***

"Totchi kun showed me the pictures while going online on your laptop" Shinya spoke as Kaoru stopped for a red light. The violet head widened his eyes; "I knew you did that with it!"

"But it’s his idea! I was so shock!"

Kaoru nodded slowly, "Of course you were, as always Shinchan…" he mumbled. The drummer pouted and turned away.

*

"You think Kyo and Kirito make a good couple?" Toshiya asked, looking at Die while the red head was trying to control his speed. The red head chuckled, "Hmph"

(VM: NOOO!)

Toshiya leaned on the seat and yawned, "They’re quite okay actually. I can see the changes in Kyo ne, he’s so…calm now"

Die burst out laughing, "Ha! NOT! I think Kyo is still as devilish as ever!" he shook his head and made a turn, "I know the way to Shinchan’s house. It’s so weird how he didn’t wanna let it go before" he smiled, gazing away. Toshiya looked at him and gave a sly smile.

"Yeah, yeah…Didn’t even tell us his new phone number, didn’t tell us he was getting a car until his mom called Kaoru coz she didn’t know his new cell phone number and everybody found out the car was canceled coz his dad didn’t really like the idea of his pretty baby son driving around like mad in Tokyo…but then after he succeeded convincing his dad that he would drive like a girl, he didn’t even tell us he’d got the car and we only found out when Kyo desperately wanted to go for a ride…yeah yeah…"

Die glared at Toshiya

Toshiya stuck his tongue out

Die laughed

"Heh, I don’t know the way to his apartment, still clueless as ever!" the dark haired boy peered out the window and looked around the streets and dark corners. Traffic was quite smooth and Die was speeding like mental. The wind blew his hair and it felt good. Toshiya moaned.

"Totchi, there’re some cans of beer at the backseat, feel free to grab some…" Die’s voice sounded like he actually wanted the other man to get some for him. And the blue head knew that. So he snickered and turned to the backseat and grabbed two cans of beer.

"Great…thanks buddy!" Die winked

Toshiya snorted

*

"Don’t your parents teach you those?"

Shinya sighed and looked up, "No…they never tell me anything"

Kaoru smiled and looked away, "They should have. It’s pretty important, so you’re not full naïve when you go out there" The drummer smiled and looked at Kaoru.

"Your parents taught you?"

Kaoru laughed and shook his head, "NO…"

Shinya joined his eyebrows, "Then why are you sounding like you’re an expert? Did you learn a lot yourself?"

Kaoru nodded, "Yeah…when I was your age, I knew almost everything…" he mumbled, smiling. Shinya looked at him with curiousity painted clearly on his face.

"Hounto ni? Tell me ne…"

Kaoru rolled his eyes, "I knew it…anyway…it’s by experiences, and rumors and stories. You know, first you find it yourself, then you get all curious" he looked at Shinya, "Just like what you’re doing now, Shinya. You’re all curious and wanna know everything!"

Shinya smiled a little

"Some people didn’t even know what was going on when it happened to them…" Kaoru spoke softly, looking away, "And after they were hurt, they realized the whole thing…" he continued softly, "And no, Shin kun. I don’t like that happens to you" he looked at the drummer.

Shinya played with the CD case, "But it won’t…you mean what?" he looked confused.

Kaoru pouted, "Okay. I’ll give you another lecture"

*

"They DO make a good couple! I think so ne, like when sometimes, Kirito would be sooo caring! He would call just to say hi and ask about things. And Kyo would talk to him, and Kyo would laugh at his jokes, and you know….Kirito is quite witty…" the bassist muttered carelessly, one hand brushing his hair another hand holding the fourth can of beer. Toshiya was lying when he said he only liked sweet drinks.

Die snorted, "Yeah, witty my ass! That guy is a flirt!"

Toshiya sighed, "I don’t quite think so. He likes fooling around sometimes, but when it comes to Kyo, I think Kirito is whole different person!"

"You like him though he changes Kyo, as you said?" Die suddenly came back to his sense and sounded serious.

Toshiya silenced and stared at the empty dashboard.

Die waited

"Iie. He doesn’t change Kyo. Only Kyo himself, changing a little while Kirito is around"

Die sighed, "Go on, go and defend him…"

Toshiya screwed up his face and sat up straight, "What’s this? What the hell is this?! Why can’t you like Kirito? Or why can’t you even accept Kyo going out with him?!"

