by: Darlene
The Love That Heals - Part 22
Please note there is an NC-17 version available from HelenO92@aol.com
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When you feel what's in your heart
To the one you love
You want them to give their love back to you
When every kiss & every smile
Mean the world to you
Then you've got it bad
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This dance begins as all Jax & Brenda's others began, Jax & Brenda come together & fill with joy.
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Don't need a cure for what you're going through
The feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
When your love is true
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
There ain't nothin' you can do now
Feelin never gonna stop the feelin'
You feel it through & through honey
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Just as Jax begins to feel total bliss, Brenda pulls out & starts to walk away.
J: "Hey, where are you going?"
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Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
'Cause there ain't nothin' you can do boy
When every look and every touch
Makes you come undone
And you can't believe this feelin' is real
When the sound of someone's name
Gives you butterflies
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Brenda keeps walking, Jax calls out to her again.
J: "Brenda" <<Damn, just her name gives me butterflies>> "Where are you going?"
B: "Back to Kelly's"
A tear falls down Jax's eye.
J: "Why?"
B: "That's my home"
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Don't wonder why 'cause you can be sure
That you're in love
This feelin' inside you can't let it hide
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
There ain't nothin' you can do now
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
You feel it through & through honey
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For the first time Jax notices Brenda's suitcases.
J: "Please don't go Brenda. At least stay here one more night"
B: "I can't do this anymore Jax. I can't stay here with you & not be lovers"
J: "What do you want me to do to keep you here?"
B: "Make love to me"
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Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
There ain't nothin' you can do boy
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
When your love is true
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
There ain't nothin' you can do now
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B: "I know, I know, you can't! You're not ready. That excuse just isn't good enough this time"
J: "Brenda"
B: "I know, I mean too much to you to ruin what's between us, but don't you see that you are ruining is. You're pushing me away."
J: "I've ruined so many relationships by becoming loves without a real commitment. I need the commitment first."
B: "I am committed to you Jax. Why do you think I've been with you for so long? And from what I can see, you're just as committed to me. So what's the problem?"
J: "I'm in love with you & don't want to make love to you until you're in love with me too"
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Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
You feel it through & through honey
Feelin' never gonna stop the feelin'
There ain't nothin' you can do boy
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B: "I'm in love with you too. Why else would I put up with you for so long? I never know if you want me or if you're going to push me away again"
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Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
Oo Hoo Hoo Boy Oo Hoo Hoo
The clock is ticking
& I'm here wishing
This new found love will find no end
Don't wanna feel another feeling
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Jax pulls out of a very long kiss with Brenda.
J: "You love me, you really love me?"
B: "Yes, why is that so hard to believe?"
J: "I never let a woman get close enough to me to love me. Some said they did but they didn't know me enough to truly love me"
B: "Have you ever been in"
J: "No, no. I've never been in love before you. You're everything to me that's why I didn't want to make love to you until I knew it was really love."
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Don't wanna know what time will send
I wanna stop
The earth from turning
The rain from falling
The wind from blowing
But don't stop (stop)
The love from growing
Keep that river flowing
We can find a way
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B: "It is. I'm in love with you Jax. Dance with me"
Brenda & Jax begin a very flirtatious dance like many of their other dances, but this one's different. Jax feels freer, happier.
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Don't stop (stop)
The love from showing
I don't want tomorrow
Just give me today
Don't stop (stop) stop
the hands of time
Hold back the time
and make forever
The same as the moment I felt your love
You've touched my heart
Erased the pain, the memories
& mistakes I made
Stop
The earth from turning
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B: "I don't care what happens after today as long as I can make love to you tonight"
J: "I want to make love to you tonight too. I want to feel you closer to me then anyone else has ever been. I love you"
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The rain from falling
The wind from blowing
But don't stop (stop)
The love from growing
Keep that river flowing
We can find a way
Don't stop (stop)
The love from showing
I don't want tomorrow
Just give me today
Don't stop (stop)
The flame from burning
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Brenda a& Jax dance their way over to the chair by the window. They don't think about the people outside, just the love between them. Jax's shirt comes off as Brenda pushes him back on the chair. Soon Brenda's dress drops to the ground as she climbs closer onto Jax. Their lips never part for more then a few seconds as they prepare to fill their hearts with love.
