Love Everlasting
by Diana Schwartz

RRRRIIINNGGGG!!!! Toshiya ignored the alarm clock pulling the sheets
over his head. "Oh no you don’t!" A strong arm reached out and whisked
the blanket off the bed. "Ne, Yo-chan, I’m so tired, lemme alone," he
mumbled around a yawn, curling back up against the pillow. Grinning
evilly the Yoshiki stalked over to the bed. He kissed Toshiya softly and
sat back watching. Toshiya smiled thinking he would get to sleep after
all, but no such luck. Grabbing the soft blue hair Yoshiki yanked his
head up kissing him with bruising force while stroking the insides of
his thighs through the thin material of his pajama bottoms. Seeing that
Toshiya’s eyes had widened to about the size of dinner plates he figured
that that was wake-up enough and gave him a shove in the direction of
the shower.


He walked back into their room sulkily holding a dripping towel around
his waist. "Tochi-chan, you got the pout all wrong, stick out your lips
more," said Yoshiki pouting at his reflection in the mirror. "Ah, I
guess you just don’t have the natural flare for everything like I do."
"Remind me why I’m with you again? Oh yeah, to keep your ego down to
about the size of Okayama," he whined flopping back down on the bed.
"Tochi, we were going to go out today, but your not gonna get anywhere
lying on the bed like that," he said eyeing the pale, slightly splayed
legs sticking over the edge of the mattress. "Okay, how about like
this?" The towel dropped to the floor. "Well you’ll be going somewhere
up high, but it wont be off the ground," he purred advancing on the
younger man. Squirming out of Yoshiki’s grasp he flung on some clothes
and ran a brush through his hair, which was already drying in clumps
around his head. Oh well, I’ll have to be resigned to looking like crap today...


"I’m not getting in that thing! It’s more rust than metal! What do you
want to do, drown me or something!" "Come on, it’s fun." "Not even the
great Yoshiki could make me touch that thing with a ten foot poll!"
Yoshiki sighed as he picked up his lover and dumped him in the boat.
"Waaa, it’s gonna kill me! Are you trying to sacrifice me to the gods of
drumming or something!" He suddenly realized that not only was he very
much alive, but he also wasn’t the slightest bit wet. "Well, it seems
alright," he said trying to regain his composure. Swallowing his
laughter Yoshiki grabbed the fishing gear and joined a sullen Toshiya in
the boat.


Come midday and fishing was long forgotten. A lone sunny (I don’t know
what kinda fish people catch in Japan, so just use your imagination) was
tied to the boat, which Yoshiki refused to toss back even though Toshiya
had made it perfectly clear that he was not about to eat anything that
had come in contact with the boat for fear of getting rust poisoning (if
that even exists 0_o;;). He had his pants rolled up and was dipping them
into the water cautiously, leaning back against his lover. Yoshiki had
one arm loosely around Toshiya’s slim waist (which was saying hello to
everyone beneath the crop top that he was wearing) and the other playing
with the messy blue strands of hair that had worked their way into
dreadlock-like clumps from the wind. "Ai shiteru Yo-chan." "Of course
you do, who wouldn’t," he whispered into his ear nibbling at the
sensitive shell. "Oh, the ego’s expanding again, take cover or you won’t
be able to breathe!" "Well I know someone who won’t be able to breathe
soon," he said brushing a finger over Toshiya’s lips. Replacing the
lingering digit with his own lips, they kissed with the air of practiced
lovers, mouths molding together perfectly. Breaking apart Yoshiki
smiled. "Wasn’t I right?" he asked breathlessly. "But aren’t you
always," Toshiya laughed pressing little kisses on the strong arms
encircling him. Pulling himself onto the taller man’s lap he straddled
him wrapping his arms around his neck. Closing the space between them
quickly Yoshiki kissed him deeply, arching his tongue inside his mouth.
Moaning softly he settled himself more comfortably, wrapping his legs
around the older man’s waist. Eyes darken by desire Yoshiki pushed
Toshiya up against the side of the boat grinding his hips into the
smaller man. Both were so caught up in their actions that they didn’t
feel the boat rocking until the entire thing tipped over.


The water was dark, swrilling around him in murky currents as he fought
to reach the surface. Weighed down by his sodden clothes he finally
reached air after what seemed like an eternity. When he caught his
breath he looked around for Toshiya, not a strand of blue hair to be
seen. Calling out his name Yoshiki ducked underwater searching for him
only to find nothing. Then out of the corner of his eye he saw a shape
floating in the water. Swimming toward it he almost cried with relief to
find that it was indeed Toshiya. Pulling him onto his back he swam over
to the boat and managed to push it upright again. Laying Toshiya across
the wooden planks he checked to see that he was breathing. Yes! The
shallow breaths didn’t look very sustaining but he was alive and that
was all the mattered to Yoshiki. What’s this? What are these sparkles?
They’re...they’re my tears?


