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February 2005

CHARMED AND DANGEROUS

where's the moon?

.PLAYLIST

All I Ask of You
Think of Me
The Phantom of the Opera

I just can't stop singing these songs. The movie has gotten me obsessed.

Beautiful Soul
Jesse McCartney

True
Ryan Cabrera

Boy Band Vocals + Good Melody + Meaningful and Easy-to-Relate-to Lyrics = A Good Mushy Song

Boulevard of Broken Dreams Green Day

It's good as long as you don't take in too much of the lyrics.

You'll Be Safe Here
Rivermaya

Rico does it again. The song is perfect for romantic moods (lights turned off, candles lit, the moon gleaming outside the window, the cold wind blowing, a howl from afar...)

Hari ng Sablay
Sugarfree

Reminds me of me. Enough said.

.ALMA.MATERS

CSA, Makati

For eight years, St. Augustine was my patron saint and Viva Sto. Niño often became the last song that was stuck inside my head.

Manila Science High School

No, I'm not a nerd. I just wanted a high school with no stipend, and that operated from 7 AM to 7 PM. Imagine four years of your life without a decent spot on the school paper, or a really good sport like soccer. It was Robinsons Manila that saved me.

.GROUPIES UP Cineastes' Studio | UP Cinema

.SILVER.SCREEN

Recent.favs

The Phantom of the Opera

If you're fond of musicals and are a sucker for romantic songs, then go watch this $85 million movie version of Andrew Lloyd Webber's famous play.

Closer

The plot is intriguing, the lines are moving, the characters are captivating, the song is entrancing. And oh, there's Natalie Portman.

It's All About Love

The title says it all. Deep. Very deep.

2046

Wong Kar Wai redefines the meaning of love.

Kung Fu Hustle

Watch this movie if you want to see unbelievable stunts. Or if you just want to die laughing.

.MUSIC alternative | rock | jazz | senti | OPM

//The Calling | Lifehouse | Maroon 5 | Mishka Adams | Rivermaya

.PAGES Harry Potter series - JK Rowling | Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance - Robert Pirsig | Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom | The Godfather - Mario Puzo | Angels and Demons/The Da Vinci Code

Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 6:45 pm

HIT ME BABY, ONE MORE TIME

Am I fickle? Am I?

Sorry, just got carried away. I told myself long ago that I'd stick and be content with LJ (Livejournal, not a person). Guess I was wrong. Perhaps it's because of the mere difficulty of tweaking LJ templates. At least here I have more freedom with the layout. The only downside is that everything has turned manual (Ace, you sloth!).

So... this is what I came up with. Got the picture from the net (care of Google). Sorry I forgot the URL. But I'm openly giving away the credit. The lyrics came from Damien Rice's The Blower's Daughter, which is also in the OST of Closer. Honestly, I was looking for a decent picture of Natalie Portman but couldn't find anything decent and Closer-related so I decided to use this Keira shot instead. I think she's pretty too, anyway.

What else? I have a Psych101 exam tomorrow. I plan to start studying after we eat dinner. Or after I watch TV. Or after I sleep. Whatever. I need to be a better student. It's just hard to focus with all the distractions (alibi!).

Oh, I had my hair cut yesterday. My dad, older brother, and Zyra said they like it better than the old one. Basically coz it looks cleaner. Oh and my barber liked it too. Coz he earned P60 more that day.

I don't want your pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold. I don't want my love to go to waste.

I want you and your beautiful soul.

Thanks, Jesse McCartney.

Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 10:27 am

CALLING ALL FENG SHUI EXPERTS

Cineastes' Film Orgy-slash-Buddy Day went even better than I expected. The whole night was fun although I was practically paralyzed when the morning came.

The Buddy Presentation became the spectacle. Each group did its best but it was Tez and Astrid's group that took home the prize. They modelled to the tune of Lady Marmalade (and made Myke wear a tight dress over his shirt... that was really funny).

Tez and her buddy, Chris, also won the Best Buddy Project award for their unique scrapbook (using sand paper, or "papel de lija" as Tez calls it).

We watched Sa Huling Paghihintay afterwards and had a very long discussion filled with more or less destructive criticisms. Unfortunately I wasn't part of it coz I was either inside the other room, outside the unit, staring blankly, or dozing off during more than 3/4 of the movie.