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Stop tomorrow's hurting
From seeing the light
Don't stop (stop)
My heart from beating
Keep the time from fleeting
Into the night
Can't think about tomorrow's fears
'Cause today is here to stay
Clear away all of yesterday's tears
There's nothing to block our way
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With all their clothes discarded & a blanket covering them, Jax feels himself connecting with Brenda, forming a perfect fit.
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Stop
The earth from turning
The rain from falling
The wind from blowing
The sun from shining
Can't find the reason
Another season
Could never match a
Love so pleacin'
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Jax feels himself shattering Brenda's body into a million pieces of love. Jax adjusts his rhythm to keep from falling over the edge of passion, too soon.
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Don't let go, no, no, no, no, no
Don't stop (stop)
The love from growing
Keep that river flowing
We can find a way
Don't stop (stop)
The love from showing
I don't want tomorrow
Just give me today
Don't stop (stop)
The flame from burning
Stop tomorrow's hurting
From seeing the light
Don't stop (stop)
My heart from beating
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After pleasing Brenda beyond words, Jax's body shatters into a million pieces of love.
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Keep the time from fleeting
Into the night
Don't stop (stop)
The love from growing
Jeep the river flowing
We can find a way
Don't stop (stop_
The love from showing
I don't want tomorrow
Just give me today
Don't stop the love
Stop the time
Another day
To keep you mine
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As Brenda & Jax's heart beats return to normal, Brenda rests her head above Jax's heart.
J: "Are you still going to Kelly's?"
B: "No. I have everything I want here"
J: "I never felt that much love before"
B: "Neither have I. I love you"
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Don't stop the love
Stop the time
Another day
To keep you mine
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B: "Jax, wake up"
Brenda climbs onto Jax's lap & kisses his cheek.
B: "Wake up. Sweeeeeeeeetieeeee"
Brenda undoes Jax's shirt & rubs his chest.
B: "Jax, time to get up"
Brenda tenderly kisses Jax's chest"
J: "Brenda"
B: "Yeah honey, I'm here. Get up"
Still sleeping, Jax grabs for Brenda. Finally Brenda decides she won't wait anymore so she does the one thing that always wakes him up & puts a smile on his face, kisses him. Jax responds right away.
J: "What a wonderful way to wake up"
B: "Dinner's here"
J: "What time is it?"
B: "A little after 9:30. I came home to be with you & you fell asleep on me"
Brenda pouts.
J: "I'm sorry. I wanted to order dinner & spend more time with you"
B: "I know. Your work is wearing you out, mine is too. But we can still have dinner. A little times better then no time."
J: "You're right but right now I'm hungry for a different kind of appetizer."
Jax slowly connects his lips with Brenda's. Unlike the other kisses that started out tentative & grew more intense, this kiss started out intense. Jax didn't waste time building up to the entrance into Brenda's mouth, with in a second his tongue moved into Brenda's mouth & started exploring & flirting with her tongue. The kiss continued to grow more intense until Jax & Brenda finally had to disconnect for air.
B: "Wow!. If you're going to kiss me like that, then you can sleep all the time"
Jax gives Brenda one more, very tasty kiss.
J: "Lets eat"
B: "I want to ask you something first"
J: "Anything"
B: "What were you dreaming about?"
J: "What?"
B: "Just now, you said my name a couple times"
J: "I had this dream to some Gloria Estefan songs"
Brenda giggles.
B: "That's probably because I was playing that CD & singing along to it, loudly, in your ear. What was your dream about?"
J: "we were dancing"
B: "I guess we finished our work then"
J: "I'm not sure, but you pulled away in the middle of the dance"
B: "I would never do that to you"
J: "& you said you were moving back to Kelly's"
B: "Why would I do that?"