Everything felt so floaty and warm. Not the kind of fuzzy, drunken
awareness that he had so often experienced before, but a completely
foreign sensation. He realized that his eyes were shut tightly, so tight
that it hurt. Slowly he opened them, like a person does when they just
open the light in a dark room. A boat. There was a boat, and a person in
it, but he was too far away to tell anything else. I wonder what that
guy is doing in a boat like that? I wouldn’t go near that thing, more
less trust it in the water! And as if he was supposed to see something
else the picture became closer and more crisp. He could make out a
blonde man sitting hunched over what looked like another guy, but what
ever it was it certainly wasn’t very much alive. I know him from
somewhere! Who could that guy be? He’s, he’s crying. I wonder why?
"Well, well, look who we have here! I still can’t believe Yoshiki fell
for a guy like you." Toshiya spun around to face a man a little shorter
than himself with pink hair and an evil smile. Yoshiki! I’ve got to get
back to him! "Not so fast," He said grabbing Toshiya’s wrist tightly.
(Yes you’re right, the italics mean thinking, but Toshiya and Hide
communicate by thinking into eachother’s head’s so that’s why their
conversations are all in italics. Gomen for all the confusing goblly
gook) "Who are you? Let me go!" "Have I been forgotten already? I really
did think people would remember me. I mean they brought so many flowers
to my funeral that my allergies killing (how could they kill you Hide?
You were already dead o_o;; did he even have allergies?) me for a
month!" That’s the guy in all of Yoshiki’s old photos, Hide, I remember
him now! (for the fic’s sake Toshiya is the only member of DeG that
supposedly forgot who Hide was, or we could just blame it on his near
death experience...) "So I see that Yoshiki didn’t plan to forget me
completely, well then I’ll forgive him. Tatta, I need to get layed real
bad so you’ll have to stick around here for a while!" Toshiya could
hardly blink before he saw a pink whiz whisk itself into his body.
"Wait! You can’t do that! That’s my body! Don’t you dare touch my
Yoshiki!" "What d’ya mean you’re Yoshiki! I had him fist, and besides
why would he want a scrawny little ass like you when he could have
beautiful me!" "I am the beautiful one, if you think Yoshiki likes
screwing pink haired fiends then you’ve got something coming (ha ha, pun
intended) to you!" "Well he sure didn’t seem to mind it before. I’ve had
to sit here watching you two have sex like crazed weasels for weeks and
if you think a dead guy can’t get a hard-on be prepared for a
revelation!" "You were watching us!" "Hey, I don’t trust Yoshiki without
mature supervision." "Waaa, gimme back my body or I’m gonna scream!!!!!"
"Geez, you really are a brat! Well since I’m such a great guy I’ll make
a deal with you, I get to have some fun in your body for one week, then
you get it back ok?" "No, I want it back now!" "All or none" "No"
"You’ll never have to eat another double cheeseburger as long as you
live" "Fine!" "Yatta, this is gonna be one tiring week! Now if you’ll
excuse me I’ve got to conveniently wake up so that our dear Yo-chan is
no longer distressed!"


I’d better start rowing back thought Yoshiki sitting up and grabbing
the oars. Tying the boat up to the dock he picked up "Toshiya" and
carried him over to their car. There was a jacket scrunched up in the
trunk, it was dirty, but judging by the way Toshiya was shivering it
wasn’t gonna make a difference now.

Swinging open the door with his foot he stumbled into the room
practically falling over the coffee table. Damn! For such a skinny brat
Toshiya sure is heavy! He thought examining the scrape on his leg. But
his angry thoughts dissolved completely when he turned back to look at
the blue haired man. "Toshiya’s" breathing had returned to normal, but
his still looked so cold and venerable. Gathering him into his arms he
hugged him to his chest (massive drool accumulates at the thought)
carrying him back to their bed. Stripping off the sodden clothes he
stuck them in the bathroom and returned wrapping "Toshiya" in some thick
towels. "I’ve got to go now, but I’ll be back as soon as I can," he said
to the peacefully sleeping man in the bed. Walking to the door he turned
around one last time, looking at the lump in under the covers, then he
left smiling.


Hot!!! Was the first thing that came to mind when Hide woke up
practically buried alive in towels. Clawing at the swabs of fabric he
finally managed to free himself enough escape. Just like Yo-chan to try
to kill me again, with towels none the less! Yawning he made his way to
the bathroom.


