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Jax's first proposal to
Brenda
Jax: "You're everything I ever wanted:
you're beautiful, you're reckless, and a little sad. You know,
it's the sadness that got me right from the start. I wanted to
make it go away, and for a time I thought I had. Pretty stupid,
huh? And you like the sadness, Brenda. You cling to it. You go
looking for it, and in the end, it'll be all you have
.
What's so important about you? I don't know. Maybe it's your
laugh, or your smile, or the way you act, like a hungry little
girl who wants everything that she sees. Maybe it's your mouth or
your skin, or your soul: the part of you that's real, underneath
all the tricks and lies. You're brave, Brenda. You ignored the
advice of well meaning people who tell you to compromise. I like
that, because that's how I am, too
.I'm no one's consolation
prize, Brenda. I come first, or not at all. The trouble with
keeping your eyes on the goal, is that you miss what's right in
front of your face. For example, you've missed the only man
who'll ever make you happy
.. I belong with you , Brenda. He
never did. Marry me, Brenda
. Think about what it would be
like to be together all of the time. We're two of a kind, Brenda.
We like the same game, we play for the same stakes: all or
nothing. I just raised. Now it's your call. Marry me
. Look,
I'll give you two weeks to make up your mind. I'll be back to
hear your decision. Fourteen days. Clock's ticking."
Jax's second proposal to
Brenda
Jax:
"Don't you know what day this is?
It's either our
wedding day, or the last day you'll ever see me
.I told you
I wanted an answer when I got back. I'm back
. Look at me. I
mean, if you can't see how I feel about you, what we could have
together, I don't see how repeating myself for a few more months
will persuade you. And look at yourself. I mean, look at this
place: you live like a hostage. And to what? Something that is
over and done with. You see, you've been going at it so long that
you don't know how to stop. Here I am, telling you that the door
is open, you're free, to begin you're life. And it's a bigger and
better life than you've ever dreamed of, but all you can do is
say: 'Wait. Is that what I want?' Which is a question only you
can answer. Aren't you tired of being sad all the time?"
Brenda:
"Yeah. I want you to know that I don't take anything you're
saying to me lightly. I believe you. I actually think I can be
sure of you, but how can you know you can be sure of
me?
What can I offer you, Jax, compared to what you're
offering me? I love being with you. I feel safe with you. I don't
have to pretend to be better than I am when I'm with you. And
that's all I know. You have the right to expect so much
more."
Jax: "All I
expect is an answer. Look, this isn't a business deal; I'm not
asking for even money. I'm a lot smarter than that. Besides, I
know something that you don't know: that I'm the only man who'll
ever make you happy, and you have to decide whether you want to
be. My jet leaves at three. Tomorrow we could be watching the sun
rise over the Mediterranean as man and wife. I'll see you at
three, or not."
Brenda:
"
Wait!
I have something I want to say to
you
. It's not much, but it's a lot more than I could say
this morning. I know what I want."
Jax: "It's a
start."
Jax's third proposal to
Brenda
Jax: "
Brenda, will you marry
me?
we skipped a few milestones along the way. Like, uh ....
an engagement ring
. It came from Mum. It's the first thing
Dad bought her when we struck it rich
. Oh, it was her idea.
She wants you to have it and so do I. Now, could I please have an
answer to my question?"
Brenda: "What
was your question?"
Jax: "Would
you do me the honor of becoming my wife?"
Brenda: "Can
I get back to you on this?"
Jax: "Sure!
As long as the answer's yes. Unless you've had a change of
heart?"
Brenda:
"Oh
you know that the answer's yes. I'll marry you
Jax... again and again and again."
Jax's fourth proposal to
Brenda
Jax: "I thought you might appreciate
an engagement ring that fit. So what do you say, Mrs. Jacks, will
you marry me?
Brenda:
"Always
.You know, we were in the middle of a fantasy
when you made that promise. We were on a yacht in the middle of
the Mediterranean, and I was deliriously happy by the way. But, I
don't know, at that time I guess I felt like I needed a proper
wedding to feel like your wife. I don't feel that way anymore. We
wake up together, and go to sleep together
and disagree
together
but, I don't need a big dress and flowers to feel
like your wife. In my heart, I feel like we're married
.now
I'm sure of what I have with you."
Jax: "So am
I. I love you, Brenda, more every day, and I promise you I'll
never hurt you. You don't have to prove yourself to me, or turn
your life inside out to show you're loyal. I'll never scream at
you. I'll never frighten you or hurt you knowingly in any way.
You're safe with me
.So is that a yes?"
Brenda:
"Yes!"
Jax's fifth proposal to
Brenda
Jax: "Rewind
it is then. We'll go back to New Orleans and we'll find a place
to get married."
Brenda: "And
then I'll put on your beautiful ring."
Brenda proposes to
Jax
Brenda: "We are
celebrating
me, finally getting it right. I have come to a
very important realization. It didn't really happened all at
once; it was kind of gradual and then I just knew with so much
clarity. The best times that I've ever had in my whole life, the
times that I've felt that most at ease and the most myself, the
times when I was the happiest and knew exactly what I wanted
because it was right in front of me, were the times that I've
spent with you
.You've always given me exactly what I
needed, which was usually to find my own way, and now I have, and
it's led me back to you. Do you know what today is?
It's
one year, eight months, and twenty-seven days since you gave me
the same ultimatum that I'm about to give you. Marry me, now, or
you'll never see me again
. So let's just go for it, let's
just go right now. We love each other so much. C'mon, I have my
driver waiting outside. I'll have him take us to the airport,
we'll
we'll
we'll fuel up your jet and we'll go
wherever! Wherever you want to go. We can go to Vegas, or, or
anywhere. It doesn't matter to me, as long as you marry me
tonight."