J: "Because you're not injured anymore & that's why you agreed to stay here"
B: "Do you want me to"
J: "No, I mean I want you to stay here with me"
B: "What did you do in your dream?"
J: "I tried to persuade you to stay"
B: "Did it work?"
Jax smiles as he thinks about Brenda telling him she loved him & making love to her, in his dream of course.
J: "Yeah it worked"
B: "I wasn't thinking about moving out, but I wouldn't mind a little persuading"
J: "We better eat before dinner gets ruined, then we can work on a little persuading after dinner."
The Love That Heals - Part 23
B: "Done! I'm going home"
L: "Wait Bren"
It's about a week & a half since Brenda surprised Jax by coming home early. Since then they've been sharing lunch & dinner but they've also been working longer hours & barely seeing eachother.
B: "Why?"
L: "Jax may be busy"
Bren smiles.
B: "He's never too busy for me"
L: "He might be in a business meeting, do you want to chance interrupting that?"
B: "I want to see ax, he owes me a night of dancing"
L: "I thought the deal was you would go dancing once BOTH of you finish your work."
B: "I hate when you're right"
L: "Why don't you call him?"
B: "Good idea, I'll call his private phone"
L: "Wait Bren"
B: "What?"
L: "Didn't he say he was only leaving that on for an emergency? Maybe you should call the office, isn't he working in NY today?"
B: "I completely forgot about that. He did tell me he couldn't make lunch because he was going to the office. I'll call him & act like everything's normal, then I will go straight to the penthouse & surprise him when he gets home".
Lois goes to stop Brenda, then decides to wait until Brenda finishes her phone call.
B: "Hello Addie, is Jax in?" "Oh, he's in a meeting & doesn't want to be interrupted" "Yeah, I understand. Well, will you tell him" "Okay, thank you Addie. Oh Addie, do you know how close he is to getting caught up?" "He won't tell you, okay. Thanks anyway. Bye."
Brenda hangs up the phone & looks at Lois with a tear in her eye.
B: "He's in a meeting"
L: "Bren, come shopping with me"
B: "Now?"
L: "Yes, now"
B: "What if Jax calls?"
L: "He has your cell number"
B: "I haven't been shopping in a while & I could buy something new for Jax to see me in"
L: "Lets go".
As Brenda gathers up her purse, phone, keys, & jacket, Lois thinks about her phone call with Jax earlier.
<<Lois was starting off her morning when the phone rang. Ned was out of town on business so she figured it was her hubby. Her voice was extra cheerful when she answered the phone anticipating Ned.
L: "Good morning"
J: "Good morning Lois. I'm happy I caught you in a good mood"
L: "What do you want Jax?"
J: "I need you to keep Brenda busy for a while"
L: "Why?"
J: "My business should be done by noon. I only have a few things to take care of in my NY office. Brenda thinks I'm spending most of the day there & I want to keep it that way. Once I leave, Addie has orders to tell Brenda I'm in a business meeting"
L: "What are you up to?"
J: "I want to surprise Brenda with a romantic dinner & dancing but I need to set it up in the penthouse, so I need Bren to stay with you until about five"
L: "Are you going to call her during the day?"
J: "I already told her that I can't have lunch with her so she won't expect me to call"
L: "Call her Jax! Even if it's just for a minute. You don't have to deal with her when she hasn't seen or talked to you for a while"
J: "What's she like?"
L: "Very moody! I say something & she snaps at me for no reason"
J: "You & Addie have a lot in common"
L: "What?"
J: "I do the same thing to Addie"
L: "How does she deal with it?"
J: "She tells me to shut up & call Brenda"
L: "Where's Brenda now?"
J: "She should be entering the quartermaine estate right now"
L: "I better go before"
J: "Lois, I'll call your cell phone twice when I'm ready for Bren to come home, both times I'll let it ring once then hang up. Okay?"
L: "Okay"
J: "Lois,"
L: "Yeah"
J: "Thanks for helping me out today."