"What! This Toshiya brat doesn’t have any work out suits!" Hide
shrieked as managed to fling about half of Toshiya’s wardrobe out the
window. "Hey, don’t put your grimy fingers on my clothes!" "Oh, you’re
back again, how yah bin?" "Shut up" "What, in a bad mood?" "Who wouldn’t
be with a fiend in their body!" "Well I don’t need to sit here and take
this, just be a patient little boy and you’ll get your body back if I
feel like it," he said as he managed to chuck Toshiya’s favorite shirt
out the window. "That was my favorite shirt!" "Well you need a change of
wardrobe anyway, what difference does it make what I do with it?" "I’m
gonna-" "McDonalds Toshiya, think how disgusting those greasy hamburgers
are. Think how fat and plump you’ll look after Yoshiki shoves it down
your gullet" "Okay you win,
just keep the rest of my stuff intact!"


Since he couldn’t find any decent clothes Hide figured he could at
least change his, Toshiya’s, hair color to a more fashionable tint, pink
that is... *Click* "Tadaima!" Hide bounded out of the bedroom fluffing
his newly died hair happily. "Okaeri nasai Yo-chan! Long time no see eh?
Suprised?" What’s that?! It can’t be...Hide? "Toshiya, don’t be so mean
pretending to be Hide," he managed to squeak out sounding very OOC.
"Nope, I really am Hide! Isn’t that great!" Okay, this wasn’t the
response Yoshiki was expecting. Getting desperate, "Well you shouldn’t
pretend to be Hide of all people, he was a much better musician than
you..." "Oh I’m so glad you think so!" he said while forcefully glomping
the poor blonde man in front of him. "You can’t be, you’re not-" "Oh but
I am," he murmured nuzzling Yoshiki’s neck. This is so definitely not
Toshiya! But that last thought was ended abruptly by a pair of naughty
roaming hands... (Gomen, I promise I’ll throw in a lemon sooner or
later! *Michi gets pelted by dirty old shoes and little packets of lemon
flavored Jell-O* Maybe it’s a good thing I’m avoiding lemon...)


"I’m too busy to go searching around for blue haired goons, you get him
Die-kun," Kaoru mumbled not even bothering to look up from the sheet of
lyrics that he was reading over. "But you’re his best friend, I dun
wanna go out in the cold! Shin-chan, save me!" "Don’t call me that."
"Why not Shin-chan?" Die asked feigning ignorance, blinking a few times
just for good measure. "Grrr," a very annoyed drummer went to get his
coat and then returned to whap Die on the head before leaving. Coming in
again, "Kyo, will you come with me? I’ll be so lonely alone," he called
coyly from the doorway. Poor, groggy, little Kyo had just woken up and
went to get his coat unknowing of the danger that lurked before him. The
Tasmanian Diedevil!!!!!!! Kowaii eh? And so before he could move another
inch Die had grabbed his coat grumbling and pulled Shinya out the door.
Shinya was grinning like a maniac. Kyo had fallen asleep where he was
standing. Kaoru really couldn’t give a damn. That’s it for the Dir En
Grey summary tonight folks.


"Toshiya! Move your lazy ass out of there, even Kyo was on time today!"
Die shouted pounding on the door. Shinya was lounging against the wall
nursing his sore hands. He had already tried the method of breaking the
door down with his fists, Die didn’t seem to have noticed the painful
results. "Die that’s not gonna work, lets just go back." "And face the
wrath of Kaoru? I’d rather beat my hands to a bloody pulp myself!" "Hey,
I just remembered that Yoshiki gave me a key!" "Shinya!" Oh no! That’s a
bad look, a very bad look! "You’ve been naughty, so I guess I’ll have to
punish you!" Arg, last time he said that I was sore for a week!
"Die-san, you get Toshiya and I’ll head back to practice ok," Shinya
squeaked pitching the key at him and running as fast as he could down
the stairwell. Oh well, I’ll have plenty of time to get him back thought
Die as he shoved the key into the door with unusual force.(I’ll leave
that up to your own hentai minds, if you don’t get it it’s not your
fault, you’ve lead a sheltered life -_-;;) "Toshiya?!" Yoshiki walked
out of the bedroom groggily, wiping his eyes he looked up, "Oh, Die,
what are you doing here?" This is weird, being at my producer’s house
while he walks out of his bedroom wearing only a pair of very soiled
boxers... "Die, is something the matter?" "Oh, no, I was.. um, just
looking for Toshiya, he’s here isn’t he?" God, Hide can’t go to their
practice, Damn, and I suck at making up lies! "Well, actually Toshiya’s
out of town for this week, to visit his family." "That’s strange, he
didn’t tell Kaoru or anyone else-" "Yo-chan, who’s at the door," Hide
asked sticking his head out of the bedroom. "Hid- Toshiya, what are you
doing back so soon?" Yoshiki practically screamed desperately making
shooing motions with his hands. "What are you talking about Yo-chan, you
know I’m not Toshiya, and I was never gone in the first place," he
babbled not knowing that Die was standing in the doorway, dumbfounded.
"Toshiya, you died your hair!" "Who died my hair!" "Isn’t it a pretty
color now?" "No, I liked it the way it was before!" "Fine, then be
ungrateful, all I wanted to do was help you!" "Who are you yelling at
Hide?" "What, you’re Hide?! Can I have your autograph! You were such a
great guitar player, I wanted to be just like you! " Gods, did I just
say that?! "Who do you think I’m yelling at, Toshiya!" "Toshiya?" both
Yoshiki and Die are really confused by now. "Can’t you see him, he’s
sitting right there being an ungrateful brat!" Hide pointed to a blank
wall, sticking his tongue out at it.