Oh, there was a boy in a painting inside the unit that looks like me. :P Aisha has a picture in her phone.

***

Three movies I have to watch:

1. A Very Long Engagement
2. The Phantom of the Opera
3. Finding Neverland

The first one is now showing and the second one will start on Wednesday. I don't know when the third one will be shown.

***

Last night in my Tito's car, on our way to the church (I got to see Zyra again!), they were playing a tape (?) that was talking about proper time management. My mind was saying "this is exactly what I need right now."

And then the man in the tape went on saying something like simply knowing what our priorities are and doing away with any planning because it only causes more guilt. "Throw away your planner," were his exact words. I suddenly turned to Zyra and said, "Yan and hindi ko magagawa." She said she felt the same way.

It made me think what my current priorities are. What goes to the top of my list? What sinks to the bottom? And before I even got to list them down, suddenly I realized, or rather, remembered, something. I never prioritize because I want to give equal time and attention to everything I do. And so I hit the jackpot--my life is a mess because what I'm aiming for is impossible.

And so in time for the Chinese New Year, I think I'm going to need to some major internal Feng Shui.

Feb. 5th, 2005 @ 12:32 am

SING WITH ME, WILL YA

Nung Thursday ng gabi nag-videoke kami ni Leo. Kasama dapat si Tonette pero kinailangan na niyang umalis. Medyo matagal din kasi kaming naghintay. Anyway, hindi ko na maalala lahat ng kinanta ko. Sadyang mahina talaga ang short-term memory ko. Basta nag-stand out yung Through the Fire, mala-contest piece. Kinanta naman ni Leo yung All I Ask of You nang pagkaganda-ganda. Nakakainis dahil lahat yata ng kinanta namin mataas ang pitch dun sa machine. Ang sakit tuloy sa lalamunan. Ang last song namin ay Change the World. Nag-duet na kami. Ang saya-saya. At para makumpleto ang gabi, nag-Sundae cone kami.

Nung nasa bus na kami, nag-isip na kami ng mga kakantahin pagbalik namin. Nilabas ko na ang handy dandy notebook ko para maglista. Ang dami naming nasulat, mostly old love songs, yung mga uso at madalas pinapatugtog nung mga bata pa kami tulad ng Strangers Again and Dream About You. Siyempre kasama rin sa listahan ang boy band songs at Linkin Park songs (pang-birit). Tapos biglang pinatugtog sa radyo ng bus yung Take me (wherever you go), na kasama rin sa listahan namin. Amazing di ba?

***

Tapos kanina naman, bumalik uli kami don pero full force na. Kasama namin sina Tonette, Dohna, Bebs, Glenn, at ES. Finally, nakanta na rin namin ni Leo yung ibang mga nasa listahan namin. Kumanta rin ako ng One Last Cry at kinanta uli ni Leo ang All I Ask of You. Kinanta ni Tonette ang napakagandang Muntik na kitang minahal at ang gaganda ng mga kinanta ni Glenn (pero di ko na maalala yung mga title). Dapat magdu-duet kami ni Dohna ng A Whole New World pero pasaway si Manong, magsasara na raw sila. Past 9 pm na kasi non. Anyway, masaya naman kaming lahat. At for sure, babalik naman kami don.

Ikaw, anong ultimate videoke song mo?

Feb. 2nd, 2005 @ 11:45 pm

LETTER TO MY TRUE LOVE

Finally, I got to write it.

***

I know you're out there, somewhere. I don't know if I've met you, if I've seen your beautiful face. I don't know if I've spoken your name, or if you've spoken mine. I don't know how many times I might have looked your way, but never knew you were there. I don't know if I've seen you up close, in person or in a picture, but never knew it was you.

I don't know if I've passed by you, if my shoulder has ever touched yours. I don't know if we were ever on the same train at the same time, or if you hailed the cab right after I stepped out.

I don't know if you ever hummed a tune that got stuck in my head, if we fall in love with the same song or if the song you hate so much is the one I like the most.

I don't know if we've laughed at the same joke, cried after watching the same movie, or gotten mad because of the same thing.

I don't know if I've seen your name painted on the side of a jeepney, printed on an ad, or scrawled across a wall.

