Love is On The Way-10

by Mimi

The terrain was rough as they got deeper into the forest to get to the other side of the island. Jax, Jerry and Miles headed up the trek. They all pushed tree branches out of their way as they swore when the thick branches and thorns tore at their faces.

" Hell won't we ever get a moments peace?" Miles said silently cursing to himself as a branch he tried to push out of his way slapped back in the face.

" Yeah you know what they say about peace, it's only a passing phase between two periods of war." Jax said as he smirked and so did Jerry.

" Well history sure would prove that theory right." Miles said wiping his brow.

" Well Bierce describes history as an account, mostly false, of events, mostly lies, brought about by kings, mostly knaves, and solders, mostly fools." Jerry said.

" Well that sure describes our family. It definitely lives up to the Peter Principle." Jax said.

" What?" Miles said laughing.

" You know the Peter Principle. It states that everyone rises to the level of his or her own incompetence." Jax said.

" Is that what you think of our family Jax? That we're incompetent foolish knaves who lie to each other at every turn." Jerry said definitely breaking the mood.

" I don't know what to think but I do know that the family is a good institution because it is so uncongenial." Jax said as he reached over and sort of punched Jerry on the arm. They both knew it was a truce. That's when they both started to laugh.

" Chesterton." Was all Miles said.

" What?" Jerry and Jax both said at the same time.

" Chesterton said that." Miles said.

" Nice one." Jax said to which Jerry started to laugh and then they both joined in.

Meanwhile on the other side of the island Sonny, Brenda and Michael were sitting outside laying on semi wet sand in the shadow of volcanic rocks that made the character of Kronos unique. Michael was asleep and the guards were talking to each other in a huddle, which gave Brenda and Sonny time to talk.

" SO what do you think?" Sonny said out of nowhere.

" Well that's a first. You asking my opinion." Brenda said snarkily.

" Listen I don't want to fight with you." Sonny said.

" I know. I'm sorry I am just so frustrated." Brenda said.

" So am I, but we need to think for a second." He said.

" Well I would say run for it but we have Michael and we can't leave him here and we don't know which way Jax is going to come from." Brenda said.

" Why are you so sure that he's coming?" Sonny said irritated by her faith in him.

" Because I know Jax. Besides it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that they took us all for reason. They had to let someone know because they must want something. So I know Jason is coming to for Michael and for you." Brenda said.

" Okay so let's say that they're coming. What are supposed to do in the meantime." Sonny said.

" Wait I guess. It's the only thing we really can do. I mean we can try to learn as much as possible about what's going on but in the meantime all we can do is wait." Brenda said.

" Well since we've got nothing but time, I think it's about time that we had a talk. I mean I want to talk to you. I want to be honest." Sonny said.

" Yeah Sonny you only want to be honest because you think we might die and that maybe all this desperation and fear will get to me again like in the caves and I'll give you my undying love and have sex with you. This time instead of a dead man watching we'll have an innocent baby and some guards. You never cease to amaze me." She said.

" Let me ask you something. I mean you've obviously let go but I haven't and it's obvious that I need to. I want to know why you can't forgive me." He said.

" Sonny I have forgiven you. I had to, to be able to move on. But just because I've forgiven you doesn't mean I've forgotten what you did. No matter what your reasons were or how much you loved me there's just no way to make that okay." She said.

" Brenda if you can forgive then we can move on together." He said.

" No we can't because I'm in love with Jax. I think in a lot of ways I always was. I don't want anyone but him." She said.

" I've done a lot of things to have you in my life. I gave up a lot to keep you alive. But I never could quite give you all things I wanted you to have. What can I say now that will make it all okay. I mean at least get you not to hate me." He said.

" I don't hate you. I just know that we're not right for each other. I could never hate you Sonny. You were my first love. I loved you so big and so deep. I threw all caution and common sense out the window when I made the choice to love you." She said.

" But that was then. I'm talking about now. What can I say or do to make things right. I'll do anything. I'd do anything for you, Brenda. I'd die for you, I'd stop breathing if you ask me to." He said.

" Thank you." She said.

" For what?" He said.

" For loving me that much. I know what you gave up to be with me or at least to try to be with me when you were married to Lily. I know what it took for you to come to me then. I even know what it took to walk away from me when you left me at the altar." She said but before she could finish he interrupted.

