Toshiya and All That Glitters
by Lady 7
Part 24
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"You know "
Toshiya looked at Shinya in disbelief, then he wondered how old he was already, not being able to take surprises as he used to but then, he was not that bad. Not sagging or anything. He was sleeping with older men, three to four years older than him, and it was like a proof that he was the bomb. Old men fantasized about him, old men like Kaoru and Die but then, he was only one year older than this walking talking thinking mannequin.
"Oh "
Shinya blushed
"My first time ?"
The drummer nodded
" "
Shinya put his pencil down and stared at Toshiya, waiting. The older man sighed and looked back at him, then smirk
"Im not telling you "
"Ma! Tell me ne but I wanna know, ne, ne " Shinya whined, which did not convince Toshiya at all coz it sounded so fake. Shinya could never whine, coz hes not Toshiya. The basisst rolled his eyes and turned away. "Im just not telling you!"
"But you have to! I want to know!"
"Why do you want to know anyway? Do you plan to sleep with somebody?!" Toshiya got up and asked him irritatedly, "If youre not going to, there is no point of telling you eh?" he added. He could see Shinyas expression changed and the drummer looked back at him irritatedly. "Just becoz I dont wanna HAVE sex doesnt mean I cant ASK about it!" he replied the same way.
Toshiya pouted .he got a point, actually. There was a point in that.
"Hm what do you want to know then? But Im not telling you just as much as what you want to know!" Toshiya spoke slowly but added the end quickly, "Toshiya sama no experiences are very expensive and he needs more than just an over night stay "
Shinya rolled his eyes
"When is your first time?"
Shinya waited
"Long time ago, actually" Toshiya chuckled embarrassed. He sighed and studied his fingers for a while, searching for words to express himself. "I was around sixteen, and I think " he looked up and looked thoughtful (Totchi you horny little cant even remember his first time?!)
"What happened?"
"I was *giggles* in high school. My first time was with a girl " he whispered. Shinya widened his eyes, "Eh?" he let out.
Toshiya blushed, "Yeah. And I remembered NOT liking it! I was so freaked out! I thought I was abnormal!" he hissed, fear appeared in his eyes. But it was the past. The fear was fake in those eyes now. He faked it to show Shinya what he meant. The drummer joined his eyebrows, "What do you mean? Youre okay with it now, but whats with before?" he asked innocently.
The older guy blinked and smiled, "All my friends were talking about their experiences and they got everybody excited, but not me! I was scared, not being able to fit into the circle " he trailed off, eyes shone sadness. He faked that one too. He wasnt sad anymore, he thought it was silly to try to fit into a circle that he didnt belong to in the first place. The drummer blinked back and nodded, "I know how that feels!" he exclaimed.
Toshiya gave him a look, "Yeah? Do you?"
Shinya fumed, "Yeah! Its like, everybody talks about sex but I dont! Thats why I ask you! I need to know, so I understand whatever Kyo and Die are saying!" he replied angrily. Toshiya looked at him in disbelief then laughed, "Youre so kawaii!" Shinya hit his arm playfully.
"So what happened? When did you realize you didnt belong to that group?" the younger one tried to bring the subject back, and it worked. Toshiya sighed louder and looked up the ceiling, his back leaned on the couch.
"The second time I did it was with a boy"
"Hm " Shinya made a noise
Toshiya smiled at the memory, "This time I remembered. I was on top, and was inside him .you know" he turned to Shinya, "You know what I mean right? Its when you have-"
"Hai! Hai!" Shinya replied hastily, "I know!" he blushed, "Just go on and if I dont understand something Ill stop you and ask!"
Toshiya giggled, Yeah, so it felt so different, and I liked I liked it when I looked down to the other " he whispered, "Then I knew I was different. I knew straight away I didnt belong to the circle, so I left"
Shinya smiled to him, "Its so good you realized it soon"
Toshiya nodded, "So I joined the other ones circle "
"Hounto ni? So its cool ne!" Shinya gasped, excited. He liked it when thing went fine in the end. He had belief in those things. But Toshiyas expression fell. His head hung down, his eyes darkened.
"Toshi kun ?" the drummer noticed and called his name worriedly.
Toshiya bit his lower lip lightly and played with his fingers, "Yeah, its cool. I joined his band " the bassist uttered. With eyes widened, Shinya suppressed a gasp.
"We had fun, and I felt like we were so good together. Then we did it, many times, again and again, and being with him didnt make me feel abnormal" he sighed and looked at Shinya. There was sadness, there was fear, and they were real, Shinya knew that. "Being with him, I felt different. I felt special " he shook his head and ducked his head to a side, "He looked up to me, like I was the only one. I was so honored, he wouldnt let anyone else touch him ." His voice shook a little in the end.
Shinya touched Toshiyas shoulder
"But then he went away like .left me forever " Toshiya felt his nose stung, his eyes hot. "I thought it was the end of the world "
"Toshi kun " Shinya mumbled
Toshiya suddenly snapped his head up, eyes all bright, "So what else you wanna ask?" he smiled seeing Shinyas surprised face.
"Shinya, Im so out of that already" he held Shinyas hand and patted it few times, "Its a memory to keep, but not to live with. I had put everything aside, and Im sure he doesnt want me to get stuck in there, for the rest of my life " he gave an assuring smile.
The drummer blinked, and smiled back
"So when was the first time ." He blushed, "When youre the girl?" Shinya asked.
Toshiya looked at him
Shinya blinked, confused
Toshiya looked at his face, longer and longer
"
?"
"Im not telling you" Toshiya stuck his tongue out.
Shinya gasped and unconsciously stomped his foot on the ground, "Demo tell me!" he gave his best bratty pout. Toshiya giggled and made faces, "No, Im not telling this one! Well, unless you tell me what youre gonna do with all these informations Im telling you!" the basisst teased and pretended to shrug helplessly.