"Were the hell is Die, Shinya!" "I don’t know, I don’t know, I gave him
the key and then I left, I was just so scared that I didn’t even wait to
see what happened to him, I don’t know!" Shinya wailed clutching the
nearest person who just happened to be Kaoru, very bad thing! Glaring at
the pitifully sobbing Shinya who had attached himself to his arm Kaoru
tried to sit up. After a few more attempts to dislodge barnacle Shinya
(It’s barnacle Bill (o_0;;) the sailor! Come on children and sing
along!) Kaoru deemed it worthless and stared making corrections to music
with just his left hand. "What’s the matter Shinya," asked Kyo coming
back with some instant cup ramen. He felt all refreshed after his
morning nap, but his back was a little sore from sleeping standing up,
not the best thing for your posture... "I don’t know where Die is!"
"Let’s just hope for the best." "I’m sure he’ll come back, Toshiya’s
probably just taking a while," Kyo said around a noodle that had escaped
his chopsticks. "I said let’s hope for the best!" "Shut up Kaoru, I miss
Die!" "He’s been gone for a whole two hours, you’re never like this when
he’s around!" WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Okay already, we’ll go out and find him, you stay here incase he comes
back." "Oh thank you Kyo!" Shinya smiled sweetly while Kaoru glared
daggers, arrows, nuclear missiles and any other harmful artillery that
he could think of at him.

"Matte, let me get this straight, when Toshiya fell out of the boat
he almost drowned and you’re spirit talked to his spirit. Since you both
were technically dead you could look up (teeheee) at what was happening
on earth. Then you made a deal with Toshiya so that he could be in his
body. "I didn’t make a deal with that fiend, he stole my body from me!"
"Shut up or I’ll decide to stay where I am permanently" "Hide, would you
stop doing that!" "Doing what?" "Talking to Toshiya!" "Why" "Because you
look like a wacko talking to a wall!" "But you know that it’s Toshiya?"
"THAT’S NOT THE POINT!!!!!!!" "Geez, you didn’t have to yell at me."
"Let’s just finish figuring out what’s wrong here," Die said nibbling on
the ends of his hair. "Okay," Yoshiki said continuing, "so then when you
woke up in Toshiya’s body you waited for me, and then, *Yoshiki blushes
a very pretty shade of hello kitty pink at the mention their previous
activities* let’s just say that’s when Die came. "So in other words, I’m
to tell Kaoru that Toshiya went away for a week, but no one knows where
he went, but not to worry because he’ll be back by Monday, and then I’m
supposed to walk away alive?" Die went through the motions waving his
hands around his head. "There’s no need to be sarcastic," Hide said
sulkily. "Just go back and tell Kaoru that practice is cancelled for
today, I’ll think of something and call you," Yoshiki practically pushed
Die out the door in exasperation. Clopping down the stairs Die was just
about as pissed as a guy could get, until he remembered about Shinya’s
punishment, then he became as happy as a guy could get.


