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^^^ Current Journal Entries:
[a] Bills: Electric <><> [a] Updated Book List <><> [R] Night Shift <><> [a] Inventory of Things in Our Pantry <><> [R] Happy 100th Birthday, George Orwell <><> [a] Oppression by Spending <><> [a] Expenditures vs. Consumption <><> [a] Italo Calvino <><> [R] ...Urban Soundscapes (Part III) <><> [a] Stealing <><> [R] ...And Credit Cards Are Our Social Safety Net <><> [a] Credit Cards Are the Devil <><> [a] The Opera <><> [R] ...Urban Soundscapes (Part II) <><> [a] My Beauty Regimen <><> [Guest] A Refusal of Consumption... <><> [M] Less Is Better <><> [a] The High Price of Materialism <><> [R] Finding My Urban Soundscapes (Part I) <><> [a] The Suburbs <><> [R] Brief Notes on Poverty and "Mental Illness," Part Three <><> [Guest] Simpler, Tax-Free Living Blog <><> [a] I'm Not Poor <><>

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^^^ June 30, 2003         Bills: Electric

[asfo_del]
Our most recent electric bill (mine and Mike's; we each pay half):

Electricity used:
Total kWh used in 32 days: 115
Average daily electric use: 3.6 kWh *
[Other customers: average daily electric use, 14 kWh]

Charges:
Basic service charge: $10.71 [does not include usage]
Usage: 115 kWh at $.16 per kWh: $18.48
Misc. charges and tax: 3.59
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Total for month: $32.78

[ * kWh = kilowatt hour = one thousand watts of power used for one hour]

Some
usage figures for the appliances and devices that we have in our house:
Light Bulb - 100 Watt: 0.1 kWh per hour
Light Bulb - 40 Watt: 0.04 kWh per hour (I extrapolated this one)
Color Solid State TV- 6 Hrs. per day: 37 kWh per month
1-door manual defrost refrigerator: 54 kWh per month
Computer- 6 Hrs. per day: 37 kWh per month (I'm going to say it's the same usage as the TV, since computers are not listed)

Hmmm...now if I add up just the TV, the fridge, and the computer, I'm getting 128 kWh used in a month, without even counting the use of light bulbs, but the electric company says that we only used 115 kWh. So, either our fridge is more efficient (it's only a half-size model) or we watch less TV, or these figures don't really mean anything.... My point is just that we have very few appliances and try to turn off lights we're not using--though I'm not nearly as assiduous about that as, for example, my parents. We also don't have the most notorious energy hog: air conditioning.

[When I lived in Houston, which is unbearably hot and humid, with temperatures in the 90's every day of summer, I had a room air conditioner. It was considered such a staple that I only knew one person who did not have an AC in her apartment. But I still tried to be as miserly with it as I could: I only cooled the room I was in, I never left it on when I was out of the house, and I left it off whenever I could stand it. I also took great pains to keep the heat out: I covered up sunny windows with towels, I kept cross breezes going by opening windows and doors, and always used a fan. Even with the AC on, a room feels cooler if you add a fan. My highest electric bill, when I lived by myself, was $45.]

I don't consider my energy usage to be especially low. I don't even have energy-efficient bulbs. I did, however, just find out that it is possible to purchase electricity from renewable sources in my area. I had looked into it a while back but had come up empty. The cost is slightly more (about $2 a month more, I'm told) but I believe it's well worth it. To learn about availability in your state, check Green-e or the Department of Energy's Green Power Network.

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^^^ June 30, 2003         Updated Book List

[asfo_del]
[I updated my portion of the
book list with reviews of recently read books and a listing of newly borrowed library books.]

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^^^ June 28, 2003         Night Shift

[Richard]
This week I got to work two midnight shifts in a row proofreading at law firms. With a total of 15 hours clocked in, that's about as good as it gets these days. I'm also relatively happy to be able to work these hours. When I first resolved to work midnights, over two years ago (because I'd been told that this was when I was most likely to get work – back when there was still work to be gotten), I was wary. I'd always considered second shift (starting around 5 or 6 and ending within an hour or two of midnight) to be the best shift for me. But I found myself able to adapt to midnight easily. Sometimes it gets a little rough – such as the times when I don't get to sleep until 12 or 1 in the afternoon – but usually it's just fine with me.

I've always been a nocturnal being. I don't know why everyone assumes that it is normal and healthy for people to be up early in the morning and get to sleep before midnight. I think the idea of standard "normal" sleeping hours for people in our society was established and promoted specifically for economic reasons. In agricultural communities, you'll find that people get up even earlier -- right around sunrise – because this is the best time for them to start working and producing. I suppose that in our capitalist economy, it is considered more efficient simply for most people to be working, producing, and exchanging at the same time. On the other hand, this idea doesn't really apply the way it used to, now that exchanges are more directly and instantly global and our middle of the day might be our bosses’ clients’ middle of the night. But the synchronization also serves the purpose of keeping everyone more easily monitored, herded, and controlled. I can't count how many times I got into trouble in morning jobs in the past just for being five or ten minutes late. Is there any practical reason that this kind of lateness should make a difference; is five or ten minutes really going to affect anybody's production? I don't think so...

