Unforgettable

 by Miss J

I can’t believe that the last time I saw you, would be the last time I could ever see your face.

Why did you leave me just like that, without even saying good bye to me??

Now all that left behind is the memory of you. The memory of us being together. The way that you used to hug me, embraced me, caressed me, and kissed me.

Yes the kiss, I remember the first time you kissed me. We were having a party at Yoshiki-sama’s house, I thought you were being so drunk that time, you just hold my hands and took me out from the crowded party. When we were out in the garden, you suddenly hug me, I can smell the fragrance of your perfume mixed with the scent of cigarette.

Then without saying any words, you just hold my face, and leaned closer to give me a sweet and gentle kiss. I was shocked, I don’t want it to happen, especially when you’re drunk. I don’t want to use you.

But then you noticed the worry in my eyes, "What’s the matter??" you asked me with a deep voice.

"Umm….I don’t think this suppose to happen! You’re kinda….drunk you know?? I….."

My last word was silenced with your mouth, yet another kiss happened.

"No…I’m not drunk!! And I’m serious!"

I couldn’t say anything.

"I should’ve said this long time ago…but the words just won’t come out….and I think now is the right time!! I just want to tell you…..aishiteru Shinya!!"

I didn’t realise that a single tear dropped from my eyes, and you wiped it away with your fingers. Then you kissed me again, more passionate than before. We stopped until we’re panting for some air.

"I love you too!!" that was all I can say. I was waiting my entire life for that. And we’ve been together ever since that day, nothing can tear us apart you know??

And so the days passed by, we were just like ordinary couples, we fought and argued a little. But then when you realised you’ve hurt me with your words and saw me cry, you apologized over and over again. Even tough I said I forgive you, you just wouldn’t stop saying your sorry, and regretted everything that you’ve said and done to me.

It’s so funny when it ended up to be you that the last one who’s crying, because you think you’d hurt me and I’m not forgiving you. I tried to hold back a smile, because I’ve never seen you cry before. When you saw me smiled, you just gave me a pout. It only ended up to be me kissing your adorable pouty mouth. And I knew you were pretending to be mad at me.

We shared the laughter and the tears together. We worked in the band together with all the others, until we finally reached the top.

Remember our last concert, when after the concert I fell ill because of exhaustion. You were worried sick about me. You told me that I worked too hard and wouldn’t let me even touch my drum stick for a whole month.

You were so childish sometimes, but behind that, there’s a maturity that I loved most from you.

I tried to make you quit smoking, ‘cause I’ve told you thousands and thousands of time that it won’t make you healthy. You just grinned, and told me that you couldn’t a habit that’s been around for ages.

The cigarettes….I almost didn’t realise when I suddenly lit up the cigarettes you left in my apartment after the last time I saw you, and realised that I won’t be able to see you again. I just inhaled the cursed thing, and coughed to dead. I smiled, knowing that it was the last prophecy from you. And then my eyes was watery, and tears start dropping, one by one until I was crying my self out.

But still….how could you leave me just like that???

You are so cruel!!!

I can’t hold back the tears now, even tough all of the guys tried to calmed me down, I just can’t!!!

You’ve given me happiness, and all that joy! How come you just suddenly took it all away???

How can I ever see you again??

You are now laying there…inside the coffin…

You never told me your problems before. I didn’t know that you are involve with so many drugs. You seemed so genki to me.

They said, even the doctors didn’t have any idea what’s your sickness is. All they could do is just give you those medicines.

And then they found you collapsed….there…outside my apartment building. They didn’t even notify me. They just called me the day after…..when you already….passed.

I can’t stop crying…

The funeral’s full of tears. I’m not the only one who’s been crying a lot. Your whole family are crying too.

We can’t just let you go like that. For heaven’s sake, you’re too young to die!!

Now….I can only hold the unforgettable memories…between you and me…

And I’ll keep them inside my heart….forever…and….ever….

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