He's a big-little, grown-immature, low self-esteem-megalomaniac Stalkadillo dillo stroking his frail frail ego over munchausens ego boosters. He's a stalker gone interestingly, sickeningly, absurdly, ludicrously, wrong. He's becoming an experiment within his own experimental labyrinth. He runs his studies stalking as we observe his conduct as an audience might stare in horrified fascinated awe at a deranged Opera's phantom. All in the absence of a better solution on our parts. All in the absence of worth and sanity on his part. The parameters of his experiment are becoming liquid and I believe this very concept in action disturbs and confuses him further than his previously static realm of confusion and disturbance. He must flail with some mounting sense of befuddled desperation in this liquid environment of his own creation. Fritz Perls' concept of self-acceptance, paradoxical theory of change, lingers above his abyss in its rapidly spinning airborne cycles asserting that people change only when they are able to accept themselves exactly where they are right now. He pawns off the blame, the cause, and the state of being for where he is, for what he's done, for what he continues to do, onto others. He exists in an abyss of the paradoxical theories of projections and denials. Not the denials of things not granted despite righteous efforts, but the very denials of things he refuses to do separate and away from his envisioned hunting fields of scapegoats. Therefore, he cannot change nor can he recover. He considers himself ultimately free and without boundaries other than the limited and flexible boundaries he chooses to impose upon himself while he perpetrates and exists wholly without exception in an unyielding cage of his own creation. Perhaps this cage of his own creation, having turned towards the thick encroaching liquid of altering tides, also of his own creation, is beginning to close in upon him. In brief fleeting moments of discomforting confusion he feels the suffocation effects of this cage of his own construction's efforts. It squeezes his entirety for moments barely recognized by his scattered cognitive being before he shrugs this consequence off and discards the dawning of clarity which beckons his identification of at least one small segment of reality. His own self-imposed prison of endless perpetration possibilities has only one way out and into the light -- to permanently halt all perpetration(s). His perpetration is an addiction. He is forever devoid of all skills pertaining to logic, rational cognition, abstract comprehension, active listening, active listening long-enough, responding to precise feelings, empathetic responses to obtain further images of reality, and the draining off of accurate emotions through reasonable acceptable means combined with the ability to accept reality. Therefore he twirls endlessly upon his own self-erected sharp fork of ridiculous judgments, ignorance, false-statements, self-imposed insanity, foolishness, ludicrous conclusions, maniacal violations of others, vendetta related confusion, etc. becoming more the Village Idiot with each passing moment. Each day of his fixated existence is burgeoning with massive qualities of obsession and obsession related conclusions and pursuits. He is incapable of objectivity. He is more so incapable of sanity. His fixated little life is not a life at all but rather it is a perpetual expression of a wasted life. He is the proverbial cockroach trapped in his own stalking roach hotel, spending his bountiful predatory and perversion warped life-force efforts on dragging his victims into the very same roach hotel. All the while he blames the victims for this existence of the roach hotel he built through the years of his own vile behaviors and now defends perpetually with his false labeling of munchausens, munchausens by proxy, unfit mothering, fictitious disorders and other similar fallacies. His meaning, his reality is a fallacy. As his fallacy grows out of control so does his fantasy world spouting new life into his own severe fictitious disorder. The concept of shirking responsibility for one's own actions, as he does so vehemently without a moment's hesitation or forethought or regret, is a well known concept in dealing with the behaviors of men who abuse. Moreover, this is a well known difficulty in dealing with males who are afflicted with aggressive Anti-Social Personality disorder, sociopathic and/or psychopathic tendencies. He's a big-little, grown-immature, low self-esteem-megalomaniac Stalkadillo dillo stroking his frail frail ego over munchausens ego boosters. He's a stalker gone interestingly, sickeningly, absurdly, ludicrously, wrong. He's becoming an experiment within his own experimental labyrinth. His projection schemes are transparent to those who have had the misfortune to observe him over time. There are many like him within society. I would suggest all ladies exercise great caution when meeting new males who may be ever so similarly disordered.
By Lady Lost
Copyright © 2002
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No rights to copy, print, download, duplicate, or display elsewhere other than upon this specific website granted or implied without the direct written permission of the author. Please contact agent of the author: Mr. Gunther S. Vanludwick at svanludwick@yahoo.com
**As with all poetry, essays, correspondence and/or published letters, e-mails or other communications presented on this webpage, this poem is a personal subjective expression of its author's own feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and opinions. This statement is in no way intended to invalidate or minimize the powerful and poignant experiences of this author. However, this statement is intended to indicate that creative expressions such as these written forms of artwork are derived from their author's own personal feelings, thoughts, beliefs and opinions.
