J&B story-103b

by: Darlene

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J&B Story 103

B: "That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do"

J: "what was? Visiting Sonny in jail?"

B: "No, that was a relief"

J: "A relief?"

B: "Yeah, to see him in jail, to know that I'm safe from him. He can't hurt me now & I can't hurt myself with him anymore"

J: "If that wasn't hard, what was?"

B: "Not being able to touch you. I kept reaching for you, then I would remember what you said about Miguel & you. you kept walking as far away from me as you could get"

J: "I'm sorry honey. I was doing that on purpose"

B: "On purpose! How could you?"

J: "I knew that if I was by you, I wouldn't be able to stop myself from touching you. It's not fair to throw us in Miguel's face. He's done so much for us"

B: "You don't know how much"

J: "Huh, did I miss something?"

B: "I don't think I even told you this, I definitely didn't tell you when he said it"

J: "said what?"

B: "When you took me to see Miguel, for the private concert, after we danced for you & you decided to stay in your hotel room"

J: "Yeah, I remember, I was jealous that he was dancing with you & I couldn't. I didn't want you to know so I told you to go spend time with him"

B: "Really? You were jealous! I didn't know that"

J: "You don't have to be so happy about it"

B: "It's just that I thought you didn't want to be with me then. Anyway, either that night or the next day, when I talked o Miguel, I told him how much I missed you, being with you, & how I wished that I had never gone back to Sonny because I realized how much he manipulated me"

J: "You realized that, then?"

B: "Well, actually at first I blamed myself completely, but I did wish I hadn't gone back to him, because I missed so much time with you & I didn't think we would be together again. Miguel's the one who made me realize how he manipulated me."

J: "Is that what Miguel did for us?"

B: "No, he urged me to tell you how I felt, not to give up on you, on us. He told me that he had never seen me happier then when I was with you & when I talked about you. Lois had told me essentially the same thing, but if it hadn't been for Miguel, I don't know if I would have had the nerve to try & get you back. That's why I don't understand why you don't want us touching around him. You see, he wants us to be together"

J: "I don't think it's so much that he wants us together, he wants you happy. It's that simple & that complicated"

B: "I don't understand"

J: "When I let you go, I did it because I wanted you to be happy. You thought that Sonny would make you happy, so I let you go, o you could be with him. But it never stopped hurting. I knew that I couldn't be with you. in time I knew that you were planning on marrying him, & I wanted you to be happy with him"

Jax laughs.

J: "as much as I hate him, & as much as I knew you wouldn't be happy with him, I wanted you to be happy. That's how much I loved you, & I think Miguel loves you that much too, or at least close to it"

B: "So why do we have to stay apart in front of Miguel?"

J: "because I also know how much it hurts to be in love with you, & see you in someone else's arms, holding someone else's hand, & kissing someone else. Every time I saw you in his arms, or heard you talk about him, it felt like my heart was being pulled out again. I won't let Miguel go through that! He means too much to you, he's done too much for you, for us. As much as I wish it weren't true, he loves you; probably more then anyone besides his family & I'm sure that he's in love with you"

B: "I don't think he is"

J: "I recognize the way he looks at you, he definitely wants to be with you, there's no doubt about that."

Jax looks down at Brenda who has been laying on his chest since they woke up after making love. They had started off the day by meeting with Miguel. then going, along with Miguel, to the jail, to see for themselves that Sonny was locked up. They both avoided touching eachother in front of Miguel, a task which was excruciatingly hard for each of them. As soon as they arrived home, they went straight to the bedroom & made love. As Jax looks at Brenda, he notices tears running down her face. Jax gently wipes the tears away.

J: "Why are you crying? I didn't upset you, did I?"

B: "No, I was just thinking about how much I hurt you"

J: "It's over now. I'm sorry for walking away so much today"

Jax tilts his head lightly & looks at Brenda with sad eyes.

J: "Will you forgive me?"

