Room 304, Diety Hall

Author: Yukimi2 yukimi2@yahoo.com

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Episode 37: My Kao-kao

He walked across the large hallway that may have been larger than an auditorium. The velvet carpet felt good under his bare feet as he strolled toward the large closed doors. He could see light illuminating from underneath, but it made the whole scene a whole lot eerie. How strange. He's lived in that mansion all his life, and yet, he felt such uncomfort that it didn't seem like home. The walls sheltered him from the outside world, but the place seemed nothing but a hollow empty shell in his eyes.

Slowly, he stepped closer and closer to the doors. He touched the icy handle and opened it. At first, the light blinded him, but it faded. He saw a fireplace by the side and someone sitting on a high chair writing. 

Writing and writing. That's all he ever does. He says he does it because everything has to be perfect. Perfection. Is there such a thing in this world? If everyone was perfect, then we wouldn't be human. If everything were perfect, then there would be no reason to live. Everything that happens will happen, why try to steer from the course of fate? Just sit back, relax, and let the life lead the way.

Oh, how he wished the man in the chair would one day understand the philosophy. But he ever did. 

The man in the chair felt his presence and turned around. He looked at him with a cold stare.

"Otou-san." He greeted the man. ".. you wanted to talk to me?"

"Toshiya, we need to talk." Mr. Hara said coldly. He picked up two envelopes from his desk and slammed them on the floor in front of the blue head. "What is the meaning of this?!"

Toshiya stared at the envelopes and froze. "Well, I-I……"

Mr. Hara hit his fist on the desk and stood up. "I can't believe you were rejected from Harvard! In all these years, I've worked so hard to get you there! I even sent you to the most prestigious high school in the nation!!'

Toshiya could feel his eyes blur. "G-gomendasai…"

"And what is that letter over there?" Mr. Hara asked bitterly. "An acceptance from some no-name college? Not only that, but also you applied to their design department?? What are you going to do with a degree like that?"

Toshiya could feel tears flowing down his cheeks. "Demo, Otou-san….. I really want to do this..." he stopped when his father hardened his glare and sat back down on his chair. He rotated the chair around and started writing again.

"Get out." Mr. Hara said. "And take those letters with you."

Toshiya cried softly, but picked up the letters and went out the doors. As soon as he closed the doors behind him, he felt the ground beneath him vanished into thin air. He stared in shock, then fell into a dark, empty abyss. His hands clawed at the blackness, trying to grip into something and stop his fall. But he kept falling and falling, until he hit the bottom and heard his head crack.

Toshiya screamed.

*****

Kaoru quickly got up from his mattress and went to Toshiya.

"Toshiya!" he called out.

Toshiya's eyes were open, but filled with tears and fear.

"Toshiya, are you OK?" Kaoru asked as he gently sat up the blue head into his arms and wiped the tears away.

Toshiya kept crying and crying. "N-nightmare…" he sobbed.

Kaoru held him tight and rocked him back and forth. "It's OK, Totchi. It's only a nightmare, ne?" he whispered soothing words to the younger man until he sobbing stopped. He stroked the pretty hair and played with it.

"Kao-kao?"

"Nani?"

"Do you think I'm a failure?"

Kaoru gasped and looked at him. "Totchi! Never say that about yourself!"

"But---"

Kaoru placed a finger on his lips. "Don't event think about it. Don't let anyone bring you down! The only time you'll be a failure is if you believe what others say about you. Everyone has different opinions and to some maybe you are a failure, but what do they know? Only you yourself can experience your success."

Toshiya looked at him with uncertain eyes.

Kaoru bit his lip. "Totchi, who told you that?"

The blue head looked down at his hands. "…ano… it happened a while back… my father was very disappointed when he found out Harvard rejected me…"

"I'm very sorry to hear that." Kaoru said. "I'm not saying your father's a bad person, but a parent should support their children's decisions no matter what." He peered at Toshiya's downtrodden face.

Toshiya felt the tears coming back. "I-I just want my father to be proud of me." He sniffed. "…I want to make him so proud…" the tears stared again. "…and I wanted him to smile at me for once.."

"…totchi…" Kaoru grabbed Kleenex and dabbed the tears away. He lifted his chin up to face him. "Totchi, you're not smiling much during the trip. Just smile and forget about everything, OK?"

Toshiya blinked. The blue head pouted.

"Or you can pout." Kaoru said. "Either way, you look the same."

Toshiya grabbed his pillow and hit his roommate on the head. "Mou~! Even at times like this you don't' stop teasing me."

Kaoru caught the pillow. "Come on, Totchi. You really should smile." He urged.

Toshiya knew Kaoru wasn't going to leave him alone, so he gave an awkward-looking smile through his tear strained face.