Jax: "Look,
Brenda, I'm flattered, and more tempted than you'll ever know,
but I can't marry you. It's far too late
. For us, you and
me, as lovers, as husband and wife, as anything more than
friends
. Look, we had our shot and it didn't take for
whatever reason. There were several to pick from, the most
important, the most basic being that I'm simply not the right man
for you."
Brenda:
"You're wrong."
Jax: "Look,
Brenda, I had to let you go, and that told me something I didn't
necessarily want to know about, but I don't need a building to
fall on me. Distasteful as it was, as painful as it was, I had to
get on with my life, without you in it
. Brenda, you
followed your heart, and it lead you away from me. No hearts
dont' lie, only people do: to themselves, to each other.
Look, I'm not upset. We had our chance and it didn't pan out. But
we took something very special: our friendship. Now that's
something you'll have for life, no questions asked, no strings
attached. But where you're trying to lead, I can't follow."
Brenda: "Are
you turning me down?"
Jax: "Yeah, I
am."
Brenda:
"
I know that I hurt you so much when I went back to
Sonny, but even so, you did say that you loved me."
Jax: "I do
love you."
Brenda:
"Can't that be enough? I don't understand why that can't be
enough."
Jax: "Because
love isn't. That's what I've taken away from all of this, Brenda.
Love wasn't enough to keep you with Sonny, and love wasn't enough
to keep you with me."
Brenda: "What
if I told you that I know that things could be different for us
this time?"
Jax: "What
are you doing, Brenda? Promising me forever?"
Brenda:
"Yes."
Jax: "No one
can do that."
Brenda:
"Well, I am. Jax, I know you. C'mon, you don't minimize
love. You would do anything for love. Do you really expect me to
believe that you've suddenly become so practical?"
Jax:
"Cautious. It's easier on one's nervous system."
Brenda:
"Well, I have to tell you that I don't approve of that for
you."
Jax: "Why?
Because you're not getting your own way?"
Brenda: "The
jury's still out on that one."
Jax: "You
know, I am really sorry, but our timing stinks."
Brenda: "No!
Our timing is so perfect! Don't you see that? It's so, so
perfect! Come on! I just want you to snap out of this right now!
What is the matter with you?"
Jax: "You
know I so adore you."
Brenda:
"I know. What's the problem?"
Jax: "You chose someone else. I mean, one minute everything
was perfect, and the next, you were a ghost haunting my
apartment. And that tells me that there was something
fundamentally wrong with us, probably from the start, and because
of that, someone got hurt: me. So I don't intend to rush headlong
back into the same mistake I just got finished making. And I
don't think you should be so eager either."
Brenda:
"I am. I can't help it. I just know that we're so right for
each other. You're the most perfect person I've ever know in my
whole life. And I know that I was so stupid, and so blind, and so
under the influence of Sonny, that I didn't see that when we were
together, but I see it so clearly now. And there's just no way in
hell that I'm ever going to lose you again
. It means that
there's other nights, and other nights, and other nights, and one
of these nights I am going to convince you that I am the one for
you. I'm not walking away until I've won
.You saw what I did
for the wrong man, Jax. You have no idea what I will do for the
right man. You're about to fall in love with me again."
Jax:
"We'll see."
Brenda:
"Yeah, we'll see."
Jax accepts Brenda's
proposal in Malibu
Brenda: "I love you. I
want to share my life with you. You can trust me, Jax."
Jax: "When
you came to me, to tell me that we were over, I said I was going
to prove how strong I was by wishing you well and walking away,
but I lied 'cause you broke my heart. It's not an accusation,
its the truth.. I've loved you since the first time we came
to Malibu, and there's no way I can walk away from that. I'll
marry you , Brenda, and I promise you, this time, no matter what
happens. Nobody leaves."
Brenda:
"Nobody leaves."
Jax's sixth proposal to
Brenda
Brenda:
"I'm very excited
I never get the piece with the flower
on it!"
Jax: "The
box, Brenda. I meant, the box."
Brenda:
"
Oh, Jax. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever
seen."
Jax: "As it
happens, there's quite a bit of history associated with this
particular piece of glitter
. This ring was previously
given
"
Brenda:
"
by Napoleon to the Empress Josephine."
Jax: "Yeah.
How'd you know that
. Obviously it brought them a lot of
luck, 'cause they ended up with a palace full of kids and found
time to run a small empire."
Brenda:
"Really? I thought they ended up exiled on an island
together?"
Jax: "Even
better. In any case, I didn't buy it for the legend. It was the
color that caught my eye. I've always thought of pink as being
your color."
Brenda: "Just
like you
. You know, when I was a little girl, I had more fun unwrapping my
presents than I did playing with them."
Jax: "Some
things never change."
Brenda: "I'm
never taking this ring off."
Jax: "Well
then, that's one thing you can wear for the rest of the
night."
Jax and Brenda recite vows
to each other in the cottage
Jax: "
You and I
have a lifetime of happiness ahead of us, because loving you is
the only future I need."
Brenda: "You
know that I've never been able to accurately describe you to
anyone who doesn't already know you? 'Cause you're so incredible
on so many levels. You're beyond words. To see you waste that on
someone who could only bring you misery and pain would be like
torture to me, especially if that person was me."
Jax: "If you
become ill, I will use all the money and resources I have to find
a cure. And if I can't, I will stay by your side, no matter what
happens. That's the agreement, okay? For better or worse, In
sickness and in health, For as long as we both may live
. Now you."
Brenda: "For
better or worse, In sickness and in health, For as long as we
both shall live."
Jax: "Nobody
leaves."
Brenda:
"Nobody leaves."