The Love That Heals - Part 5

After awhile, Jax began to think that he felt too comfortable with Brenda in his lap, so he came up with a way to hopefully stop his feelings, at least for a short time.

J: {Yelling} "Miiiiiiguuuuuuuueeeeeel"

Brenda, who had began to lose herself in the pure pleasure of being in Jax's arms, was quite puzeled by what Jax did. Brenda was so comfortable in Jax' s arms that she didn't want anything or anyone to interupt the pleasure she was feeling, not even her friend Miguel. Brenda responsed to Jax calling Miguel, by giving him a puzling look.

J: "I told him to wait outside. I have to go get him."

As Jax gently puts Brenda down,her eyes plead with him not to go.

B: "Jax"

J: "I'll be right back, I'll lock all the doors so you'll be safe" {Jax squeezes Brenda's hand slightly} "I'll be right back"

Soon after Jax is gone Brenda's eyes drift to the blood stain, earlier created by Jax's blood. At first Brenda thinks about fixing Jax's cut, but then her mind drifts to the one thing she had been trying to avoid thinking about, the attempted rape. Immediately, Brenda begins to cry. While Brenda cries, she hugs her arms to herself. Outside, Jax finds Miguel by himself.

J: "Where's Oscar?"

M: "The police took him, they said they'll be back for your & Brenda's statements, tonight. How is she?"

J: "she says she's fine but she won't talk about it. Why didn't you come in?"

M: "You had the door locked, besides, I looked in the window & Bren looked happy on our lap, I didn't want to ruin that."

J: "She wouldn't let me set her down. I promised her I wouldn't be long"

M: "Lets go in"

J: "I can leave you alone with her"

M: "I doubt she'll want that"

Miguel follows behind Jax as he unlocks each door. Brenda hears the key in the door & tries to sit up straight and pretend like everything's okay.

M: "Brenda, are you okay?"

B: "Yes"

Jax notices dried tears on Brenda's face & walks towards her. He stands next to Brenda's chair, on the opposite side of where Miguel is standing. Brenda immediately reaches for Jax's hand. Jax's hand comforts Brenda greatly, but the coldness of it is a bit startaling.

B: "Your hand's cold"

J: "I was outside, remember?"

M: "Brenda, the police are coming to take your statement later"

B: "I can't face anyone" {Brenda looks up at Jax} "please don't make me talk to them"

J: "Don't you want Oscar to pay for what he did?"

B: "He's your friend"

J: "Not anymore" {The feeling of tears trying to escape from Jax's eyes cause him to change the subject} "Do you want to take a nice warm bath?"

B: "That sounds nice"

M: "I'll run it"

J: "The bubble bath's under the sink"

As Miguel leaves to run Brenda's bath, Jax kneels down next to Brenda. Jax's voice is calm, somewhat cold, concerned & very serious.

J: "He's going to pay for what he did to you"

B: "I can't face him again"

J: "There's other ways besides jail"

B: "What do you mean?"

J: "Don't worry about it right now. I'll tell you more tommorrow, if you wan to know"

M: {Yelling} "It's ready"

After Brenda's bubble bath, Jax sits next to her on the bed, where she is laying quite comfortably. Brenda secures Jax's hand, which barely left hers since he came back into the house, in hers. While Jax's hand is quite comforting to Brenda, Brenda's hand sends Jax's pulse racing, it doesn't help that instead of wearing night clothing, Brenda simply wears a robe.

J: "Do you want to talk about it? What happened earlier."

B: "Not now, I just want to lay here"

J: "Okay I'll leave you alone, or do you want Miguel to sit with you?"

B: "No, that's not what I want. Stay, please Jax!"

J: "but I thought you didn't want to talk"

B: "I don't want to be alone, not tonight"

J: "I know I keep asking you this, but are you sure you're okay?"

B: "Yes"

J: "What about Miguel?"

B: "What about him?"

J: "Do you want him in here?"

B: "No"

J: "Brenda, he's been looking in a lot. Why don't you just talk to him for a few minutes. Let him know you're okay"

B: "You can tell him for me"

J: "What's the deal with you two?"

B: "What do you mean?"

J: "Well he took you on this trip, & you seemed to be having a good time with him, at lunch. But now you don't want to see him. Did he do something?"

