So short…

VM:*agrees*

Part 38

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Kyo put the towel into the laundry basket and washed his hands. He looked up and saw his own reflection from the mirror.

Just now, when Toshiya walked out the room, he gave Kyo one of the biggest shocks in his life. The first thing that actually came to his senses was the stench of cigarette smoke from the room. But when the taller one appeared in front of him, he was just too shocked to do anything; Kyo walked out the bathroom and walked to the living room. Toshiya was there, lying on the couch.

Kyo inched closer and took a good look

It was only four days, yet four days could make a man lost so much weight! Four days could make a man who once looked delicious…ghostly. He was so tall, and so slim; he looked so lean, and so bony. Toshiya must had smoked like hell. Kyo sighed, realizing Toshiya was sleeping. Quietly he walked to the kitchen and opened the fridge.

Again, he was stumped

No food

Nothing

Kyo felt so disturbed that he squatted down and checked on those rows of bottles on the side door. They all looked the same so he held up a bottle and widened his eyes

Lime juice?

Not one of those ready to drink ones, but the really fresh squeezed ones, the ones you didn’t really drink cuz it was too sweetly bitter

Kyo sat on the floor and joined his eyebrows

Lemon

?

Toshiya ate nothing at all?!!! Nothing but those?!

*

Die took a long drag of cigarette and stared at Kaoru, who looked back at him weirdly. The older one waved a hand and Die blinked.

“What’s up Die?” Kaoru asked

The red head shrugged, “You know how Shinya hates cigarettes right?”

Kaoru chuckled, “Better than anyone else” he replied. Die started to stare at his cigarette and because he did, Kaoru did the same, confusedly staring at his own stick. Then he looked at Die, “And what were trying to say?” he asked. The red head shrugged again, “Nothing, just…Shinya”

Kaoru joined his eyebrows

“Mm-hm…”

“You know what, I think Shinya is sweet”

Kaoru looked at Die weirdly but the red head didn’t notice, merely kept going. “He tastes sweet…” The older one looked at the ground and watched how the ashes frilled around blown by the wind, “Right…”

“No wonder he hates this thing” Die took a final drag and stubbed it away. Kaoru watched with confusion but said nothing.

“I got a phone call from Punk”

“Dare?”

“Punk, the guy, Shinya’s good friend” Die motioned with his hands spiking up his hair. Kaoru blinked and nodded after a few seconds, “Oh, yeah! Punk!” he chuckled and smiled at Die’s action, “Punk, okay…what’s up?”

“We get free entrance to his mom’s newly opened spa…”

Kaoru widened his eyes

“Nani?”

“Oh, Shinya told you right?!” Die looked at him in surprise. Kaoru nibbled on his lip and nodded, “Oh, yeah! I did hear about that and I did say I wanted to go!” The younger guitarist grinned, “You know what’s funny? Kyo said he would go if you decided to go”

“…what does that suppose to mean?” Kaoru gave Die a look. The other one laughed, “Oh, he said spas and sauna are only for old women. Since he thinks you’re the manly one, if you go he’ll go too” Kaoru gave Die a smirk, and the younger one laughed.

“Whatever…whatever…”

“When is it?’

“This weekend”

“Heh?” Kaoru muffled

Die smiled, “I think by the time comes, Toshiya should be feeling fine. Besides, treatments are supposed to be good for health, for well being” he turned to Kaoru, “I think all of us are in so much tension that we need to cool down a little”

Kaoru looked at his band mate and smiled. “I’ll drag Kyo to come, don’t worry” the purple head said funnily. Die chuckled and looked at his shoes for a while. Then his smile disappeared and he nodded to himself.

*

He blinked as a finger swept away the strands of hair covering his cheek. Opening his eyes, he saw Kyo looking downward at him, sadness in his eyes, dejection on his face. He felt the finger moved down, caressing his cheek, and trailed down, to the tip of his nose, to his lips…

Dry lips, …Kyo blinked and cupped Toshiya’s cheeks

Toshiya blinked

Why did he look so sad?

Why was Kyo so upset? It wasn’t his fault or anything, it wasn’t even his problem…how come? Kyo wasn’t the one who’s supposed to be sad. He didn’t walk into a room and found the man he fell in love with was in bed with what he once called best friend. He wasn’t the one being…betrayed. He wasn’t the one being backstabbed and Kyo certainly didn’t know how painful it was!

And the supposedly most innocent one was caught kissing somebody else just now…

Just as he realized he knew what relationship meant, the other one showed him what casual sex really meant

You and I were having sex …then you did the same with my buddy, so I did it too with your best friend

Was it all?

For Kaoru?

Toshiya blinked harder and Kyo could see the tears that were threatening to fall. He moved his hands up and massaged Toshiya’s under eyes. The bassist pursed his lips tight and stared at him.

Kyo…what had Kyo done to deserve this?

Nothing

Kyo had been there for him most of the time, Kyo had been so sweet, so caring and so knowing. Kyo fought with Die, yes. But Kyo tried to be fair, he tried to be rational and told Toshiya to follow his heart. Now that Toshiya chose to do so, why did he blame Kyo for what had happened? He CHOSE to go to Kaoru’s apartment that evening himself. Kyo was only telling him to follow his heart.

Why did he blame Kyo?

Toshiya squinted his eyes and sat up facing the older man. Kyo removed his hands and placed it on his lap, staring at the man in front of him

“I am sorry”

…

Gomen

That was what he muttered to the other one

G.o.m.e.n

…

Whatever for?

Kyo held his hand

“Sorry for what?”

Toshiya gained back his composure and stated firmly, “For making you get what you don’t deserve”

Kyo looked at him intensely, “What don’t I deserve?” he asked. Toshiya held his small hand, “Worrying about me, coming here all the time and getting ignored”

The older man smiled, “Forgiven”

Toshiya smiled back but the smiled seemed so fake that Kyo felt the ache in his heart. He hated it when Toshiya faked a smile. Toshiya never faked a smile. Toshiya had always smiled, he had always smiled so cutely, and so prettily…like a child, Toshiya’s smiles were always innocent and genuine. Kyo touched the puffy cheek

“Toshiya…I will not ask you what happen…”

The younger one nodded

“Thank you”

Kyo spread his arms, “Come here…” he whispered, and Toshiya leaned close, pulling Kyo tightly. Resting his head on Kyo’s chest, Toshiya closed his eyes.

It felt like heaven

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to be continued...