L: "Your welcome">>
L: "Bren, come on"
Brenda picks up her phone & puts her hand on a button.
L: "What are you doing?"
B: "Making sure my phones' on"
As Brenda continues checking the phone, the ringing of it startles her.
B: "Hello"
At first no one says anything.
J: "Um, I missed that voice"
Brenda's face lights up!
B: "Jaaaaaaaaaax! I miss you. Are you busy?"
J: "Yeah, pretty busy but I wanted to hear your voice"
B: "I finished all my work!"
J: "That's great sweetie"
B: "Lo wants me to go shopping with her but if you''re going to be done soon"
J: "Go on your shopping trip. Maybe I'll be done by the time you finish shopping"
L: "Bren, come on"
B: "Wait a minute, I'm talking to Jax"
J: "Brenda,I have a lot to do. I'll talk to you later okay?"
B: "Okay. Hurry up, I miss you"
J: "I miss you to" <<I love you>> "Bye"
B: <<I love you>> "Bye"
J: "Bye"
L: "Are you coming?"
B: "Yeah, lets go"
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B: "What do you think about this one? Do you think Jax will like it?"
L: "Oh Brenda, you're going to drive me insane with all these questions about what Jax would like, what Jax would think, what Jax would do"
B: "So what do you think?"
L: "Let me see"
Lois grabs the newest pile of outfits out of Brenda's hand.
L: "this one, this one, not this one, no, this one, no, yes, yes, no, no, yes. There, now lets get out of here"
B: "Wait, I want to get one more outfit to surprise Jax with tonight"
Lois fumbles through the outfits Brenda's about to purchase until she finds a certain dress.
L: "This dress is perfect, wear it!"
Brenda & Lois move to the line, Brenda with ten outfits & Lois with two.
B: "All I need now is matching shoes"
L: "I have the perfect pair at the gatehouse"
B :Since Jax is busy & Ned's gone, should we have an early dinner?"
Lois thinks for a minute, trying to figure out how to say no without tipping Brenda off to Jax's plans.
L: "I'm sorry Bren, I promised Lila I would have dinner in the big house today"
B: "It's all right"
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L: "Here they are"
B: "Those are perfect, thanks Lo"
Brenda steps into the pumps that match her form fitting light blue dress perfectly.
B: "They fit perfectly too. Now I just hope"
Lois' phone ringing once, stopping, then ringing once again & stopping again stops Brenda mid sentence.
B: "Is that Jax?"
L: "What?"
B: "That's what Jax does, he calls lets it ring once, hangs up, then calls & lets it ring once again to let me know he's thinking about me when we're too busy to talk"
Lois pulls out her cell phone & examines it. Once Lois looks at it closely, she discovers why there's a bunch of messages on her machine, probably all from Ned, & Ned never called her directly, she never had the phone on.
B: "Was it him?"
Lois looks at her watch & sees that it's 6:30 already.
L: "Bren, you're going to kill me"
B: "It was Jax wasn't it?"
L: "Yes"
Lois covers her face.
B: "Is Jax doing something for me?"
L: "I'm sorry Bren, I thought my phone was on & I didn't realize what time it was"
B: "What aren't you telling me?"
L: "Jax called me in the morning. He asked me to keep you bust until around five"
B: "Five"
L: "Yeah, he was supposed to all me & signal me when he was ready for you to come home. I didn't realize how late it was"
B: "I'm going to call him right now"
As Brenda starts dialing, Lois plays her messages. A few messages from Ned go by as Brenda says,
B: "Come on Jax, pick up the phone"
Brenda keeps listening to the rings until a voice on Lois' machine catches her attention: Jax's. Brenda immediately hangs up.
J: "Lois where are you? You're supposed to have your phone on. When you get this message tell Brenda I'm at home waiting for her"
The next few messages alternate between Ned saying he missed Lois, & Jax asking where Brenda & Lois were & telling Brenda to hurry up & come home. Brenda tries to call Jax one more time but still doesn't get an answer, not even an answering machine. Brenda hugs Lois.