B: "I don't know, Ill have to think about it"

Brenda pretends to think for a minute, then begins tickling Jax on his sides. As Brenda continues tickling Jax, her laughter gets louder & louder, until it's louder then Jax's. Jax manages to reverse Brenda's hold on him & ends up laying on top of her.

J: "I got you, now you're going to be sorry"

Jax reaches to tickle Brenda, but she stops him.

B: "Jax, please stop"

The seriousness in Brenda's voice stops Jax cold.

J: "I'm so sorry. An I hurting you?"

Jax starts to move off Brenda, but stops when she erupts with laughter.

B: :"I was kidding around Jax, I just had another idea about how I could "pay" for what I did"

J: "Tell"

B: "I can't"

Brenda slowly reaches her head forward & spreads little kisses up & down Jax's chest. At first the kisses are small & playful, then the kisses get longer, & more intense.

J: "You don't play fair"

Between kisses, Brenda manages to speak.

B: "Would you have it anyother way?"

J: "Never"

Jax soon reciprocates with equally as loving kisses along Brenda's chest & neck. Soon the kisses move to their mouths & passion takes over. They make love again.

A few hours later, Jax Brenda come out of the bathroom, fresh from their shower. As Jax walks, dressed in a small black towel, Brenda, who's legs are firmly around his waist, continues kissing him. As Jax reciprocates Brenda's kisses, & they slowly move into the bedroom, Brenda giggles. Jax gently lays Brenda on the bed, as their kisses get deeper & deeper. Jax's kisses slowly move down Brenda's body, he kisses every inch of Brenda's neck, chest, & stomach, & starts going down lower, when Brenda's question knocks him back into reality.

B: "Ummmm, What time is it?"

Jax quickly glances at the clock next to their bed.

J: "Six thirty"

B: "uggggh, we better get a move on"

Jax quickly get s up & starts walking to his clothes, which he laid out earlier.

B: "I didn't mean right now, come back"

J: "We only have fifteen minutes"

Jax pulls his boxers on with quick ease, he then slips his pants on, part way ion an effort to hide his hardness.

B: "Just a few more kisses"

Jax fastens his pants, as he walks back to Brenda. As Jax passionately kisses Brenda, he sits next to Brenda on the bed, and pulls out of the kiss much too soon for Brenda's liking. Brenda reaches her lips out for another long kiss, but Jax makes her settle for a quick kiss. Jax returns to his clothes, & quickly slips on his shirt, while buttoning it, it speaks to Brenda, who's still firmly planted on the bed.

J: "I love you with all my heart Brenda, & I would love nothing more then to stay here & kiss you all day & night, but we can't. We made dinner plans. Actually you made the plans."

One Jax is done dressing, he turns to Brenda.

J: "Would you like me to help you?"

Brenda continues watching Jax, silently. Jax brings Brenda her clothes.

J: "Would you like help with your hair?"

B: "Yeah"

Brenda sets down her underclothes, which she had originally picked up, & gets her make up. As Jax gently brushes Brenda's hair, Brenda applies her make up.

J: "Up or down, or part up & part down"

Brenda looks back at Jax & flashes him with a huge smile, with a glint in her eyes, she says,

B: "Ponytail"

J: "For part of your hair?"

B: "All"

J: "Maybe you should wear it down"

B: "No, I want it all up"

J: "Are you trying to torture me?"

Brenda simply laughs.

B: "Okay, my make ups done. Will it bother you if I dress as you brush?"

J: "Go ahead"

Brenda grabs her underclothes & slips them on as Jax continues gently brushing her hair. When Brenda has everything on, except for her dress, & shoes, she sits down between Jax's legs. Jax fastens her ponytail & brushes her hair one last time. Brenda turns her head to kiss Jax, but is interrupted by the doorbell.

J: "I'll get that. We'll get through this Bren, it's only for a few hours"

Jax moves from behind Brenda & rushes to the door.