B: "No"

J: "You don't blaim him for what Oscar did, do you? Because I'm more to blaim then he is"

B: "No, it's not your fault, or his. I know that"

J: "Then what's going on? With Miguel, I mean"

B: "I'm not sure, it just feels wierd"

J: "What do you mean?"

B: "Well we started out as friends, then lovers, and now friends again"

J: "What happened, I mean if you want to tell me"

B: "Nothing really. I mean there was never really a break up. He went off on his tour & we went back to being just friends"

J: "Do you want more?"

B: "No"

J: "Does he?"

B: "I don't think so. It's just different, that's all"

J: "But you seemed fine talking to him before today. What changed?"

B: "You"

J: "Me? I don't know what you mean"

B: "I'm not sure. There's something about you that makes me want to be alone with you. I feel safe with you, but I dont' know what "it" is"

J: "Is it because I stopped, I mean I came in before Oscar could do anything to you"

B: "That's probably part of it, but I felt this connection before today. I tried to fight it, but I couldn't today. But it has been here since I met you"

J: "I thought you hated me when we met"

B: "No, I was scared of my feelings. Can we talk about something else"

J: "Did you decide yet?"

B: "Decide what?"

J: "If you'll talk to Miguel. Just for a minute. I'll be here the whole time, if you want."

B: "Okay, I'll talk to him next time he comes in here"

J: "I'll go get him"

Brenda responds to Jax, by tilting her head and pouting.

B: "I don't want you to leave"

J: "I'll only be a minute, besides I can't stay by your side for the rest of your life"

B: "Why not?"

J: "Well for one thing you have a life that doesn't include me, just as I have one that doesn't include you. Come here"

Jax pulls Brenda into a long hug, which feels way too comforting to him.

J: "I'll only be a minute, if you need me just yell & I'll be here in 2 seconds flat"

B: "You promise?"

J: "I promise"

Brenda reluctantly lets go of Jax, as he pulls out of the hug. Around a minute after Jax leaves, he hears Brenda screaming his name.

B: "Jaaaaaaaaaaaaax"

Jax's heart starts to accelerate as a thousand thoughts go through his head, all at once, regarding what could be wrong with Brenda. True to what he said, Jax makes it back to Brenda within two seconds.

J: "What's wrong?"

B: "I was just testing"

J: "To see if I was telling the truth?"

B: "Yeah"

J: "I wouldn't lie to you"

With that, a very relieved Jax takes off to find Miguel. Jax returns with Miguel, a few minutes after he left. Miguel & Jax sit on opposite sides of Brenda. Brenda immediately reaches for Jax & tries to pull herself closer to him. Jax notices what she does, and at first hesitates because he knows what it will do to him to be so close to Brenda, but then pulls Brenda closer to him when he realizes that Miguel being there should help control his feelings from spinning out of control.

J: "Is that what you were trying to do?"

B: "amm hmm. Hi Miguel"

M: "Hi Bren"

B: "Thanks for giving me time alone with Jax"

M: "Are you okay?"

B: "Yeah, I just needed a little time"

M: "I'm sorry"

B: "For what?"

M: "Bringing you here, if I hadn't, none of this would have happened"

B: "It's not your fault. Besides if you hadn't brought me here,

I wouldn't have met Jax. Miguel, none of this is your fault"

J: "Did you finish what I asked?"

M: "Yes"

B: "Does he work for you now? You're not putting my friend to work, are you?"

M: "He just asked me to help with a few things, it wasn't a big deal"

J: "Thanks Miguel"

M: "I'm going to my room for awhile"

J: "Are you sure everything's ready right now?"

M: "Exactly as you asked?

J: "Brenda, are you ready to go?"

B: "For what?"

J: "To see what Miguel has spent all this time doing"

B: "Will I like it?"

J: "I hope so"

The Love That Heals - Part 6

Jax's surprise pleasantly surprises Brenda. The entire living room area is covered in Christmas decorations, complete with a Christmas scene & mistletoe hanging from various places on the ceiling. With all the beautiful seasonal things in the room, Brenda's eyes still wander to Jax, who's arms she's in.

B: "Did you do all of this for me?"

J: "I thought you could use some holiday cheer so I asked Miguel to decorate for me"

B: "I love it!"

