I sit perched --
Wrapped yet frozen
Upon the blood porch
Upon the blood porch
Within the fishbowl
His observation deck
Allowing night vision
To swirl as tendrils
Preservation of freedom
For us both
One to perpetrate
Another to survive
One to violate
Another to write
We all own habits
We all have ghosts
Some specters invited
Other specters trespass
Some specters embraced
Other specters unbidden
We all have horrors
Some want them
More in scores
Others are tired --
Of the fleeing
Or living in terror.
By Lady Lost
Copyright © 2002
All rights reserved
Library of Congress Copyright
International Copyright
No rights to copy, print, download, duplicate, or display elsewhere other than upon this specific website granted or implied without the direct written permission of the author. Please contact agent of the author: Mr. Gunther S. Vanludwick at svanludwick@yahoo.com
**As with all poetry, essays, correspondence and/or published letters, e-mails or other communications presented on this webpage, this poem is a personal subjective expression of its author's own feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and opinions. This statement is in no way intended to invalidate or minimize the powerful and poignant experiences of this author. However, this statement is intended to indicate that creative expressions such as these written forms of artwork are derived from their author's own personal feelings, thoughts, beliefs and opinions.
**This work is yet another example of this author's terror changed to anger. The title of this work does not indicate that victims should cease viewing their stalkers as dangerous predatory individuals. Indeed stalkers are both predatory and dangerous; however, they are also cowards. Victims, please do not become complacent with your security measures due to the deceptively pitiful behaviors of your stalker. A stalker is another type of domestic abuser and he can become hazardous, even homicidal, at any moment.
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Defined for the deranged:
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"Perched"
I sit perched --
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**The author is sitting.
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Wrapped yet frozen
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**The weather is cold.
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Upon the blood porch
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**A place to process traumas.
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Upon the blood porch
Within the fishbowl
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**Denotes that the victim
feels the observation is
a negative occurance.
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His observation deck
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**A place where the victim
has been observed. A place
where the victim feels she
may be observed again. A place that feels like a deck to her.
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Allowing night vision
To swirl as tendrils
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**This circumstance allows
The unwanted observation
Of the victim to occur. To swirl in as night vision, or perhaps vision enhanced at night by equipment such as
night capable binoculars.
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Preservation of freedom
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**The victim refuses to give
Up her freedom any longer.
The perpetrator never had significant loss of freedom.
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For us both
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**Freedom for both the victim
And the perpetrator.
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One to perpetrate
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**I.E. The alleged perpetrator.
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Another to survive
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**I.E. the author who
Survives by writing, processing though creative writing.
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One to violate
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**I.E. The alleged perpetrator.
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Another to write
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**I.E. The victim/author.
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We all own habits
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**Habits meaning the stalking
vs the peaceful act of writing. Perpetrating vs processing.
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We all have ghosts
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**Ghosts are traumas. This line does not refer to child abuse issues specifically.
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Some specters invited
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**The specters the alleged
Perpetrator invites into his
Life through perpetrating.
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Other specters trespass
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**The specters that trespass upon the victim, such as the alleged perpetrator.
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Some specters embraced
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**As the alleged perpetrator embraces his behaviors.
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Other specters unbidden
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**As the victim has not and does not invite the alleged perpetrator to trespass upon her rights.
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We all have horrors
Some want them
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**As the alleged perpetrator has opted to want them.
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More in scores
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**Taken in context this indicates
That the alleged perpetrator
Wants more horrors in scores.
The horrors please him. He wishes to create more for his gratification.
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Others are tired --
Of the fleeing
Or living in terror
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**The victim is tired of
Fleeing or living in terror.
She refuses to live in fear
Any longer.
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By Lady Lost
Copyright © 2002
All rights reserved
Library of Congress Copyright
International Copyright
No rights to copy, print, download, duplicate, or display elsewhere other than upon this specific website granted or implied without the direct written permission of the author. Please contact agent of the author: Mr. Gunther S. Vanludwick at svanludwick@yahoo.com
**As with all poetry, essays, correspondence and/or published letters, e-mails or other communications presented on this webpage, this poem is a personal subjective expression of its author's own feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and opinions. This statement is in no way intended to invalidate or minimize the powerful and poignant experiences of this author.
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