" Then if you understand that then why can't you just give a little more and give me another chance." He said.

" Sonny I had already given you everything that I had. My heart and my soul and my body. You took it all for granted because you never even noticed. All you could do then and now is ask for more. I can't give any more. I understand what it took for you to do the things that you did but do you really understand what it took for me to give you all of myself. To give it to you knowing that you would never, could never return the same courtesy to me. When you left me after I had agreed to leave my whole life for you, it broke me Sonny. You hurt me worse than anyone ever. It's like I let you inside of myself and then you rejected everything that was there. You rejected the very core of who I was, everything that I built my life on since the moment I loved you was blown apart." She said.

" Brenda I didn't mean for that to happen. It was the last thing I ever wanted……to hurt you like that was not my goal." He said.

" I know that but you did it anyway. What you intended and what happened are two totally different things. Sonny what we had was something really wonderful but now it's over. It would be so much better for both of us if you really just let it be over." She said sighing in frustration.

" You talk as if all we ever had was bad times." He said looking away from her.

" You and I both know that's not true. You taught a lot, some good and some bad. First loves isn't something that you forget. You were the first man that I really loved who loved me back. You were really giving and gentle with me. But you were also really vicious and cruel. I remember both sides of you and I remember them with clarity. You taught me a lot of things that I would rather forget but there was also a lot you taught me that I'll hold onto forever." She said.

" So what does that mean?" He said.

" It means that I'll never forget you or what we were together but that I can't go back and even if I could I don't want to. I want to be with Jax." She said and watched as Sonny's eyes changed. They got look in them that she knew meant he was shutting down on her because she had said something he didn't particularly want to hear.

" Why do you that?" She said.

" Do what?" He said looking into her eyes.

" Shut down when you hear something that's not to your liking." She said.

" I don't." He said.

" You do and it's irritating." She said.

" And while we're on the subject of Candy Boy. Let me ask you a question. Why do you think he's so perfect?" Sonny said.

" I don' think he's perfect. As a matter of fact I know he isn't just as he knows I'm not but we love each other anyway, faults and all. But I gotta tell you Sonny this isn't about Jax or anyone else. It's about you and me." She said pointing her finger at him then at herself.

" That's your problem. You want it all. You want your cake and eat it too." He said.

" Sonny that's what you do with cake you eat it." She said.

" You know what I meant." He said as they both laughed.

" I know what you meant but you also know what I meant. I mean why have love if you can't enjoy it. Love enhances your life, Sonny, it shouldn't be your life. I mean being with you as wonderful as it was sometimes was like a job. I had to work at not upsetting you. Because if you were upset then I was upset. If you were angry at me then it made me crazy. Your emotions were like my emotions, you were my life. I mean it was emotionally and physically exhausting." She said.

" Yeah but sometimes love is hard. You have to work at it to make it work." He said

" I know that. But in our relationship I was the only one working. Anything that you wanted I would have given it to you. But when it came to who you were inside, I never really knew you. I had to fight and drag every little bit of yourself that you shared with me out of you." She said.

" I know and I'm sorry for that." He said.

" I know you are." She said.

" I guess I finally understand. I guess I always did, I just wanted you more than anything." He said.

" I wanted you like that at one point too. It almost destroyed both of us." She said.

" So Jax makes you happy doesn't he? I mean really happy?" He said.

" Yes. When I'm with him I feel free and everything just seems better. Our relationship is open and even though he won't pry information out of me I share it with him anyway. Just like he shares himself with me. He's everything to me. He's the part of me that was missing for so long. I'm sorry…..I know that couldn't have been what you wanted to hear. But I'm not sorry for loving him that way." She said.

" I know and that is what I wanted to hear. All I've ever wanted is for you to be happy. I tried to love you the best way I knew how and I nearly killed you. I just want the best for you and obviously Jax is that for you. That's all I ever wanted. Just know that if you ever need anything I'll be there for you in a heartbeat." HE said.

" Thank you so much." She said as he hugged her and kissed her on the forehead.

" For what?" He said.

" For giving me peace finally. For loving me enough to walk away and let me be even when you don't want to. I know enough about you to know that it's not easy for you." She said as she picked up Michael when he started to make a fuss.

