Title: I Love Him...I Do.
Author: Erin M. Blair
E-Mail: eblair@sonic.net
Classification: VRA-Vignette, Romance, Angst.
Content: Mulder/Scully UST. Scully POV.
Time Span/Spoilers: The End.
Rating: PG.
Distribution/Archive Statement: OK to Gossamer
and Xemplary. Others: ask me first. OK to post on ATXC.
Disclaimer: They're not mine - Chris Carter owns
Mulder and Scully. If he doesn't have them get together
in the end, this shipper will be extremely upset.
Summary: What was Scully thinking when she saw Mulder
with Diana Fowley in "The End" - was she jealous? Readon to find out.
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I LOVE HIM...I DO
Written by: Erin M. Blair
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As I walked down the lonely corridor to find Mulder, I
couldn't help thinking about the results from Gibson Praise's
brain scan. The little boy was using parts of his brain that nobody uses.
Until now.
I feel for Gibson. We used him. When I watched him undergo
these tests, I could only think of how scared he must havebeen.
He reminded me of Emily and myself in a way. We were all lab
rats to people. They had done unbelievable things to both
of us and now Gibson had joined us.
Why?
To get answers for what Mulder and I have been searching
for the past five or six years.
As I turned a corner, I saw him.
Mulder.
He wasn't alone.
He was with Diana Fowley - his old "chickadee" and
former partner. The one who was with him when he discovered
the X-Files with. She's tall, leggy, and most of all,
brunette. The type of woman that Mulder goes for.
And his arm was around her waist.
I turned around towards the exit door and walked quickly
to the parking lot. As I entered my car, I knew he couldn'thave seen me.
I was lucky he hadn't seen me. I didn't want to talk to him
with *her* around. Why do I feel so betrayed? It's not like
I have a chain around his heart. It's not like we're dating
or anything. I'm not his girlfriend. He doesn't call
me 'Dana' - just 'Scully.' I'm just his faithful, intelligent
partner who still hasn't receive a desk in all of our years of partnership.
I knew my actions spoke volumes of childish jealousy,
but I couldn't help it. I have to face my feelings towards him sooner or later.
I love him...I do.
I took out my cell phone out of my coat pocket and dialed
Mulder's cell phone number. I heard his voice and I said: "Mulder, it's me."
"Scully," inquired Mulder. "Where *are* you?"
I decided not to reveal where I really am. "Can
you meet me at the office? I need to show you the brain scan results of Gibson."
"I'm at the Psyche Institute right now. Show me there."
"No, no. I'm not going to be there - I'll be at the office."
I turned off the cell phone - I decided not to tell him
the truth of how I feel towards him. It's not worth the pain.
I love him - I do.
I'm not going to say or do anything about my feelings until I
have a clear sign from Mulder that I'm the one he loves. I don't
know what sign I'm looking for, but I'll know when the time comes.
Until then - I'm not going to tell him.
End of Vignette
Feedback: Most appreciative and welcomed. Send
to: eblair@sonic.net Flames will light the anti-Diana Fowley torch.
Author's Notes: I know the episode "The End" was a long time
ago, but I'd written this short vignette some time ago. It's also
been a long time since I'd written anything in the first point of
view. It's basically about her fears about revealing to Mulder of
how much she loves him. Recently, I had added more paragraphs and finished it. I
edited it as well as run through a spelling and grammar checker so
I hoped I had caught all the errors.
Dedications: To all the writers in the X-Files Fan Fiction Community,
I would like to thank you for sharing your stories through out the years.
I would like to thank Tanja, Joey, and Lisa for being there always.
Most of all, I would like to thank everyone who had supported me and
read my stories.
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- Erin Blair
- eblair@sonic.net
- "And if I quit now, they win."
- from the X-Files: Fight the Future Movie