A lot of people say that midnight shift is a particular hardship, and that making workers work midnights is a higher level of exploitation. Maybe it is for some people. But for me, it feels less exploitive, not only because I get to be up during my natural hours (for whatever reasons that these are my natural hours), but also because it allows me to be separate from the thick crowds of drones being herded through the public transportation system during the daily grind. I enjoy going in the opposite direction of the crowd; it is a much more palatable experience for me than traveling with them. In fact, when I had to work day hours, I utterly dreaded being crushed in with the crowds during rush hours and lunch hours. Yet, I don't always dread crowds; it's not a matter of pure agoraphobia. I've enjoyed myself plenty in crowds in the past during music performances and major protests. The reason behind the crowding makes all the difference in the world. People crowded together while rushing to do wage slavery (or rushing home after it) are usually going to give off a very unpleasant vibe. People crowded together to enjoy themselves are often going to be a hell of a lot more pleasant to be crushed together with. And people crushed together during a protest actually can exhibit encouragement, comradery and solidarity, even if it all disappears the next time they're vying for power over you during a political meeting or they get into a flame war with you on the e-mail list. So the problem really isn't crowds per se.

Nonetheless, it is much easier to enjoy New York City when none of the people are around. Sometimes I work in Times Square, which is actually beautifully bizarre when it's really empty, at about daybreak, and all the gaudy lit signs and billboards are still running but there’s almost no one around to see them. Most often, I get my shifts in lower Manhattan, which is great. There's a lot of beautiful architecture and a lot of pretty winding streets in the stretch of Downtown where I usually end up working, between the the Printing District (west of Soho, near the river) and the law firms south of Wall Street.

I've been able to get an incredible sense of peace walking through lower Downtown late at night. The only time it didn't feel so peaceful and pleasant was during the several months after 9-11, when I often had to pass the half-melted ruins of the World Trade Center, soaked in bright lights and always surrounded by the loud mechanical groaning and clanking of round-the-clock cleanup work. But I have to admit that there was a surreal beauty to this sight. Especially in the middle of the night, under the bright lights, it looked like something right out of a Dali painting. It was extremely unpleasant – and unnerving – to be reminded of this horror time and again, especially when the stench was still thick for miles around. But if I had to be confronted with a nightmare, it seemed fitting to encounter it in the middle of the night. Sometimes I wonder if I should feel guilty about getting some weird aesthetic appreciation from looking at the left-over remains of a colossal mass murder – I feel like that callous public figure who described 9-11 as a great "art project." But burnt up urban ruins can be strangely beautiful, as I learned back in the '70s in The Bronx.

These days, my walks through lower Downtown late at night are more peaceful and less troubling. And if I'm lucky, I get a midnight shift that ends on the early side, just in time for me to ride the Staten Island Ferry during sunrise. It's hard to think of anything more beautiful than the sight of the first traces of sun emerging over New York Harbor at dawn. If the boat’s steering at a good angle, the sun will appear to be rising near all the major bridges (Manhattan, Brooklyn, and Verazano) – though the optimal sunrise, with the beautiful red horizon, usually seems to be most evident near the Brooklyn Bridge (and I'll pobably never know why or how it works that way).

Especially on a spring or fall day, the air outside at dawn, at the front deck of the ferry, is fresher than at any other time. And it's great simply having the chance to be floating over that water, in such a natural and serene environment, after working on some shift in an office.

In past years, like most workers in New York City, I worked during the day and then had to hustle myself, depressed and exhausted, into an incredibly packed subway during the evening rush hour. Given how much I loved working at day jobs, this was the proverbial insult added to injury.

If I'm going to do the same kind of routine work in different times and places, then these other, seemingly irrelevant or trivial factors (such as my commute to and from the office or my walks during "lunch") make all the difference in the world. I think it's that way for most people who have to contend with wage slavery, but in the job market and other contexts, they're asked to pretend that what they do in the office is of utmost importance and everything else is irrelevant. Once in a while I still actually think about exploring different areas of work, maybe finding some new opportunity that will make the wage work itself a little less meaningless (although there are a lot of things that might have to happen first, like the ever-elusive economic recovery). But it will be a major hurdle if I have to be herded and crushed into huge crowds of workers again. It's one of the many reasons why even thinking about working during the daytime makes me want to go hide in some coffin and close the lid.

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^^^ June 27, 2003         Inventory of Things in Our Pantry

[asfo_del]
Part I: High shelf above sink area.