Brenda's enthusiasm sends Jax's heart racing a mile a minute. He quickly tries to wrap his mind around something else.

J: "Maybe I should have had Miguel move that Santa a little more to the right, or that village" {Jax points to a place on the mantle} "over there"

B: "No, no, no. It's perfect"

J: "Are you sure?"

B: "Yes. Well almost everything. Put me on the couch."

As Jax begins to descend Brenda on to the couch, his mind is so preoccupied with stopping, or at least slowing down his feeling for her, & making her comfortable, that he doesn't notice that Brenda's eyes are focused towards something on the ceiling.

J: "Here?"

B: "A little more towards the middle, little more, more, more, more, there"

Jax quickly tries to let go of Brenda, but Brenda grabs his arm and stops him.

B: "Wait, you can't, not yet"

J: "Why not?"

B: "We're under the mistletoe, you have to kiss me"

Jax's excitement about being asked to kiss Brenda, quickly turns to concern when he remembers that she was almost raped earlier.

J: "You sure?"

B: "Yeah, it's tradition, we can't break it"

Brenda holds herself back from saying that she didn't have Jax position her in that particular space on the couch for nothing, & that all she wanted at that moment was to kiss Jax. Jax lets the excitement of finally being able to kiss Brenda, take over him. Jax flashes Brenda one of his gorgeous smiles that would make any women's heart race, the responds to her last comment.

J: "I've never been one to break tradition"

Jax & Brenda both slowly lean in for a kiss, each millimeter brings more excitement to them & causes their hearts to race even faster then they had been. Just as Jax & Brenda's lips are about to touch, Jax's cell phone rings. Jax's compulsive need to answer the phone takes over.

J: "I have to get that"

Brenda's eyes plead with Jax's not to stop, but as much as Jax wants to kiss Brenda he feels compelled to answer the phone. Jax looks at Brenda & the disappointment in her eyes is echoed in his.

J: "I'm sorry, I have to get this" {Jax picks up his phone} "Jax here; Hi mum; Now?; Yeah, I understand; I'll be there; I love you too"

B: "Your mom?"

J: "Yeah"

B: "Are you going home for Christmas?"

J: "Today"

Brenda desperately tries to hold back her tears at the thought of Jax leaving.

B: "Today?"

J: "Jerry, my brother, seems to have gotten himself into some sort of trouble. I have to go see him"

Brenda's sadness quickly turned to worry for Jax's brother.

B: "Is he okay?"

J: "He's in the hospital, that's all I know"

B: "Do you have to go today?"

J: "Mum's upset, I have to go. Do you understand?"

B: "Yeah, but I need"

Before Brenda can finish telling Jax what she needs, Miguel walks in the room & interrupts.

M: "I just got off the phone with Zepeda. Bren he needs me back on tour"

B: "I thought he said you could take as long as you need"

M: "He did, but now some of the places are planning on suing if I don't do the concerts & reschedule some concert dates/ Are you okay with me leaving?"

B: "Yeah, you need to concentrate on your career, When do they need you?"

M: "as soon as I can get there"

B: "Are you packed?"

M: "Not yet, I wanted to make sure you were okay with it first"

B: "Go ahead & pack, we can talk later"

M: "Your sure your okay with this?"

B: "Yes"

As soon as Miguel leaves the room, Brenda takes Jax's hand in hers.

B: "Jax, can I stay here? I can't go back to Port Charles now, I'm not ready"

J: "Yeah, if you want. I'm going to pack"

Before Jax leaves, he leans over & kisses Brenda, but not as she had hoped. The kiss is quick & on her cheek. Once Jax is out of the room, Brenda lets out the tears that had been swelling up in her eyes since Jax said he had to leave. Jax stays in his room packing for about ten minutes, while Brenda strays on the couch crying. When Jax finally comes back out, he surprises Brenda yet again.

J: "How fast can you pack?"

B: "Why?"

J: "I was thinking that you could come with me"

Brenda's sadness quickly turns into happiness and excitement.

B: "Really?"

J: "Yes really. Hey, were you crying?"

B: "I better start packing"

J: "What's wrong?"

B: "Will you bring me to my room?"

J: "Sure"

Jax reluctantly brings Brenda to "her room", figuring that she must have been thinking about the rape again. Not knowing that she was really crying because she wasn't sure if she would see him again.