Die looked away, "Coz…" he fell silent, searching the right word. "Because whenever Kaoru or I or both of us were around, that guy would act so totally different and defensive! Like it’s NOT even funny!" he hissed. Toshiya looked at him then suddenly laughed.

"Is that why? Die oh Die kun…it’s coz Kyo has been hanging around with you for soo long! And he’s Kyo’s new koi! Of course he feels a little intimidated! Don’t you feel that sometimes about your koibito’s friends?" Toshiya asked amused. The red head didn’t look like as if he liked what they were talking about.

"Look, I still don’t like him, but I fully respect Kyo’s decision to be his koibito…" Die spoke firmly, making another turn.

Toshiya smiled, "That’s good"

Die smiled back

Both men held their cans up and made a toast

"To Kirito and Kyo!"

"Hmph"

*

"Why do you fall asleep so easily?"

Kyo opened his eyes, "I sleep with my eyes open sometimes. So when I close my eyes, it doesn’t really mean I’m sleeping" he smiled. Kirito looked surprised, "Hah? Don’t they hurt?" he held the other man’s face and studied his eyes. Kyo felt a little uneasy but he was astonished by the touch. Any touch Kirito made felt weird to Kyo. It was…so intimate. It’s the intimacy he had never ever felt before.

Intimacy

Kirito looked into his eyes, and smiled

"I like how your eyes glow sometimes…you know…do you wear contacts a lot?"

Kyo smiled cutely

Kirito smiled back, got up and spread the blanket wider, "Sleep ne, you have bags under your eyes, they don’t look good" he sat on the bed and made sure the blanket covered both of them. Kyo looked at him in interest before smiling slyly.

"Are you cold Kyo?"

"Hai…?"

"I should get a thicker blanket, but you sure-"

Kirito’s heart paced a little as he realized arms wrapped around his waist, "I don’t quite think blankets would be warm enough…" the smaller guy whispered huskily. Kirito smiled and turned back, spreading Kyo’s arms to wrap them around his neck. Then he pulled Kyo up to sit on his lap.

"So what do you want me to do?"

Kyo flashed a smile, a hentai smile.

"Warm me up…" he whispered.

"How?" Kirito’s voice went all husky as Kyo rubbed his crotch against Kirito’s

"Like this…"

Kyo basically jumped on him and the other vocalist fell back on the bed.

*

"So that’s foreplay? That’s what they call foreplay? But isn’t it a waste of time?" Shinya pondered to himself. Kaoru laughed, "No, it’s not a waste of time, definitely NOT! Foreplays drive Totchi nuts and made Kyo frustrated. I talked to Die a lot and he loves foreplay" Kaoru muttered carelessly. The drummer parted his lips in surprise, "Heh? So you like foreplay too?"

Wrong question Shinchan.

Should’ve asked how’d you know…

Kaoru shrugged, "It’s not thrilling without foreplay…and no thrill means boring sex…it’s as simple as that! It gives you the ‘Sugoi’ feeling. Girls usually like that, but that’s if you plan to sleep with a girl!" he added rather quickly. Shinya pouted, "Iie. I don’t like girls"

Kaoru widened his eyes in the dark.

Nani?

Kaoru glanced at Shinya

That was quite a dig! Shinchan didn’t like girls?

Kaoru smiled, this should be fun.

"So you like boys then?"

Shinya turned to face the older man, "I don’t know, do you think? Just becoz I don’t like girls…do you think I like boys?"

Kaoru just had to laugh at this. Guess Shinya talked to the right person, not gay not straight but perfect bi.

"Well, it’s either boys or girls…but some people go for both. Do you kiss girls?" Kaoru really enjoyed this.

Shinya fumed, "Never…"

"Boys then?"

Come on Kaoru, you knew the answer to this…come on…

"Nope. Never too…"

Kaoru joined his eyebrows, "Heh? Die is NOT a girl, and as far as I know he’s a boy!"

Shinya looked at him weirdly, "So…?"

Kaoru looked choked, "So you KISSED him right?! You KISSED Die a lot!!!" he just had to pull the brake and stopped the car. "Shinya! You have been kissing Die for so long and you're telling me you NEVER kiss anybody before?!!!" Kaoru looked shocked and disbelief was clearly shown in his eyes.

