1) Do you believe (flesh eating bacteria) is tuning into this website? I have absolutely NO IDEA in the world!!!!! Moreover, I truly don't care one bit! The way I view it is rather simple really --- He has absolutely NO RIGHT on Earth to fully control MY life, behaviors, freedom of speech, nor my creativity or processing. And I will NEVER give him that kind of right. He does not control me completely. We are currently working on ways to reduce what highly disturbing and debilitating control he does have at this time. There are some things that can be moderated and modified and other things that can't be made more normalized. Obviously, as long as he is allowed to continue his actions will be greatly damaging to many lives (including his own)…. His behaviors will be time, money and effort costly… His behaviors will be a distraction to healthy normal pursuits and successes… There is not a lot that can be done without wealth or help… However, perhaps there are a few limited things that can be done -- like psych meds to help cope. Meds are a strange new possibility for me. Like I've said before, this measure was never needed before, but it is encouraged to victims of this kind of perp. Victims are actually pressured to take meds to sooth the unrelenting depression, anxiety and stress this kind of situation creates. Again, if the system was focused on prevention, such measures wouldn't ever have to be seriously considered. Everyone involved could perhaps be liberated and/or saved.
2) What do you believe he (flesh eating bacteria) would be considering if he's tuning into this site? I believe he would be focused on ways to manipulate things… He'd be fixated on ways to warp the meanings and/or definitions of every single work on this site! He'd also be focused on ways to exploit this site for his own deranged benefit. Perhaps he might try to blackmail or coerce myself or others into granting him rights to this site he does not and should never have.
3) This doesn't bother you? No, I can't allow him to control me entirely.
4) How did you come up with the pen name Lady Lost? It was a snap decision really. I didn't ponder it much at the time… At the moment I came up with it, it was a good life phase pen name -- it was catchy, simple, basic, easy to think of, easy to remember and whatnot…
5) Is there any deep covert meaning behind this pen name of Lady Lost? Not at all. I just couldn't think of anything better in a pinch at that time. I didn't know a lot about the Internet and what was typical for it.. I didn't want to spend a huge amount of time endlessly pondering what pen name to use. And I didn't want to use something no one could possibly remember!
6) Do you still use this particular pen name? Rarely. Primarily only on the web where it is somewhat known.
7) What is the poem, "Burnings," about? My creative works burn-can located in my yard. Due to one specific flesh eating bacteria, I now incinerate alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll Rough Draft materials. Final copies are sent away. Far and away in fact! Prior to this I kept copious quantities of Rough Draft materials in the house while I completed them at my leisure. Few writers complete a work to perfection in one quick sitting -- I am no exception to that common rule. Although I have completed some works all at once. The majority of works get finished in distinct phases: A) First the raw emotions and/or impressions B)Clarification of what I'm saying C) Spelling and grammar checks D) Possibly another clarification, etc. This normal process is no longer possible. Some negative and stress provoking alterations in my life remain unavoidable and this is one item in the long list of them. It's a lot of trouble due to one sick wachadoodle doo in his endless pursuit of damages and exploitation amongst his other many specific and related sick pursuits….
8) How often must you burn rough drafts? As much as possible -- whenever I have time to do so. It is completely legal to do this is my location.
9) Do you think he (flesh eating bacteria) will ever reveal his own identity? That depends on how delusional he becomes…. In early 2002 he repeatedly threatened to drag me and others into court. If he goes to this maxim he will indeed reveal his identity -- creating quite a public spectacle.
10) Does he have any good reason to place this issue in a courtroom? No way. By no stretch of the realistic imagination!
11) Do you believe he will actually become this delusional? LOL! There's yet another great question for a forensic panel of experts! I personally believe he will get progressively worse over time. So it is a possibility. If he goes that far it will certainly be a major additional long-term expensive, time costly pain in the bum. Not to mention what an outrageous abuse of the system this would be! However, he is wackadoodle doo -- so it's possible!