I don't know if the bill I paid for my food was the change you got for buying yours, or if we sat on the same chair in the restaurant.

I don't know if I've dreamnt about you but never got to remember what that dream was.

I don't know if I have friends that are also yours, but we never got introduced. I don't know if there's absolutely nothing you know about me or if you are my best friend.

I don't know if we've never been close enough because you live at another place or even in another time.

All I know is when I find you, my eyes will set only on your face, and my heart will answer only to your voice.

***

PS: This was inspired by Kz's "Letter to my future husband." Love you, Kizay!

Feb. 2nd, 2005 @ 11:40 pm

SABI MO

Sabi mo hindi mo ko sasaktan. Naaalala mo pa ba yung mga pangako mo?

Sabi mo hindi mo ko iiwan. Sabi mo dito ka lang sa tabi ko. Sabi mo aalagaan mo ko. Sabi mo ikaw ang makakapagpaligaya sa 'kin. Oo, sinabi mo ang lahat ng 'yan. Pero sabi mo lang yon.

Sabi mo maaasahan kita. Na kapag kailangan kita, nariyan ka lang. Na isang tawag ko lang sa 'yo, pupunta ka kaagad. Sabi mo anuman ang hilingin ko sa 'yo, ibibigay mo. Na gagawin mo ang lahat maibigay lamang ang gusto ko. Sabi mo hangga't nariyan ka wala akong dapat ikatakot. Na hindi na ko kailan man mag-iisa. Sabi mo rin mahal mo ko. Na habang buhay, magsasama tayo. Pero sabi mo lang 'yon.

Ano nga bang nagawa ko para humantong sa lahat ang ganito? Kung may kailangan akong ihiling ng tawad, sabihin mo! Kung may kailangan akong pagsisihan, sabihin mo! Kung may kailangan akong baguhin sa nakaraan upang maibalik lamang ang lahat ng meron tayo noon, sabihin mo!

Sabi mo hindi mo ko sasaktan! Pero sabi mo lang yon! Sabi mo lang yon!

***

Now here goes the disclaimer:

1. This definitely isn't about me.
2. Someone asked me to write a monologue and this is what I came up with.
3. That last line does remind me of a piece of dialogue from Anak.

Feb. 2nd, 2005 @ 10:30 am

DITO SA BAHAY NG ALUMNI

I'm trying to be a good student so I'm writing my papers for my Film183 (Film Seminar) class later at 1. As in ngayon, dito sa Bahay ng Alumni. The only question is, can I finish them before 1?

Goodluck to me!

"I don't mind spending every day... out on your corner in the pouring rain..." For more Leo V...

Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 11:35 pm

IT IS ALL ABOUT LOVE

Just got home from watching It's All About Love with Leo, Tonette, and Reen. The title is basically what the film is. And it's definitely not what you would expect. I'm damn too tired to talk about it but I have to say watching it gave the four of us something to ponder on the whole night.

Bottom line: I recommend it. Seriously. Just don't go blaming me if you go berserk in the end. *harhar*

ZZZZzzzzzzzz...

Watch out for flying objects.

Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 01:37 am

UNIDENTIFIED TWINKLING OBJECTS

Wow, it's Feb. 1! The first month of the year is over. And I feel so wasted just recalling everything I went through during those 30 or so days.

Anyway, I had my first tutoring session with Kay this afternoon. Out of some miracle, I arrived at exactly 3 and we started on time. I gave my lesson (which I thought about while I was on my way there) for an hour and a half and we chatted for like another 45 minutes or so. I didn't expect she would open up to me that fast. But I like it that she did.

After that, I had to hurry to UP and salvage what was left of the picnic food care of UP Cinema's winnings for being second in Broadguild's Simply Amazing Race last Wednesday. And then manang arrived with her very delicious palitaw and we crowded around her. Although I pulled out my boomerang (which I never played with before), no one was really able to figure out the proper way to throw it (which explains why I never dared playing with it). So we ended up stargazing instead... definition: teaching Vince where the Dippers are and watching out for Unidentified Twinkling Objects (UTO for short).

Something tells me I have to go to bed now. I think it's my thoughts drifting away... ZZZZzzzzzz