"But that’s different! Die kun and I don’t kiss! We only…" Shinya stopped, pouting.

"What?!"

"We touch our lips together! that’s it! I don’t have that…feeling…" Shinya trailed off

"What feeling? You never kiss before how do you know?!" Kaoru snapped.

Shinya stomped his foot, "I just know! It will come naturally, as you said just now! Things happen naturally and I will feel something but with Die kun there is nothing!" he insisted, face slightly flushed voice slightly rose a pitch, eyes glaring. "Die kun plays anyway, he doesn’t mean it, he never means anything he says!! Shinya added. Kaoru looked at him weirdly, "Can I ask you something Shinya?"

Shinya waited

"Do you hold hands with him?"

"Yeah…?"

"So you hug and stuff…"

Shinya turned away, "What is stuff…?"

"You know…" Kaoru sighed frustratedly, he thought it was gonna be fun but noooo…, "Like kiss and touch…"

Shinya looked at him thoughtfully, "We kiss and hug…"

Kaoru scratched his head, "Ano…I think some things could be considered harassment"

Shinya widened his eyes, "What?! NO! We didn’t do anything! We just…you know, we’re both boys and we just…" Kaoru gave Shinya a look, "AND don’t give me looks Kaoru kun! I don’t wanna talk about his anymore!!!" he hissed and turned away. Kaoru sighed and rested his head on the steering wheel, "Okay, sorry Shinchan. Guess it’s too personal…" the guitarist drove back to the highway.

Shinya pouted and put up that –I hate Die and Kaoru- I’m gonna kill both of them- look. Kaoru shook his head and stopped as he met a red light. Shinya watched people crossing the road and Kaoru looked at the other way.

*

Toshiya parted his lips slightly, letting Die’s tongue in and with both hands, he grabbed the red head and deepened the kiss. The older man pulled him closer, leaned back to the seat, held Toshiya’s head to the right angle and started to roam the cavern. It felt warm, it felt wet…

Die and Toshiya suddenly pulled away almost at the same time.

It didn’t feel right

Toshiya looked at the other man confusedly, as if there was something wrong. There WAS something wrong. The whole thing was wrong.

And that’s exactly where the problem was!

It was wrong, so it was supposed to be thrilling!

But NO…not at all…it was plain, it was flat.

Die looked at Toshiya the same way

There was nothing there, no chemistry, no intimacy, no fantasy…

NOTHING

Toshiya sighed, brushed his hair that fell down his face and got away from Die’s lap. The small narrow space of the car made him struggle to get back to his own seat. Die cleared his throat and sat up, running his fingers through his hair, trying to tidy them. Toshiya did the same while licking his lips that felt very dry. Then he adjusted his jeans a little and put on his jacket while Die zipped up his own pants and put his belt back on.

The younger man sighed and looked away while Die took a can of beer and drank the rest of its content in a go.

Both men knew they weren’t drunk when they did it last time…

Now they’re both a little tipsy and they just couldn’t do it!

Wasn’t it SUPPOSED to be the other way around? When you’re drunk, you’re careless and free…

Toshiya parted his lips and glanced at Die, who looked away and looked nervous. He felt himself acting nervous too. Great, one second ago, they were happily drinking and speeding the highway. One second after that, he just suddenly leaned to a side and Die just had to stop the car, and they just stared to kiss furiously. Another second after that, he undo Die’s belt and played with the ‘thing’, and Die had moaned and took his jacket off, …then he unzipped Die’s pants and Die just grabbed him to sit on his lap.

And now…

Both men sat on the car, dumbfounded, all speechless becoz the fire, the sparks the chemistry the thrill whatever you called it …wasn’t there.

Die took out the cig pack, opened the window and started to smoke. Toshiya had to intention, no mood at all doing the same, so he merely leaned back on the seat and tidied up his hair. The red head finished the cig and closed the window then started the engine. He looked at Toshiya for a while, before asking, "Shinya’s place?"

Toshiya lifted his eyes up to look at the red head

"Hai…"

*

"Here we go…" Kaoru parked by the road and looked at Shinya. The drummer looked up the apartment building the looked at him.

"Want me to send you up?"

