the headrest of the seat and
crying. //Me with Kaoru?? Kyo! Don't you realize it's YOU that I
want, not him! Kyo...// Toshiya curled up into a ball, sobbing
hard. //He... he wants me with him... it must mean he doesn't
love... doesn't love me at all...//

***

Okay, I can't write anymore tonight... I feel sooooo drained...
Oyasumi!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEEEEEEASE COMMENT!!

~Kurara

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