Kaoru bent down and gave him a quick kiss on the forehead {WAH! That's two right there!} he ruffled the younger man's hair. "See? You look much cuter like that." 

Toshiya blushed hard and touched his head, but pouted at seeing the purple head's grin. He stuck his tongue out. "Too bad I can't say the same for you when you're smiling!"

Kaoru pouted, then stopped. "ne, do you want some tea? I'll go down and get you some."

"Sure. Arigatou, Kaoru."

*****

Miyabi shifted in his sleep, but couldn't. something was blocking his way. He whined softly and tried to push it away. Unfortunately, it held him even tighter. Miyabi tried again, but stopped once he felt soft breaths on his upper lip. His eyes snapped open.

Hakuei's face was an inch away from his. The blonde guy was peacefully asleep. He felt the mattress on his back. He was in his room…

~What happened?~ Miyabi suddenly blushed when he recalled his 'dream'. Then, he widened his eyes. He just had sex with Hakuei last night!! As in, not just a dream, but real, hot sex! Miyabi's face burned crimson, then his heart sank with hurt. Hakuei loves Toshiya, who loves Kaoru, so why did he have sex with him, or all people? Was he using him because he looks like the blue head? Was last night just sex?

The speculations whirled around the young man's head over and over again. He felt silent tears brim his eyes and slowly drip across his cheeks. Why couldn't Hakuei just love him back? Why does it have to be this way? Why did he use him?

Hakuei felt the wet tears on his hand and blinked his eyes open. He saw Miyabi's lovely face wet with tears and gawked. He wanted to ask what was wrong. He wanted to wipe them away, but his breath got caught in his throat. All he could do was stare at the tears; he was even more beautiful crying.

Miyabi saw Hakuei's surprised expression, then suddenly felt angry for being 'used.' He pursed his lip into an angry line, then pushed Hakuei away. He got up from the mattress, grabbed a robe from the floor, and ran out the doors.

Hakuei was stunned for a few seconds, then hastily got up and put on a shirt. "FUCK!" he cursed. He opened the door and ran after the bishounen.

"Miyabi!" he called out. He spotted a slim form clad in a tiny white robe running down the hallway. "Matte~!"

Miyabi ignored the calls. The tears kept flowing down and they wouldn't stop no matter what he did. It was like a leaky faucet with an endless supply of water.

"Miyabi!!" Hakuei yelled. He quickly caught up to the younger man and grabbed his arm.

Miyabi shrugged him off angrily. "Don't touch me!!!!"

Hakuei backed off a bit. "Miyabi, let me explain."

"NO!!" he shrieked.

Suddenly, a door from one of the rooms slid open. Both men stared as Kaoru came out. The purple head looked up and froze. He looked from Hakuei, who was only clad in a long shirt, to Miyabi, who had tears in his eyes. He could tell he just walked in at a bad time, so he began backing into the room again.

Miyabi quickly grabbed Kaoru's arm and used him as a shield.

Kaoru: O_O;;;

"Miyabi, we need to talk… ALONE!" Hakuei insisted.

Miyabi held Kaoru tighter and shook his head vigorously.

"Listen to me!" Hakuei raised his voice. He was quickly losing his patience.

"NO!!"

Kaoru winced.

"All these years, I've listened to you!" Miyabi cried. "But you never listened to ANYONE! Why should I listen to you now!?!?"

"Please, Miyabi." Hakuei took a step forward and tried to get around to the other side, but Miyabi swung Kaoru's light form around so that he was blocking Hakuei. {Kaoru: @@; Guh…getting dizzy…}

Hakuei made a face. "Get outta the fucking way, Rat Face!"

Kaoru glared. "Stop calling met hat!! >.<!"

"Your'e in my way!"

"No I'm not! Miyabi's swinging me around!"

"Well, Miyabi and I need to talk, so butt out!"

"I CAN"T!!!!!!"

*****
Toshiya stared at himself in the mirror. He touched his forehead lightly and sighed dreamily. He could still feel Kaoru's lips on his skin. It was only a quick, innocent kiss; yet, it burned through Toshiya's soul. It felt so warm.

Then, Toshiya pouted. How could he think that way? Kaoru's his roommate, and he was just dumped the day before. But the blue head kept thinking of all the times Kaoru would hold him and comfort him in his arms. It always felt so good and so….. right.

Toshiya could see his blushing cheeks through the mirror's reflection. He covered them with his hands. Warm. So warm. Like Kaoru.

"Gaah~! I'm going crazy!" Toshiya hit his head on the table. He looked up and took a deep breath. It was a crazy thought, a crazy feeling. But he couldn't' help feeling this fluttering emotion on his chest.

He thought for a bit.

Now what would Kaoru do at times like these? The blue head snapped his fingers in realization. That's right.