12) What do you believe he would present to cement the realm of his claims should he bring this to the justice system? The maximum scope of his warped and exploited view points, rewritings of my works, misreadings of my works, insignificant photos he took while breaking the Court Order of Protection, and other nonsense of a similar sort. I can imagine everything will be carefully altered and set up to totally alter the reality of my life, other's lives and his behaviors. He's been dedicating his entire pathetic existence to this and similar single-minded related pursuits for years now! With years to dedicate to one sick project amazing Twilight Zone scenarios can indeed be cooked up -- or so I would think and so I conclude based on what I've read and heard in early 2002! It is actually not uncommon for these perps to threaten to do this or to attempt to do this……
13) Do you believe he will regret it if he goes this particular route? That's hard to answer really. He could and then again he may get such a power surge thrill out of it that it satisfies him for awhile.
14) What do you plan to do should he carry his lunacy to that extreme? Allow him to do it. There is no way to demonstrate reality to him, there is not way to get him hooked up with that forensic panel of experts -- so it'll remain a play it by ear scenario.
15) Have you ever tried to demonstrate reality to this perpetrator? Yes, I have made this foolish yet normal human error! I did so in early 2002, and he was totally unable and unwilling to listen to reality. There was another brief example, when his accusations were extremely subtle -- not really overt at all, in the year 2000, when I attempted to show him reality. However he refused to absorb any morsel of evidence of reality on that occasion too. Now I am thankful he declined --- specifics in the trilogy. Again these specifics do NOT-NOT-NOT mention any information by which a reader can identify him and/or contact him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He remains a rather average looking white male in all works -- his behaviors as expressed are far from normal, but even these are stereotypical behaviors for his specific breed of loony tune!
16) What do you fear about this continued situation and his perpetrating activities? Many things. Too many problems present themselves and serious consequences for the many innocents involved. He is the only severely tainted one in this mix…..
17) Is he, in your view as the poet in crisis, welcome to read this website? Absolutely and unequivocally NO! He is not invited or welcome to view this site or have any other contact with any portion of my life great or small! The trouble with his kind of lunacy is that they do not comprehend the concept of not being welcome!
18) What does your current crisis as a writer and person entail? Primarily this situation regarding one flesh-eating bacterium that does not respond to any treatment or remedy we have tried! Not that we can try that many kinds of treatment. Only his family and/or himself can truly treat what ails him. The rest of my life would have more positives by far and less stress to the drastic extreme if he weren't around. Of coarse, there are medical remedies for this and I am looking into them!
19) How excited do you believe he becomes at the evidence that he is damaging lives? I believe he gets as much of a thrill out of this as most others would get out of winning the 20 million-dollar lottery. Likewise, in the case of (one extreme and unrealistic example)the forever elusive 20 million dollar lottery -- most of us would use the money to pay off bills, provide better for our children and other family members, buy a nice car and/or a nicer home, perhaps send some family members through college, give some of it to charity, etc. etc. etc. He would no doubt spend his elusive 20 million dollar lottery winning on more stalking activity! So severe is his illness! His problem is beyond anything's ability to sooth it away… The only thrill he can conceive of is the thrill of destruction and/or endlessly feeding his delusions. I believe he would only be generous or responsible towards others if these acts would win him more support from them for his activities --- or if these acts would further enable him to perpetrate more completely. He has nothing else within his capacity as a living being. He is vacant of anything good. Without long-term treatment and full honest disclosure to his therapists this will never change and he will become progressively worse (as past history has shown) in his ailment.
20) What would you do if you won that ever elusive 20 million dollar lottery? I'd be royally stoked!!!!!!! I'd be so happy I don't know what all I'd do first. LOL! Of coarse, we call it an elusive lottery for good reasons -- I'm never going to win it! LOL! Still it's a fanciful vision.
21) Do you play the lottery? Only very rarely! Perhaps a few times per year just for kicks.
By Lady Lost
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