" It's enough just to know you're happy." He said watching her with Michael.

" What?" She said as she looked up to see him staring at her with tears in her eyes.

" I was just thinking that I always imagined you being a great mother. I was looking at you and thinking about you sitting there with your grandchild, 30 or 40 years from now. You know when you have lines on your face and gray in your hair. I'll never get to see that. That'll be my only regret." He said.

" I'm sorry." She apologized noting his pained look and the tears.

" Don't be." He said as he took Michael and put him back down on the little crib they had for him.

After that they just sat in silence, both not being able to say anything. Sonny was the first to speak.

" Goodbye." He said.

" What?" She said not hearing his whisper.

" I said goodbye. I think I needed to say that to make the end of us real." He said.

" Goodbye." She said.

" Well then let's get some sleep." He said.

" Okay." She said as they both laid down and drifted off to sleep.

Meanwhile Jax and the others were approaching the camp site. From what they could gather there was just Carlos and 6 guards. All of them were armed, not heavily. It was obvious they had not planned to far into the future.

" So what do you think?" Jerry said.

" Well he's a moron. He obviously didn't plan well." Jax said.

" Well no one said he was smart." Jerry said.

" Okay just play it cool until we can get an opening. Leave the horses back here in the brush we want them to think we are as vulnerable as possible so that we can get the upper hand." Miles said.

" Good idea." Jax said as he went back and told them all what was going on. Jason spoke first.

" Listen why don't Miles and I stay back we're not expected so we're the wild cards. They'll never know what hit them." Jason said. Jax looked skeptical but Miles encouraged it.

" I say we need all the help we can get. Maybe we can even get to Brenda and Sonny and get them a gun. I have 3 on me. How about you?" Miles said to Jason.

" 2." He said.

" Good but we want to make sure that the baby is okay first. There is no where for them to go so the morons left them without watchdogs to prepare for the meeting." Miles said.

" Try it and see if it works." Jax said.

" Okay you guys go." Miles said.

" Let's go. We'll go through the forests to see if we can get close enough to them to make some progress." Jason said as they both tried to be as quiet as possible. By the time Jason and Miles got over to where Sonny and Brenda were the Docks Project was already under scrutiny.

While Jax, Jerry, Alexis, Ned, Jack, Julia and Michael discussed the docks with Carlos, Miles and Jason were trying to wake up Sonny and Brenda who were sound sleepers. Finally Miles threw a rock that hit Brenda's hand her movement woke Sonny up and they both looked over into the bushes and saw Miles and Jason.

" How many guards are there?" Miles asked.

" Only the 6 you see." Sonny said.

" Listen they're over there negotiating." Jason said.

" Who?" Brenda said.

" Everyone involved in the docks project. It's a long story that we don't really have time for. So here take these." Miles said throwing Sonny and Brenda both a gun.

" Do you know how to use that thing?" Jason said looking at Brenda.

" Yep, just point and shoot." She said as she took the safety off and pushed the clip into the gun and made sure there was a bullet in the chamber.

" Okay let's move." Miles said.

" Wait a minute what about Michael. I don't want him in the middle of shooting." Jason said.

" Can you two take out 4 guards?" Brenda said.

" Yeah why?" Miles said.

" Well we can get the two who were watching us to come over here and we can take them out. Then it's up to you two to make sure that the others are taken care of." She said.

" But how is that keeping Michael out of the line of fire." He said.

" If they come over here they're not going to have their guns drawn. I mean I assume they aren't expecting you two to be here and Carlos is too stupid to think anything through." Sonny said. " So if they come over we'll make up some excuse we'll stand up and take them out at close range. You know I'd protect your son with my life." He said.

" I know. Okay let's do it." Jason said.

" Hurry up and get out of here before they come back they come and check on us every 10 minutes or so." Sonny said.

Jason and Miles left after Jason kissed Michael on the forehead. When the guard came around Brenda and Sonny bent over in pain after moving Michael's crib a few feet away from where they were. When the two guards went to help them up they never even saw the guns coming. Sonny took his guy out first and then Brenda took hers out. Then all they heard were gun shots. 6 to be exact. Then dead silence.

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