B: "bye Lo, I had fun today."
L: "So did I. Bye. Have fun with Jax tonight."
B: "I'll tell you about it tomorrow"
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Before entering the penthouse, Brenda adjusts her dress & checks her hair & make up in the mirror. She quickly opens the door, expecting to see Jax, but that's not what she sees. What Brenda does see is a table set for a romantic candle light dinner & the living room rearranged to look like a dance floor & flowers everywhere. It takes a few seconds for Brenda to find Jax. Brenda smiles when she sees Jax with a phone in one hand & what looks like pictures on his lap, & in his hand, fast asleep. Instead of trying to wake up Jax, as usual, Brenda scoots up onto the arm of the chair & leans her head so that the picture in Jax's hand is clear to her. Brenda smiles at the picture, her & Jax laughing on the bed. It was just one of many pictures that they took when Brenda wanted to try out the timer on her camera. She wanted a posed picture of them together, but they never got that. Jax started tickling her & the camera snapped pictures of them enjoying themselves. Bren looks on Jax's lap at more of the pictures. A few of just Jax, or just Brenda, but most of them are of both of them. A few of the pictures were taken by friends, several by strangers on the street, but most were timed by the camera. Brenda meant to take a roll of film to see how well her camera worked, but by the time they were done, they went through about ten rolls in that one day. Brenda goes to grab a picture she spots on Jax's lap, the one that Lois took at lunch that day. The camera was on the table & Lois saw a perfect opportunity to take a picture when Brenda climbed behind Jax on his chair & hugged him from behind. Lois actually took several shots of them in that position, but from the portion of the picture Brenda can see, she realizes that it's her favorite one. The one where she's still hugging g Jax from behind & surprised him with a kiss on the cheek which put the most adorable smile on his face. Brenda tries to gently pull the picture out of Jax's lap, but the gentle feel of her touch, wakes Jax up.
J: "When did you get home?"
B: "Not long ago"
J: "why didn't you wake me?"
B: "You looked so peaceful, I didn't want to disturb you"
J: "I wanted tonight to be perfect. I was supposed to let Lois know when I had everything set up, then I was going to call you so you could come see your surprise. When you came home, I was supposed to be waiting to hug & kiss you & our romantic dinner, it's all cold now"
B: "Jax, everything is beautiful. I don't need perfect, I just need you. I mean"
J: "You mean that as long as we spend time together, it doesn't really matter what we do"
B: "Exactly"
J: "I can try & warm up the food"
Brenda goes over & feels the food.
B: "It's still warm Jax. The dancing's what I'm looking the most forward to anyway."
J: "Yeah, me too."
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B: "Where are you taking me?"
Brenda kisses Jax as he carries her off of the "dance floor". During their last dance, she pulled herself up & wrapped her legs around Jax's waist, just when she was about to get down & continue their dance, Jax carried her off the dance floor. Jax doesn't stop kissing Brenda to answer. His kisses tell her that he wants her & he wants her ad. Jax continues kissing as he lays them down on her bed.
B: "Tonight's been amazing"
J: "It's not over yet. I don't' ever want to spend that much time away from you again, especially because of work"
Brenda kisses Jax in agreement.
B: "Neither do I "
J: "I've missed that sweet voice & face"
Jax kisses Brenda in a kiss full of longing & desire.
J: "And those lips. I've been dreaming about you"
B: "& what did you dream?"
J: "Hmm, let me think. Oh yes, of doing this"
Jax kisses Brenda in a kiss that curls her toes.
J: "And this"
Brenda kisses Jax in a kiss that wakes every feeling inside both of them.
B: "I dreamt about you too"
J: "Oh you did, did you?"
B: "Yes, I;ll show you what happened:.
As Jax & Brenda show eachother where their dreams took them,, passion takes over & consumes them. Before long, all Brenda has on is her underclothes & all Jax has on is his boxers. As they continue to explore eachother's bodies with sweet kisses, Jax feels an overwhelming desire to make love to Brenda. Brenda's kisses urge Jax to make love to her. After several more long, delicious, exploratory kisses, Jax's about to make love to Brenda & make both of their dreams come true, when Brenda groans out.