"Kyo, why the hell did you suggest we do this again!" "Wah, Kaoru! Put
that stick down! (Not THAT one you hentais, they’re at the park!) You
could hurt someone!" "I would like to hurt someone, preferably YOU!" Kyo
is running around in circles waving his arms and looking very kaxxi,
Kaoru is chasing after him swinging around a stick that looks like it
would disintegrate if you walked to loudly near it. "I’ve got an idea!"
Kyo exclaimed stopping in his tracks. Kaoru wasn’t expecting this, so he
plowed right into Kyo almost shoving the stick up his cute little ass.
(sorry, I couldn’t resist it. But alas remember kiddies that it is only
a stick, as in stick from a tree, and the real lemon is yet to cum)
"Itai, Itai!!!!" "Shut up and tell me where you think he is!" "waa,
you’re so mean Kaoru!" "Gomen Kyo-chan, I guess I am a little stressed
today." Evil grin appears on Kyo’s face. "Poor Kaoru-chan, let me help
unstress you," he said while wrapping his skinny little arms around
Kaoru’s slim waist. Much to his surprise, a pleasantly husky voice
answered him back," I think I would like that a lot." Now Kyo was not a
man to turn down sex in any form, and definitely if it was gonna be with
a certain violet haired guitarist. (I would have said pink, but then you
might have thought that it was Hide or Sugi, so violet will have to do)
So with Kyo and Kaoru all busy it’s a very good thing that Die wasn’t
laying wounded in the gutter getting eaten by rats, because frankly,
they were to busy having a good orgasm to care.


"Shinya, Kyo, is anyone in here," Die asked as he opened the door to
the studio. "DIE" *glomp* *bang* *cringe* That musta hurt, after all
Shinya is the strongest member of the band. "Shin-chan?" "Where were
you! I was so worried!" "Really!" (eye’s widen) "Why do you sound so
surprised!" he said sulkily, pasting himself onto Die’s back. He reached
around, slipping his hands into Die’s shirt and running them
appreciatively over his chest. "Ah, Shinya" Die turned around tilting
Shinya’s head up so that he could capture the alluring lips with his
own, but Shinya turned his head so that Die ended up planting a kiss on
his cheek. "Shinya!" But Die’s exclamation came out as a strangled moan
as Shinya casually rested his hand between Die’s legs. I am NOT going to
let my girlfriend fuck me, Die struggled to think while Shinya slipped
his hand inside of his pants. Moaning freely his knees buckled as Shinya
scraped his fingernails over his shaft. He caught him before he fell,
pushing him back up against the wall until he was sure that Die wouldn’t
slip down again. Stepping back he pulled his shirt over his head,
slowly, smiling at the hungry stares Die was giving him. His hands moved
down his chest caressing himself. Circling one pink nub he teased it,
moaning softly as it hardened under his gentile touch. His fingers
continued drift lower as he undid the buckle to his skirt, letting the
leather material slide down to his ankles. Running a feather light
finger over his arousal Shinya’s hips jerked forward on impulse. He
struggled to keep his eyes on Die, but against his will they shut as his
breathing quickened. "Nanai!" His exclamation came out more like a rasp
as he felt a very hot, very aroused body press up against his own.
"Little Shin-chan, if I am not mistaken, it was you who was deserving of
a punishment," Die whispered into Shinya’s ear, stroking his jaw with
feverish fingers. "Mmm, I think you’re right" "Well then, what should I
do about it" Shinya whimpered as Die wrapped his hand around a certain
part of his anatomy. "Die, onegai..." "Oh, getting demanding are we?" he
teased squeezing gently. Shinya was almost there, his head thrown back,
hair sticking to Die’s sweaty body covering him with a scent that was
pure Shinya. So of course Die removed his hand from Shinya’s genitals,
it was only fitting. "Die!" "What is it Shin-chan?" "Die!" "What ever is
the matter, I wish you would stop yelling at me" "Oh you! I hate you!"
"Oh, now we’re getting unappreciative are we?" Shinya started
whimpering, what’s the matter?! Doesn’t Die love me anymore, I’m not
getting fat and ugly, so what’s wrong with- AAAHHHHHHHH.... Shinya
brought his body up to meet Die’s thrust. I love Die, I love Die, I love
Die so much! Die caught him before he collapsed, both men sliding to the
ground. "Ne, Shin-chan, you don’t still hate me do you?" *Whap* "Itai!"
"Who could, baka," he said wrapping his arms around Die, snuggling up
against his lover.
(Okay, this wasn’t even a real lemon, I was just trying to get the story
back on track. Believe it or not, there actually was a plot to this
thing when I started out!)