Shinya nodded, so he turned the engine off and took out his tickets and opened the door. Shinya stood by the road and waited for Kaoru to lock the door before walking into the building. Kaoru put a hand in his pocket and walked behind the petite drummer. They were greeted by the guard who looked at the violet head in surprise. Then he grinned madly at Shinya, who nodded unwillingly.

Kaoru smiled at the man and winked before taking Shinya’s arm and pulled him close. The drummer glared as the guard let out a hentai laugh. Kaoru whistled some tune.

*

Kirito fell on the bed beside Kyo, who buried his head in the pillow. He panted silently before taking Kyo’s arm and pulled him closer. The petite vocalist looked away but Kirito took his chin and looked into his eyes.

Kyo’s face flushed and beads of sweat could be seen on his forehead. Kirito smiled and kissed Kyo’s cheek.

"Yokatta…"

Kyo smiled back and hugged him

Kirito took a deep breath and shut his eyes, Kyo did the same.

"Kyo…"

"Hm?"

"Next time…" he took a breath, "be on top…"

"Hai…"

*

"Oyasumi…" Kaoru said slowly before turning away.

Shinya looked at the retreating back and suddenly called out, "Kaoru kun!"

"…?" Kaoru turned back and smiled.

Shinya opened the door wider, "How bout some cup of tea?"

Kaoru chuckled and walked back towards the drummer and walked in bowing to the owner of the house. Shinya laughed.

*

"I *hicks* don’t know what happens…" Toshiya hiccupped, giggled then covered his lips, "Gomen.." he slurred.

Die laughed and took a long sip of his beer, "One little Totchi, jumping around…with a bunny tail on his ass…" he laughed as Toshiya protested and tried to concentrate on the road, "Holding tequila in a hand, and a berry flavoured condom in another, screaming like hell for Kaoru" he laughed maniacally and missed the red light. Toshiya hit him and sneered, "Big wolf Die with furry red tail on his ass, holding a can of drink in a hand and jell-o in another, running around chasing baby Shinchan without his pants…" he snapped back and giggled as the visual image appeared.

Die laughed hysterically and missed another red light.

Toshiya giggled more and looked back. There was no car behind them.

"One tequila two tequila three tequila….FOUR!"

"Five tequila" Toshiya spoke as he poured salt on the skin between hi thumb and index finger, "Six tequila, seven tequila MORE!" he shoved his hand to Die, and the red head licked and sucked the skin. The bassist giggled at the ticklish feeling, but managed to make Die finish a shot. Then Die moved his hands from the steering wheel and did what Toshiya had done with the salt, "Nine, ten eleven…" he looked up and gasped, "POLE!!!!!!!!!!!"

Toshiya shut his eyes and screamed in horror with arms covering his face and body curled up into a ball.

Few seconds later he opened his eyes and the next thing he heard was Die’s maniac laugh

Toshiya looked at the road

Smooth, nice, speeding…

"DIE!!!! You BAKA!!!!!!!!!!!"

Die, of course, continued laughing.

*

"So you wanna have sex?"

Shinya looked at Kaoru, "Iie"

"But you kept asking about it!"

"Becoz you people act like bunnies and I have the right to be curious!" (Thx to Puka)

Kaoru laughed

Shinya took a sip of his tea and leaned back on the couch. Kaoru did the same to his tea but he took a magazine and looked through.

"Kaoru kun…"

"Hm?"

"Sex hurts?"

Kaoru looked up, "Itai?"

Shinya nodded

The violet head pouted thoughtfully and touched his chin.

"Let me see…when you have sex, at the point when you’re gonna hit the spot, it’s painfully full of pleasure…"

Shinya joined his eyebrows too much that the whole pretty face was screwed up. Kaoru chuckled

"Pain-pleasure…maaa, can’t you be more specific?!"

"I can’t! You have to experience it first!"

"But I don’t wanna have sex!"

"Oh God Shinya! How old are you now?!!!"

"Twenty t-"

Kaoru cut in, "Yes I know how old you are exactly! You don’t have to tell me! When I was your age, I RULED the world!!!!" he exclaimed. Shinya raised an eyebrow, "Hounto ni?" asked he, eagerly. Kaoru pouted snottily.

"What happened????"