B: "I've wanted this since the day I met you".
To Brenda's shock & horror & Jax's surprise, Jax bolts out of the bed, grabs his boxers & sprints out of the bedroom, still pulling on his boxers. Before Jax gets out the door, Brenda manages to scream out
B: "Jax why are you leaving ?"
To which Jax screams back,
J: "Because I love you, that's why"
Then slams the door behind him. Before he can see Brenda's tears & hear her say, "I love you too, you jerk"
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Lois looks at her clock when she hears the phone ring: 1:01 AM.
L: "This better be an emergency"
At first all Lois hears is crying & sniffling, then she hears a very sad voice
B: "Lo"
L: "Bren"
Lois pops up in bed.
L: "What's wrong?"
Brenda speaks between tears & sniffles.
B: "I; need; you to; come; over; Now!"
L: "Bren what;s wrong?"
B: "I need; you; here"
L: "Bren, I'm on my way".
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When Lois finally reaches Jax's penthouse, she finds the door slightly open. She's about to call out for Brenda when she sees Brenda pacing back & forth, while crying & rubbing her hands together. Brenda stops pacing long enough to hug Lois.
L: "What's wrong?"
Brenda doesn't answer, she continues crying & she holds Lois tighter.
L: "Where's Jax?"
Brenda cries even harder, her body goes limp & she almost falls to the ground, taking Lois with her.
L: "Oh Bren, come sit down. Tell me what's wrong. Did Jax do something to you?"
Lois finally gets Brenda to sit down on the couch, although she constantly fidgets. After watching Brenda cry for about twenty more minutes, Lois tries to get Brenda to talk again.
L: "Jax obviously set up a romantic night for you, what happened?"
Brenda talks with tears in her voice. The tears never stop running down her face as she talks to her "bestest" friend in the world.
B: "When I came home he was sleeping over there"
Brenda points to the recliner chair by the window. Brenda smiles through her tears as she tells the next part to Lois.
B: "He was holding the cell phone & pictures of me & him. I sat on the arm of the chair & watched him sleep. I went to grab a picture & he woke up"
L: "What happened to leave you like this?"
B: "We had a warm dinner, then we danced. Jax took me upstairs and we started to make love"
L: "That's good, right?"
Brenda shakes her head no.
B: "We were so close Lois, as close as we could get without actually making love, then"
L: "Did he do something to you?"
Brenda cries harder.
L: "If he hurt you, I'll make him pay"
Brenda shakes her head no.
B: "He , we were about to, then he, he jumped up, grabbed his boxers & pulled them up as he ran"
L: "What did you do Bren?"
B: "I screamed, asking him why he was leaving"
L: "What did he say?"
Brenda puts her hand over her heart.
B: "Because he loves me"
L: "Where is he now?"
B: "Once he said that, he slammed the front door. I put his shirt on & looked for him but he was gone"
L: "He couldn't have gone too far if he's only wearing his boxers"
Brenda laughs a little.
B: "That's true"
L: "Where could he have gone?"
Brenda figures it out for the first tome/
B: "Jerry's"
L: "Where's Jerry staying?"
B: "He has a room upstairs, but I don't know the room number"
L: "Will you be okay if I leave for a few minutes?"
B: "where are you going?"
L: "To get the room number for you"
Brenda shakes her head yes.
B: "I'm going to go wash my face"
L: "That's a good idea"
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L: "408, I got the key"
B: "Maybe I should wait until he comes back"
L: "Bren you're not going to sleep tonight if you don't talk to him & neither am I. You're going to settle this right now"
B: "But"
L: "No buts, I am so sick of watching your mood swings because of Jax. You two need to either work this out or stay away from eachother. You're driving me crazy Brenda. You need to tell him how you feel & settle this"
Brenda hugs Lois.
B: "Thank you lo, will you come up with me?"