Yoshiki’s doing it again. I hate it when he does that. He’s
pacing. Back and forth, over again and again and again, so, naturally.
Why does he do it?! It’s because of me isn’t it. Maybe our love has
washed away with the rain, maybe our love everlasting... "Time through
the rain has set me free, sands of time keep your memory, love
everlasting fades away, alive within your beatless heart, Dry your tears
with love..." "I’m sorry," Hide whispered under his breath, face hidden
under strands of pink hair. "I’m so sorry." "Hide, what’s the matter!"
He looked up to face a very worried Yoshiki staring searchingly into his
eyes. Fighting to keep the waver out of his voice," It’s just that I
thought. I never. I was surprised one day, I looked over at you and
there was someone else in your bed. Someone different, but you seemed,
uncomfortable, like you didn’t know the exact way to put your arms
around him, but afraid that he might just disappear if you didn’t.
Disappear, like someone else had. And I figured you would realize that
he wasn’t me and go back to waiting, our love everlasting. But as the
sands of time blew on, you seemed different. Your arms knew where to go,
you laughed, I was different too. And I was jealous. And I deserved it.
I never knew how much I loved to live until I wasn’t alive anymore. I
never know how much I treasured you until I could only watch you
hurting. I couldn’t do anything. Nothing. So when I got my chance I took
it, I didn’t care at all. Through everything I hadn’t learned a single
thing. And I went back to mucking up anything I set about to do.
Swirling the mud from under the crystal fountain, blurring the edges.
Now I’m back again. Making trouble. Most important, I’m mucking up
someone’s life. Blurring the edges of someone who I care about more than
anything I know. Someone who’s love I want to return, everlasting."
"Hide" Fingers were brushing off a tear that had managed to escape from
the corner of one brown eye. "Hide" I can see him in Toshiya, that’s why
eventually, I could learn to love again too. But Hide’s gone, he isn’t
here anymore, our love isn’t everlasting, it’s over. That’s what I
thought. I never. And now he’s back, what can I do. Say, Hi, welcome
back, like he was gone on vacation or something. Glad to see you’re home
again, I’ll just forget about everything I had to overcome when you left
and life will be back to normal. Everyone will be everlastingly happy
ever after. But that’s not it, I’m not happy. I gave myself to Hide and
I never got it back, now where can I turn? Insert Toshiya’s comments to
all this angst stuff ? What a load of crap, this fic writer really
sucks at angst too, just like she sucks at everything else. Now how on
earth is she gonna continue this story. I’ll just have to take upon my
own hands! "Yoshiki, Hide would love to treat you to a scrumptious meal
at McDonalds!" "Really!? I feel so much better already, come on
Hide-chan!" Hide has a look of dread pass over his face as he is dragged
out the door by an ecstatic Yoshiki. "Then again, maybe I would rather
be dead" "Hey, what happened to all your sadness and wanting to be alive
to keep your love everlasting with my dear Yo-chan!" "DAMARE!!!!!!"


"Why does Yoshiki want us to go to his house?" asked Shinya curling his
hair in the mirror. "Er, he, um, has something he wants to tell
everyone." "This couldn’t have anything to do with Toshiya could it,
Die," said a skeptical Kaoru who was busy erasing all the scribbled
stuff that he had to write on the music when Shinya was sitting on his
right hand. "Well, we should just go now so we won’t be late." Die said
hastily herding everyone out of the studio.

"Yoshiki, everyone’s here, so start splainin!" Die called out while the
rest of Dir en Grey rolled their eyes and plopped down on the Yoshiki’s
overstuffed couch. "Why are we hiding Yo-chan?" "Just be quiet and maybe
they’ll go away." "I don’t think so, my legs are getting cramped, I’m
going to go out." "Don’t you dare!" "Well I have to do something, after
all, this whole mess is my fault!" And before Yoshiki could get in
another word Hide had started wrenching himself out from under the bed.
"Fine, I’ll come out," was the disgruntled response from a cobweb
covered Yoshiki. "YOSHIKI" Die screamed right into Yoshiki’s ear as he
was walking out of the bedroom. "Geez, don’t you ever take a break?!"
"Shut up! I wasn’t having sex under the bed, baka, I was hiding from
YOU, you big oaf!" "Wow, what’s wrong with Yoshiki-sama, I never saw him
like this before," baffled mutterings crossed between the confused
members of DeG. "Let me start from the beginning, Hide get your ass out
here and help too!" Hide bashfully walked into the room, he looked like
was trying to hide (god, my puns get worse and worse as this fic
continues, maybe I should just shoot myself and save everyone the
trouble 0_o;;) behind his hair, very ooc eh? All the Dir en Grey brat’s
get huge eyes and diamond shaped Yu Watase lips.


