As I decorated the house, put the lights on the little tree and made ready for the Holiday Season, I felt a twinge of sadness and loneliness go through my heart. It wasn't until I went outside to put up the lights on the trees, etc, that I really felt all alone.



I am at peace and I am happy, as a matter of fact, I have been able to do something in the last couple of weeks that I never thought possible, but it is happening. However, sometimes the natural senses take over and I wish for the same closeness that some couples feel, especially at this time of the year. My family will be close by me during the holidays, but sometimes we can be in a crowd and still be lonely.



I don't think there's a human alive who wouldn't want a friend to share the Holidays with, and I'm no excpetion. This year however, it looks like I will be all by myself....maybe next year, God will send me a special man in my life.



I hope he will be kind, compassionate and loving. I hope he will love little children and the elderly and enjoy doing things for them. He would have to like my sons, their children, wives and girlfriend. I would pray that he would love me for who I am and what I stand for. Looks aren't that important, it's really the heart that draws me to the man.



So God, my Christmas wish this year, aside from the prayer for peace, our soliders and their families, is that you would have someone for me by this time next year. Because, right now, I'm feeling
All By Myself.



Midi is: ALL BY MYSELF - Don't wanna be by myself anymore.