No matter what he'd to this was meant to happen. If it doesn't last, it would never have lasted. And if it does, it always will. So just go with the flow.

Toshiya vowed to make the best out of it. The blue head smiled cheerfully. He was feeling better already. Suddenly, he heard noises from the outside. He frowned as he got up and opened the door. Toshiya blinked in surprise. 

Hakuei was looking at Miyabi, who clung to Kaoru from behind. The three men didn't' notice Toshiya's existence, but Toshiya could feel his heart sink at the sight.

Miyabi held Kaoru's waist tighter and sobbed quietly. Kaoru felt and heard it. He bit his lips then spoke sternly to Hakuei. "So what if you want to talk to him? He apparently doesn't want to talk to you!"

"This is none of your business!" Hakuei snapped.

"It is too!" Kaoru yelled. 'Someone like Miyabi doesn't deserve to be treated the way you treated him. He deserves better. Unlike some people, I care bout how he feels!"

Hakuei growled ,his fists clenched.

Kaoru tightened his jaw.

Miyabi whimpered.

Toshiya quickly snapped out of his depression. He knew what was coming. He knew Hakuei and Kaoru were going to start fighting. He didn't like the fact that Kaoru was protecting Miyabi, but….

~Make the best out of it…~

Hakuei quickly raised his arm and Kaoru readied himself. Miyabi stepped back a few feet and watched confusedly.

Before Hakuei could throw the first punch, Toshiya yelled to stop and ran in front of Kaoru. But it was too late. Toshiya felt a hard punch on his shoulder and fell back against Kaoru. Kaoru stared in shock, but held the blue head up. Hakuei's eyes widened in astonishment and cursed at himself. Miyabi gawked and froze on his spot.

"Toshiya!" Hakuei said. "Sorry!"

Toshiya clutched his shoulder and winced.

"Totchi, daijyoubou?" Kaoru asked.

Toshiya turned his head up to look at him for a long time. His eyelids dropped a notch and his pink lips curved into an unreadable smile.

Kaoru blinked. Why was Toshiya looking at him like that? 

The blue head turned away and gently pushed Kaoru aside. He looked at Hakuei. "I'm ok. Don't' worry." He bit his lip. "I just wanted you both to realize that you need to stop fighting. I don't' think Miyabi-kun would appreciate your childishness."

Miyabi, Hakuei, and Kaoru stared at him. Toshiya was being calm and mature. Impossible.

"Babe, are you sure I didn't hit you too hard?" Hakuei scratched his head.

"Hai." Toshiya said. "Next time you both decide to fight, think about the other people involved before starting it, OK?" he smiled slightly and glanced quickly at the confused purple head.

Kaoru looked so puzzled, but it made him all the more lovable. Dense, dense, Kaoru.

~My Kao-kao…~ he thought sadly to himself.

Toshiya turned his heel and quietly went down the staircase.

*****
Die groaned when he got up from the mattress he, Levin, and Shinya shared. He stared at the other two as they slept peacefully. It was a cute sight. Shinya holding Levin like a mother would hold a child, but Die dint' feel that way. He just felt frustrated. He was so horny last night, but with Levin there, he couldn't do anything with Shinya.

He stared longingly at the bishounen. He looked so angel-like. Die gently turned him away from Levin and stared at him. He brushed a lock of hair away and started kissing him. After a few seconds, he felt Shinya stir, so he broke the kiss. The younger man stared up at him, puzzled. So innocent. It made Die hornier, so he pressed his hardness on Shinya's thigh.

Shinya gasped. "Matte yo~! Levin's---"

Die cut him off with his lips. 

Shinya pushed him, but Die's excitement made him stronger. Soon, Shinya gave in and melted with the kiss. Die murmured his name over and over again as the kisses grew more desperate and Die tugged Shinya's pants and underwear down.

*****
Kyo yawned and got up from his mattress. He turned and stared at the empty mattress beside him. He frowned. Levin's still not there. Maybe Levin did go to Shinya's room

Grumbling to himself, he went out the door and padded across the hallway. He quickly reached Shinya's room and, without hesitation, swung the door open.

"Shinya, have you seen---!?!?!"

Kyo gawked. Levin was on the other side of the room, but Die and Shinya were on the other end in a very interesting position.

Shinya clawed Die's back as his lover's thrusts went faster and faster. He moaned and cried out again and again.

"Oh, god! Shinchan… so tight…"

"Die-kun…uhng..."

Kyo quickly shut the door, his face beet red. Two lemon scenes in a row was pretty traumatizing. He wondered what was making all his dorm mates so horny… must be the weather. They just need someone to keep the warmth.

Kyo sighed. 

He wished he had someone here to keep him warm…..

******

CONTD @ ~ Episode 38: Switching Roommates

to be continued~