Three hours and about five years of their life later everyone was
caught up with the latest supernatural happening and trying to decide
what to do about it. "Hey, don’t I get to have any say in what happens
to my body!" "Woah, what’s that, I’m I going crazy like that Gackt
chick! (Okay I really do love Gackt, but it’s just to much fun to
make-fun of him!)" Kyo said smacking his head a couple of times like he
was trying to clear his mind but only succeeding in giving himself a
headache to add the other aches that a certain guitarist inflicted upon
him earlier in the park (oh, how indiscreet, could they be charged for
indecent exposure?). Let me give you a hint, it wasn’t Die. (That was
subtle! "Shut up Kirin, you don’t deserve to be my muse, you never help
with anything anyway, it’s all your fault that my fics suck so bad!" Oh,
blame it all on the muse now. "Well, isn’t that what a muse is for!" I
hate you! "That’s because I’m always right." I really hate you.) "Hey, I
heard it too," said Shinya vigorously wiping his eyes. OF COURSE YOU
HEARD ME!!! WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM?! "Toshiya, I think everyone would
appreciate it if you would stop screaming in their heads!" "I WOULD
APRICIATE IT IF I HAD BACK MY BODY AND MY LOVER AND MY FRIENDS AND MY
LIFE!!!!!" "I guess your right..." "I don’t care what you think you
fiend, wait... you said I was right?" "You’re right, I should have done
this, messing up everyone’s lives. I should never have interfered in the
first place." "HEY! DON’T TRY TO MAKE ME GUILTY, BECAUSE IT WON’T WORK!"
Hide looked up at Toshiya giving him a melancholy smile, tears were
running down his cheeks splattering in little crystal pools on the
floor. "STOP IT! I DON’T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU!" He’s cracking, I can
see it! Just a little more time and Tochi baby will be on the floor
weeping! But damn, I’m running out of fake tears! "FINE, I’M SORRY I
YELLED!" "You’re yelling right now, I don’t think that that’s a very
valid apology." "Don’t push your luck. If I’m not remembering something
correctly please don’t hesitate to tell me, but a certain person
promised to rid my dear Yoshiki of a certain habit and I do not think
that it has been fulfilled quite yet.." "Oh, you know I really don’t
feel too well, I think all go down to the pharmacy and get some cough
syrup." "You don’t need to do that, I have some right here," said
Yoshiki waving a bottle of that disgusting cherry flavored sleep well or
whatever it’s call cough syrup stuff. Swallowing dryly, "it’s not my
brand," Hide finished pathetically. "Yoshiki’s habit Hide, I’m waiting!"
"Demo..." "Hey, what’s wrong with me? What habit do you have to break?
Waa, you don’t like me the way I am do you!" "I think that all this mess
has definitely taken an emotional toll on Yoshiki-sama," Kaoru whispered
into Kyo’s ear, stating the obvious. "Of course I’ve had an emotional
toll! It’s not every day that your deceased boy friend drops by and
tells you that there’s something wrong with you that needs to be
changed!" "Matte, Yo-chan, well it’s just that, um" Hide is suddenly
unbelievably interested with the little ducks on his slippers. "Well
Hide, tell us what you want Yoshiki to change." "I’M GETTING TO IT! It
just, well, you know, um, Yoshiki, I’m really worried about what all
that fast food will do to you. You’ll get all bloated and there’ll be
yellow stuff inside your body all clogged up, and one day you’ll just
kneel over and that’ll be the end of you!" Hide finished dramatically.
"Um, I think what Hide means is that he and Toshiya don’t particularly
enjoy McDonalds food as much as you do, and they want you not to bring
anymore of it home because it disgusts them so much that they can’t even
look at you while you’re eating it," Shinya helpfully explained. "You
could have just told me, you know." "We didn’t want to hurt your
feelings," said Hide and Toshiya in unison. "Anyway, just look at me,
I’m so beautiful it’s a wonder you didn’t start eating fast food in
hopes that one day you could rival my good looks!" "Wow, that musta hit
him in a real sore spot!" "Kaoru, I’ve been thinking that Dir En Grey
really doesn’t need two guitarists, soo..." "Oh, don’t pay attention to
little ol’ me over here, just pretend I’m a lump in the cushions."
"Trust me, it’s very tempting." Kaoru starts to sulk cause of Yoshiki’s
mean teasing. Then he turns bright red from Kyo’s style of teasing.
"Well, now that Kaoru’s not gonna kick my ass I’m starving, Shin-chan
let’s get something to eat!" "Grrrrrrr," Shinya stuck his tongue out at
Die. "Don’t stick out your tongue unless you plan to use it, naughty
hime!" (okay, that was shamelessly stolen, and calling Shinya hime? I’ve
definitely been reading way to many MM fics!) Shinya drags Die out of
the room followed by Kyo and Kaoru is suddenly the member (no comment)
walking uncomfortably.