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A Generalized Description Of
Stalkers:
(Please go to experts for
more information):
1) Stalkers can be extremely charming and/or charismatic prior to the time they begin stalking their victim. They are masters of deception.
2) Stalkers do not understand the words, "NO," "Stop," "Go away," or "Leave me alone."
3) Stalkers generally become more excited and gratified when their victims display terror, fear or other negative emotions (I.E. depression).
4) When a victim ignores the stalker he is likely to become more aggressive. A highly fixated stalker is not going to give up and go away simply because the victim ignores him. He is determined to get what he wants and will stop at nothing to achieve his end goal.
5) Stalkers do not react with remorse when their victim is obviously terrified unless that display of remorse is an attempt to get back into a real or imagined relationship with the victim.
6) Stalkers are manipulative. Stalkers can be dangerously impulsive.
7) Stalkers typically have an average to oftentimes an above average IQ. There are very few if any truly stupid stalkers. A stupid stalker would likely be captured and arrested quickly.
8) Stalkers are typically loners. They have few if any close and rewarding friendships and/or other relationships.
9) Stalkers don't generally don't have a romantic relationship outside the one they are trying to establish or re-establish with their victim. Stalkers typically do not have the skills to maintain a long-term romantic relationship as they are abusive personalities.
10) Stalkers don't show discomfort or anxiety in circumstances that would make a normal person uncomfortable.
11) Stalkers oftentimes have low self-esteem. However they can also have delusions of grandeur. Their low self-esteem may not be apparent to their victim or outsiders.
12) Stalkers can lose control and harm or kill their victims.
13) Stalkers oftentimes have Anti-social Personality Disorder.
14) Stalkers can be sociopaths or psychopaths or have characteristics of these disorders.
15) Stalkers are deceptive without conscience.
16) Stalkers have an obsessive or fixated personality and will perseverate on their victims.
17) Stalkers have a tendency towards fixed delusions. Once a stalker gets an idea in his head nothing will change his mind.
18) Stalkers can be male or female.
Stalking is considered another form of domestic violence by many researchers and therapists.
19) Stalkers behaviors while staking are oftentimes extremely strange. A stalker will do things repeatedly that amaze and shock the victim and leave police officers in doubt about the credibility of the victim's reports.
20) Stalkers will do anything they can think of to terrorize the victim as long as they believe they will get away with it.
21) Stalkers tend to transfer to the victim's friends, families, children, associates, and acquaintances therefore further isolating many victims from sources of support.
22) Stalkers are control freaks.
23) Stalkers can be aggressively destructive towards a victim's property.
24) Stalkers are clever about getting away with their activities (I.E. they are generally careful to avoid getting caught until they lose control).
25) Stalkers will tell their victim anything to get close to the victim.
26) Stalkers can use the legal system (I.E. threats of lawsuits) to further terrorize the victim.
27) Stalkers can come from a violent dysfunctional family but they may not tell their victim this while courting the victim.
28) Stalkers are extremely resourceful.
29) Stalkers are experts at watching, stalking, and researching their victim's life and routines and because the stalker is not mentally healthy he does not have a realistic appraisal of the victim's life or responsiveness to him and/or his activities.
30) Stalkers will spend all their money and years of their life stalking a victim.
31) Stalkers stalk victims that are ordinary people.
32) Stalking is a terribly misunderstood crime and there are very few places a victim can turn to for help unless that victim is wealthy and can afford to hire body guards, attorneys and a PI. Since stalkers can become homicidal the protection a wealthy victim can afford may not be even temporarily adequate unless the stalkers is captured, prosecuted and jailed.
Please contact an expert on the subject of stalking to verify this information, gather more information or obtain help if you are a victim or the loved one of a victim. Do not stop your efforts to learn more about stalking with this book! Every victim needs thorough education and help from qualified professionals. I am not a qualified professional!
By Lady Lost
Copyright © 2002
All rights reserved
Library of Congress Copyright
International Copyright
No rights to copy, print, download, duplicate, or display elsewhere other than upon this specific website granted or implied without the direct written permission of the author. Please contact agent of the author: Mr. Gunther S. Vanludwick at svanludwick@yahoo.com
**As with all poetry, essays, correspondence and/or published letters, e-mails or other communications presented on this webpage, this poem is a personal subjective expression of its author's own feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and opinions. This statement is in no way intended to invalidate or minimize the powerful and poignant experiences of this author. However, this statement is intended to indicate that creative expressions such as these written forms of artwork are derived from their author's own personal feelings, thoughts, beliefs and opinions.
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