"…"

"Kaoru kun…when…" Shinya blushed a little, "When was the first time…" he stopped, "You know…" he looked at Kaoru hoping the violet head could guess the rest of the sentence. The older man looked at him funnily, "When was my first time?" he asked. Shinya nodded and blushed more. The guitarist laughed.

"You won’t believe it if I tell you…" he shook his head and let out the good-natured laugh.

Shinya pouted considerably and held his chin up, "But you have to tell me!!!" he insisted.

Kaoru rolled his eyes.

"High school…" he muttered

Shinya widened his eyes, waiting, looking at the older man curiously with all his attention.

"He was my friend … " Kaoru smiled dreamingly, looking up the ceiling, "He still IS, actually. But now he’s married and have a baby" the violet head chuckled, "We did it while doing coplaying…it’s just stupid…" he shook his head and looked at Shinya. The drummer was smiling sweetly, hands on his chin, eyes looked up brightly.

"How did it happen?"

Kaoru took a deep breath, "We were childhood friends, and we went to the same school and same guitar tuition. But he was only fooling around while I was …well…" he laughed, ‘I turned serious in the end but he didn’t"

"And…?"

"We went back to his place from this cosplay party, and we kinda sat down on the bed, you know….it’s a house and his parents went out traveling for summer…"

Shinya nodded

"His sister was out with her boyfriend and we were…kind of bored"

Shinya waited

Kaoru took a long time to continue this time

"There were so many yaoi fans at the party, and we did some silly poses while taking pictures, and we took them all back with us, and…we were commenting on each of them…" Kaoru wet his lips, "While all the sudden he took his shirt off and told me to change into his pajamas coz it’s getting hot. I did so and we talked a bit about usual stuff…until…" he stopped. "We watched this thing on cable and…he suddenly asked me if…" he looked at Shinya.

The drummer looked back

"Sure you won’t blush?"

Shinya shook his head strongly

"He asked me if I wanted to try it coz he knew I never did before. Not with a girl or a boy…I was a virgin" Kaoru smiled and raised an eyebrow at Shinya, "Like you now"

Shinya blushed

Kaoru laughed, "I said I didn’t mind, knowing he was a virgin as well, and…we did it!"

Shinya looked shocked, "Just like that?!"

Kaoru nodded

"I took off his shirt and he did the same with mine, and we started to play around…" he smiled sweetly to the memory, "Looking back now, it was so funny. We were both clueless so we played around literally…and we chase each other around the house without any single thread on our body, and finally we went back upstairs to his room, and the light was dim. He pushed me down to the bed, and we kissed"

Shinya blinked

"We kissed hard and passionately, we rubbed each other’s body unconsciously and…then he moved away and…shocked the hell out of me by going down all four" Kaoru laughed and covered his slightly reddening cheeks, "I did what he told me to, and…"

"What…?" Shinya asked silently

Kaoru shrugged, "We did it, I had sex with him…"

"…you mean, by all four, you…" Shinya pointed at him. Kaoru nodded, "Yes, I was on top"

The drummer smiled, "Then when was the first time you be the bottom?" he asked, eyes sparkling. He knew the meaning of the ‘bottom’. Like the guy would be the ‘ girl’ and Shinya had to know coz he couldn’t imagine Kaoru be the ‘girl’. The guitarist looked away before covering his lips with both hands. The younger man waited but there was no reply. Kaoru started to look a bit snotty and pouty, which made Shinya seemed a bit suspicious.

"I am always …the top…" Kaoru finally muttered.

Shinya joined the eyebrows, "As in you’re never the girl?"

Kaoru nodded, "As in I never be the girl…" and smirked.

The drummer sighed and smiled in relief, "I thought you were very experienced now I guess I was kind of wrong ne…" he blurt out.

Now THAT made Kaoru ticked.

Not up there or down there but the ego…

"What do you mean? I AM experienced!" Kaoru’s voice shot down a notch.

Shinya shrugged, "How can you say that? You don’t know how it feels to be the girl ne…" he spoke matter of factly.

Gotcha!

Kaoru widened his eyes, all speechless motionless.

The replies to that ‘I’m always the man’ term would either be ‘no way!’ or ‘how’d you manage to stay on top?!’ but talking to Shinya was always about getting unexpected replies. Shinya was still young. He might be bratty and –very- spoilt but he wasn’t as corrupted as the rest of the crowd were. In fact, he wasn’t corrupted at all! Shinya knew nothing about what came between ego and sex, knew nothing about the man and the ‘girl’ and what he had just said was the FACT!