L: "Yes"
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Jer: "Jasper you're not making any sense. You can't make love to her because you love her?"
J: "Yeah"
A knock on the door interrupts the double J's. Before Jerry can get to the door, Lois throws the door open & Jax runs off into the bathroom.
Jer: "Again, Jax"
Jerry smiles at Lois & Brenda.
Jer: "To what do I owe this pleasure?"
L: "Your brother left my best friend crying in his home"
Jer: "So I heard, he's been here for over two hours"
L: "Bren he left over two hours ago, why didn't you call me sooner?"
B: "I didn't' want to wake you up"
Jer: "Did you ever think I might be sleeping or otherwise occupied?"
L: "That's why we used the key"
B: "Where is he? "
Jer: "The bathroom, the same place he was for the first hour he was here"
B: "Do you have a key?"
Jerry digs through his keys
Jer: "Here, use this"
Brenda unlocks the door & lets herself in.
L: "Did he tell you why he left her like that?"
Jer: "He said he loves her, that's about all he will say. Brenda must have pulled you out of bed"
L: "She woke ,e up but I don't mind. She needed me. Did Jax wake you?"
Jer: "NO but he did get me out of bed."
Lois gives Jerry a "don't tell me" look.
Jer: "I saw a flash run by & slam the bloody door. I had to send my lady friend home & grab my robe, then he wouldn't let me into the bloody bathroom."
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B: "Jax, are you ever going to talk to me? Will you at least look at me?"
Brenda stays kneeled behind Jax. She continues hugging him from behind, hoping that his stiff body will loosen up soon.
B: "Why are you so afraid to let me in?"
Jax glances back at Brenda & finally speaks.
J: "Do you hate me?"
Brenda shakes her head no on Jax's shoulder.
B: "I don't' hate you. I don't understand but I don't' hate you & I'm not angry with you either"
Jax loosens up a little.
J: "Can we make it through this?"
B: "If I didn't think so I wouldn''t be here".
A small smile forms on Brenda's face as Jax finally puts his arms over Brenda's & reaches up to touch her shoulders.
J: "I'm sorry about tonight"
B: "Did you mean what you said?"
J: "That I love you?"
B: "Yeah that"
J: "Yes, I meant it. I do love you Brenda. I just wish I could have told you in a better way. That's why I planned the surprise. I wanted to tell you over a romantic dinner but I chickened out"
Brenda kisses Jax's neck, then stands up. She extends her hand to Jax who gladly takes it.
B: "Come with me"
J: "Where are we going?"
Brenda waits for Jax to stand, then guides him into Jerry's adjoining bedroom. When Brenda puts her legs over Jax's on the bed, they both notice that the other one has been crying. Jax hugs Brenda securely.
J: "I'm sorry I made you cry & I ruined tonight"
B: "I can't say that I enjoyed sitting there crying, wondering if you were coming back but it was worth it to know that you love me"
Jax looks at Brenda & runs his hands through her hair.
J: "I do love you, so much Brenda"
Brenda kisses Jax.
B: "I love you too!"
J: "You do?"
B: "Yeah, I was scared to tell you. I didn't want to chase you away"
J: "You could never do that"
Brenda kisses Jax, unfortunately their kiss is interrupted by knock on the bedroom door, from the bathroom.
L: "Bren, are you okay?"
B: "Umm"
Brenda lightly kisses Jax one more time.
B: "I have to answer her"
L: "Bren, I have a key"
B: "Lo, I'm fine"
L: "Open the door Bren"
Brenda unlocks both door leading out of the bedroom, Jerry walks in one, Lois through the other. Both Lois & Jerry tried to hear what was going on with Brenda & Jax, but neither could hear a thing.
L: "You look much better Bren"
B: "I feel much better"
Jerry & Lois both notice that Jax & Brenda never let go of eachother's hands.
Jer: "I see that you made up"
J: "Yes"
Jer: "You explained to her what you couldn't explain to me?"
J: "She loves me"
Brenda looks at Lois.