Hes worse than Kaoru kun! I cant get things out from him quickly and he always wants something in return!
Theres gotta be something going on here! Nobody can asks around about sex then do NOTHING!
Ara, what to do?
"I just want to know this is something I have never openly discussed before!" Shinya reasoned, sensibly. But to Toshiya, no. "Nani! Openly discussed?! Shinchan! What youre doing right now is asking questions, NOT open discussion!" he snapped comically. The drummer pouted and snapped back, "Becoz youre such an expert why cant I just ask you?! I have no plan to have sex or anything! I just wanna know!"
Toshiya blinked and looked at Shinya, who flushed angrily and pursed his lips tight.
He was getting angry
He would whine to Die the next day and Die would whine to him Then Kyo would join in and Kaoru would wanna know what was going on .and things would dragged longer and longer and Toshiya knew when it came to sex, the innocent one would win. Everybody would start asking what happened to Toshiyas first time, and it wasnt fun!!!! Its too personal! Especially Die
Toshiya sighed irritatedly and gave up
"Fine!"
Shinya smiled
Now whos the brat?! Whos bullying who?!
"When was it?" Shinya didnt waste any time.
"Few years ago " Toshiya replied half-heartedly
" and?"
"*glares* anyway, it was an afternoon, and we talked and played around, until the evening we kissed and-" he looked at Shinya, "Nani?!"
The drummer looked at him with eyes sending daggers, "Totchi kun, if I AM to have sex, I wanna be the girl"
Toshiyas eyes widened
"I am just asking for some tips" Shinya blushed a little
"Oh " Toshiya muttered
"But youre not helping either cant you treat this, just like the past, when I asked you about driving license?" Shinya asked him pleadingly. Toshiya fumed. With those innocent eyes, he couldnt help feeling so mature, and so proud, just like the time when Shinya asked about driving.
"What do you want to know..?" he softened a little, and he sounded a little bit more serious.
Shinya beamed at him
"What did you do?" he asked, leaning closer.
Toshiya bit his fingernail and shut his eyes, pondering then he suddenly got up and walked towards the balcony. Shinya protested and followed behind the leggy beauty. As they reached there, Toshiya sighed and looked up the sky.
" I was in his apartment, and we were doing somethings " Toshiya began, his voice came like a whisper, and Shinya felt something something different was going on he had the feeling that this wouldnt be one of those sex talks
"There was chemistry between us, I knew there was "
Toshiya smiled and opened his eyes, then he turned to Shinya, "Do you know what chemistry is?" he asked. As he got no reply, Toshiya decided to explain briefly, "Its the special feeling you have everytime youre with a person the closeness, sometimes it feels so warm "
Shinya stared at Toshiya, amazed. He looked so calm,
"Then we stared at each other for so long " Toshiya smiled, "I turned away, of course. I was shy " he chuckled, "But then he touched me, and it felt like heaven but not really heaven " he tried to explain but Toshiya couldnt find the words.
"It felt as if you wanted more? It felt like heaven because it felt so good?" Shinya suddenly suggested.
Toshiya smiled and nodded
"But at the same time .its forbidden? Its addictive?" the drummer added, unsure, "Like you want more? And how it was wrong ."
"Made it wrong! Yeah! I felt that it wasnt right, so I turned away quickly " Toshiya gasped excitedly and looked at Shinya, who was kind of learning fast.
Shinya smiled back
"But of course!" Toshiya rolled his eyes, "We did it anyway we touched each other and kissed "
The drummer chuckled, Toshiya blushed, "I remembered my heart, beating so fast against my chest! It was the first time after so long I was touched that way " he pouted in shyness.
"When he touched more and kissed more " Toshiya stared up dreamingly and smiled, "I knew, Shinya. I knew he was the man "
Shinya blinked
"Was the feeling really that strong?" he asked, innocently
Toshiya nodded, then he started to count the stars
"Did it hurt?" Shinya asked
Toshiya laughed
"H-hey! I mean, its your first time!!!" he defended himself and pouted cutely, "Tell me ne"
Toshiya gave a slow smile and looked at the drummer, "Yeah, it hurt" and laughed as Shinyas eyes widened, "But you see .as I told you " he stopped
"Pleasure doesnt exist if theres no pain " the younger one muttered. Toshiya smiled and nodded strongly, "Yeah. Eventually, I felt .the sensation " he whispered the last word. Shinya blinked and leaned closer
"Sensation?"
"Yeah!" Toshiya exclaimed, "You know like spasms its so painful that it became pleasure in the end!" Toshiya beamed to show Shinya the sensation
The drummer furrowed his eyebrows
"Hmph!"
Toshiya giggled uncontrollably at that and covered his mouth as Shinya glared hard
"Do you want me to teach you Shinchan?" he asked boldly, eyebrow raised suggestively.
Shinya looked at him weirdly, "Teach what ?"
Toshiyas expression fell and he bit his lip, "Baka!!! Teach you about the sensation!"
" "
"Oh " came a reply
"Ma its easy ne .come here! Come here!" Toshiya giggled as he pulled Shinyas hand and led him into the living room. The drummer protested but he wasnt really mind, was he?
"Toshi kun how are you going to teach me?!" Shinya moaned as they reached the sofa.
Toshiya looked at him, then looked around .thoughtfully
"Toshiya "
Toshiya smiled then dragged Shinya to his bedroom. Shinya yelped at the sudden action and my! How surprised was the pretty innocent Shinchan to see Toshiya pulling him into the bathroom and started undoing his own pants!
"Toshiya !!!!!!!" Shinya yelped
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to be continued...
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