Kaoru wasn’t as experienced as he thought he was.

Kaoru was never the ‘girl’

He didn’t know how it felt…

Kaoru was speechless…

How could he never think of that?

Shinya waved his palm right in front of the older man’s face, "Konbanwa! Earth to Kaoru kun! Are you getting it???" Kaoru glared, "Shinchan, it’s not funny!" The drummer giggled but said nothing.

But being the man…the seme, the ideal seme was such a reputation! Kaoru would never ever let that slip away from his fingers! No matter what Shinya said! He was innocent, inexperienced. He didn’t know how much it meant to be the ideal seme! He didn’t!

Kaoru took a sip of his tea and started to read the magazine.

Shinya did the same

Then the door bell rang

Kaoru jerked his head up, "Are you expecting somebody Shinya?" he looked to the direction of the door but couldn’t actually see it. Shinya shook his head, "NO. But who could it be?" he sighed and got up. Kaoru looked a little worried so he walked right behind the drummer.

There were few noises sounded like familiar giggles and grunts.

Kaoru fumed

Shinya opened the door and widened his eyes.

"Trick or treat!!!!!!!"

Die and Toshiya had their arms wrapped around each other’s shoulders and they were flushed and DRUNK!

Shinya sighed and looked at Kaoru, who looked back and gave a slow smile.

"Shinchan let us in ne…it’s cold…" Die muttered and walked into the apartment. Then he noticed Kaoru, and glared.

The ideal seme

"What are you doing here?" he snapped.

Toshiya blinked and looked up, "Eh? Kaoru?" he blurt out. The violet head smiled a little, looking at Toshiya. The bassist smiled back but gasped as Die fell down the floor. Shinya shut the door and placed his hands on his hips watching Kaoru helped Toshiya.

"Why bring him here?" Shinya mumbled sounding pissed.

Toshiya smiled, "He wants to, and he’s kind of drunk…but don’t worry. Let him stay here ne? His car is downstairs and please don’t let him drive with the state he’s in right now" he poked Die’s head and the red head groaned and sprawled all over the couch.

Kaoru laughed and turned away to Shinya, "I think Toshiya’s got a point"

Shinya glared, "But I won’t be responsible of anything! He might be killed tonight if he doesn’t control himself…" the petite drummer clenched his fists and both older men sweatdropped.

"Uh…" Toshiya made a sound, "I guess I have to sleep here tonight…" he scratched his head and looked at Shinya sheepishly. The drummer narrowed his eyes and pondered for a while

"Iie, why don’t you ask Kaoru kun to give you a lift?" he glanced at the older man, who looked at him and Toshiya. The sexy dark haired looked at him, "Eh? Why can’t I stay here?" he pouted. Kaoru laughed.

"Coz you’re not drunk!" Shinya pouted back

"But…"

"Nan demo-"

"Okay, okay…I guess one is enough to wreck Shinya's place. Coe on Totchi, I drive you home…" Kaoru held his hands up and decided to take an action. So he pulled the glaring at Shinya- Toshiya’s arm and dragged him towards the door, "Oyasuminasai Shinchan, don’t do what I won’t do…" he winked at the drummer and looked at the red head.

Toshiya blinked and smirk, "You’d be sorry! SORRY for not, for NOT letting me stay here tonight! Die is DRUNK and he would be WOLF and he would ATTACK you and You’d be crying yourself to the rehearsal tomorrow!!!!" he yelled on top of his lungs and stuck his tongue out at Shinya.

Kaoru shook his head while laughing and managed to get Toshiya out the door and Shinya, to make it worse, ran towards the door and yelled. "As IF I’m scared of him! I’m NOT! I won’t cry!!!" he stuck his tongue out at Toshiya.

The tipsy bassist gasped and threw him Kaoru’s hair band, the older man protested. Shinya threw it back to the tall boy but Kaoru caught it and put it into his pocket.

"Come on Totchi…"

"You’d be SORRY!!!"

"NO I WON’T!!!!"

"Oh yeah! You knew it deep down inside!!!!"

Dogs started to bark and lights went on

Kaoru growled and shoved Toshiya into the lift while Shinya growled and slammed the door.

***

to be continued...