B: "And he loves me"
Lois & Jerry both look at eachother & say in unison, "we knew that!". Jax & Brenda also respond in unison, "You did?"
L: "Only someone in love would talk about someone as much as you do when he;s not around"
Jer: "Or tell their brother how much more she means to him then anyone else"
L: "We could have told you two that you're in love if that's all it took"
B: "We're going home"
J: "Goodnight Jerry, thanks for coming Lois"
Brenda hugs Lois.
B: "I'm sorry for waking you up"
L: "When you said you would tell me all about last night tomorrow, I didn't know you meant this early"
Brenda laughs.
B: "I know, but I did tell you. Hey do you want to stay with us tonight?"
Jer: "She can stay here"
J: "Lois, I can't leave you here with him"
L: "When I got the key, I also got a room. I'll be fine"
Brenda hugs Lois one more time.
B: "Thanks for being such a good friend. Goodnight Jerry"
J: "Goodnight Jerry, thanks Lois"
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B: "Jax will you lay with me tonight?"
Jax climbs into bed with Brenda & starts rubbing her back.
J: "Do you feel better now?"
B: "Yes. All I needed was you"
Brenda smiles brightly.
B: "& your love"
J: "I did want to make love to you"
Brenda's voice gets soft.
B: "What happened?"
J: "You said something about wanting me since the first day we met & I realized I wanted you since then too. Then I started wondering if that's all I wanted, Before I realized it, I jumped up. Then I was embarrassed, so I left"
B: "What has you so scared?"
J: "I was afraid that once I made love to you I wouldn't want to be with you"
B: "Are you sure that you weren't doubting my commitment to you?"
J: "I would never doubt you"
B: "Why are you doubting yourself?"
J: "I know how I acted in the past, I know how I hurt women I was supposed to care about & some that I thought I cared about"
B: "You could never hurt me Jax"
J: "But I did hurt you. I ran out like a coward & left you hurting & crying your eyes out"
B: "I was crying because I was worried about you. You made me so happy today when you told me you loved me."
J: "Love you"
B: "Exactly, the only way you could hurt me is by cutting off all ties to me & you wouldn't do that"
J: "How can you be so sure when I'm not even sure?"
B: "Because I know you. I see how you look at me. Everytime you look at me I see how much I mean to you. I've been with guys who acted the way you say you used to act. I know that if you were still like that you could never look at me the way that you do"
J: "How's that?"
B: "like I'm a treasure & a princess. You make me feel like I'm the only woman in the world. You couldn't do that if all you wanted was to get me into bed"
J: "You're so amazing"
B: "So are you & there's somethign else I know that your mom told me"
J: "What?"
B: "I'm the first woman ou've ever been in love with"
J: "Did she tell you that I'm"
B: "No, but she said you had never been in love"
J: "What else did she tell you?"
B: "We can talk about it another time. Goodnight Jax, I love you"
J: "Goodnight Bren, I love you too".
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B: "Jax, you awake? Jax"
Not long ago Brenda woke up with an idea she wanted to share with Jax. It didn't matter to her that they just laid down a few hours ago, Brenda had an idea & wanted Jax to know exactly what she was thinking.
B: "Jax, honey, are you awake?"
Jax slowly opens his eyes, sill half asleep.
J: "Brenda, what;s wrong?"
B: "Nothing. I just thought of something. Jax are you listening?"
J: "Yes, I;m listening, what did you think of?"
B: "We haven't told your parents that I'm healed. I want to tell them"
Brenda taps Jax's chest.
B: "hey, what time is it in Alaska?"
J: "it's about time I see them again. If you want we can fly there & see them in person tomorrow"
B: "Really?"
J: "Yes. I have a few errands to run in the morning. We can leave in the afternoon & surprise them. How's that sound?"
B: "Perfect"
J: "Goodnight Brenda"
Brenda kisses Jax.
B: "Goodnight Jax"
Next time . . . Jax surprises Brenda with a question & reveals a truth about himself. Jax & Brenda's trip to Alaska results in an unpleasant discovery.