"Hmmmm, Toshiya, are you there?" Hide was sitting on Yoshiki’s window
seat, looking into the sky. "What’s the matter fiend, you look kinda
down?" "I am," Hide admitted. Toshiya settled himself on the window
ledge, "So, shoot." "I don’t really know what to say, I mean, it’s just
that I was glad to see Yoshiki again, but I have the feeling that he’d
be more happy with you. Having me here is just too confusing for him."
"Well, that’s the first sensible thing that’s come out of your mouth all
week." "But I really mean it, don’t you want to go back to your body?"
"Hell yeah!" "So, when can we do it?" "DO what?!" "Switch places, what
did you think I was talking about!" Toshiya blushed, if that’s even
possible for a sprit. "Sukebe, why would I want a skinny little brat
like you?" "Meany, I don’t know how I’ll ever get used to being treated
nicely again!" "How about now, at that place in the park with all the
Sakura trees?" "That’d be the perfect place, whenever Yoshiki is feeling
sad he goes there, how’d you know about it?" "Do you ever wonder why
Yoshiki goes there when he’s sad?" Toshiya got the hint and started to
blush again. "I’ve got to tell Yoshiki that I’m going," Hide said
getting up from his seat. "Oh, and Hide? Before you go, you better dye
my hair back to blue!" Toshiya said mischievously winking before he
whisked himself away. Hide couldn’t help but smiling until he remembered
that what he had to tell Yoshiki. Swallowing he took a deep breath and
turned around right into Yoshiki. "So you’re going?" "Yeah," Hide
breathed out softly. "You know that I’ll miss you." "I hoped that you
would." Yoshiki pushed Hide back looking into his eyes, "Don’t you ever
think that I’ll forget you, you moron!" He fondly played with a lock of
pink hair. "I don’t think I could ever forget an jerk like you, I just
love you too much." Pulling Hide back into an embrace he sighed in
resignation. "You’re still going to go aren’t you?" "Well if you’d let
me get a word in edgewise instead of smothering me with your shirt I
might be able to tell you!" he smirked lightly punching Yoshiki’s arm.
"I’ll miss you too."


Toshiya was standing at the edge of the grove. The Sakura petals
swirled in the wind, soft pink splotches of color against the clear sky.
"Toshiya, I’m here!" "Oh, so much for punctuality." "Well, I had to dye
my hair again." "There was just one thing that I wanted to ask you."
"What?" "Well, what are you gonna do after this, you can’t just float
around a be a spirit for the rest of time, trust me, it’s so deadly
boring you might just die again!" "Hmm, well I could pay a visit to my
dear friend Sugizo, but I was kinda hoping to broaden my horizons, meet
some new people." "Who’s your next victim?" "Kamijo-sama! (I’m doing
this pairing all for you, so you owe me a good DieXKaoru fic Rei!) I’ve
always wanted to try on some of those hats and besides, Machi’s got a
much nicer body than you do," Hide laughed poking at Toshiya’s ribs.
Suddenly the wind picked up, swirling the petals faster around Hide
until he was completely covered in a gauzy layer of pink. And then the
wind died down. Toshiya flexed his arm experimentally, hey, I’m back to
normal! He turned around to say something to Hide but he was already
gone. A pang of sadness clenched at his heart until he felt Yoshiki grab
his arms pulling him to the middle of the grove. The petals bathed them
in a curtain of soft comfort. "I knew Hide would never be gone for long,
he just can’t stop making trouble," Yoshiki sighed. A little gurgle of
laughter welled up deep inside his chest and soon he was on his knees
laughing uncontrollably. Toshiya joined him gasping for breath as their
laughter rang through the protective branches of the pink frosted Sakura
trees. We will love you Hide, everlasting.

~*Owari*~

But now you’re probably wondering what happened to Hide, Gods, some
people just are never satisfied!
"Hide, give that back, it’s my favorite hat!" "No dear little Kamijo, I
think it would look better like this," he gleefully sniped off one of
the blue roses with a pair of pinking sheers. Kamijo, shrieked, grabbing
the poor mangled piece of blue silk tenderly. "There, all done, now
don’t you think this is better?" Hide had managed to tear all the other
decorations off the hat and then proceeded to cut little designed in the
fabric with different edged scissors. "Waaa, Hide, please leave my hats
alone!" "Will you take me out to diner?" "Anything!" "Oh, goodie, now
what shall I wear," he inquired will making quick work of Kamijo’s
neatly organized closet and moving on to Machi’s section of the room.
"No, don’t touch that," Kamijo shrieked as Hide pulled out a long maroon
dress, that tied around the neck (sound familiar?) and began to flounce
around in it. Machi watched bemused as his poor lover scurried around
their room trying to save it from further damage. This being dead wasn’t
as bad as it was made out to be and besides, Kami had given him a bunch
of cool new tricks to try out on his drums.


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