covered dish, clear glass with raised pattern, won by Mike at a church raffle
can of tomato sauce, generic
metal bar/pub tray, red, printed with the words "Rheingold extra dry," containing:
-partial bag of white rice, closed with a twist tie
-partial bag of spaghetti
-2 fortune cookies in wrapper
-5 brown paper bags I use as hot pads
bag of pasta, 2 lbs, rotini
partial bag of pasta, 2 lbs, small shells
bottle of juice, 16 oz., orange-strawberry-banana (I did not buy this!)
can of Mexican salsa
can of beets, generic
can of black-eyed peas
bottle of barbecue sauce
3 assorted clear plastic baggies
plastic Chinese-restaurant soup container, containing:
-box of birthday candles
-3 twisted-up lengths of twine
-9-volt battery
-book of matches
-3 antihistamine tablets in foil packet
-7 rubber bands
-2 tacks
-10 used twist-ties
-7 new twist ties
lightbulb in corrugated cardboard sleeve
instructions for water-pik
stainless steel mixing bowl, containing:
-partial bag of wheat puffs cereal, generic
-bag of dried chick peas (1 lb. bag)
-2 bags of dried red lentils (1 lb. bags)
-partial bag of dry bean soup mix (1 lb. bag)
-partial bag of dry pinto beans (1 lb. bag)
-fortune cookie in wrapper
-2 rolls of candies, one cherry, one butterscotch
-small clear bag of birthday candles, twist-tied
partial bottle of red-wine vinegar, generic (16 oz.)
partial bottle of white vinegar, generic (16 oz.)
partial bottle of vegetable oil (16 oz.)
box of macaroni and cheese, generic
ceramic pitcher, cream and brown glaze
oval sterling silver dish
used tin foil, folded up

Part II: Low open shelves between fridge and stove

Top shelf:
partial jar of honey, crystallized, 8 oz.
partial jar of ground cumin, plastic, 6 oz.
partial jar of ground mustard, plastic, 3 oz.
partial jar of Jamaican curry, plastic, 4 oz.
partial jar of paprika, plastic, 3 oz.
partial jar of chili powder, plastic, 3.5 oz.
partial jar of glucosamine and chondroitin tablets (120 count, originally)
partial jar of oregano, plastic, 2.6 oz.
5 cough drops in wrapper

Second shelf:
partial container of salt, cardboard, 26 oz.
partial box of small zippered plastic baggies
small plastic bottle of rubbing alcohol
box of apple-spiced tea
bottle of antacid
2 cans of pigeon peas
can of straw mushrooms
partial jar of whole peppercorns, plastic, 2 oz.
bottle of laxative (unopened!)
nearly-empty bottle of cough syrup
hospital thermometer

Bottom shelf:
2 rolls of aluminum foil, in boxes, partially used
partial box of large clear zippered plastic bags
partial box of lasagna noodles
partial box of pre-soaped steel wool pads

[This inventory was taken on June 24, 2003.]

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^^^ June 26, 2003         Happy 100th Birthday, George Orwell

[Richard]
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India Marks Anniversary of Author Orwell's Birth
Thu Jun 26, 3:04 AM

PATNA, India (Reuters) - Students in the dusty Indian town of Motihari lit candles, cut a cake and read chapters from "Animal Farm" to celebrate the life of British author George Orwell, who was born there 100 years ago.

Orwell was born Eric Arthur Blair on June 25, 1903, in Motihari in what was then Bengal.

Students and teachers in Motihari, where Orwell's civil servant father was posted during British colonial rule, garlanded a photograph of Orwell and distributed cake at the celebrations held Wednesday outside the red-tiled house where he was born, said Motihari district administrator S. Seokumar.

"A few chapters of Animal Farm were also read on the occasion," Seokumar told Reuters by phone Thursday, adding that the house Orwell was born in was now dilapidated and served as a hostel for students.

[And find out more...]

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"Most people who bother with the matter at all would admit that the English language is in a bad way, but it is generally assumed that we cannot by conscious action do anything about it. Our civilization is decadent and our language — so the argument runs — must inevitably share in the general collapse. It follows that any struggle against the abuse of language is a sentimental archaism, like preferring candles to electric light or hansom cabs to aeroplanes. Underneath this lies the half-conscious belief that language is a natural growth and not an instrument which we shape for our own purposes."

"Now, it is clear that the decline of a language must ultimately have political and economic causes: it is not due simply to the bad influence of this or that individual writer. But an effect can become a cause, reinforcing the original cause and producing the same effect in an intensified form, and so on indefinitely...."

"...Political language — and with variations this is true of all political parties, from Conservatives to Anarchists — is designed to make lies sound truthful and murder respectable, and to give an appearance of solidity to pure wind. One cannot change this all in a moment, but one can at least change one’s own habits, and from time to time one can even, if one jeers loudly enough, send some worn-out and useless phrase — some jackboot, Achilles’ heel, hotbed, melting pot, acid test, veritable inferno, or other lump of verbal refuse — into the dustbin where it belongs."


-- From Politics and the English Language>

[AND THIS IS AN EXCELLENT SOURCE FOR GEORGE ORWELLS WORKS]

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^^^ June 25, 2003         Oppression by Spending

[asfo_del]
There are infinite injustices against which we can only rail and demonstrate as loudly and disruptively as possible, but there is at least one in which we can have direct control: our participation in our own economic oppression. No matter how little our income, the more of it we can keep in our own control and the less of it we fork over to enrich corporate interests, the better our options. Whereas if we spend all that we have, the constant struggle to just get by will never end.

Yes, there is a significant portion of people, even in the U.S., who could not possibly
spend any less because they are barely surviving as it is. But then there's a big chunk of us in the developed world who have enough to get by, and some more, but who are so accustomed to spending the extra that the extras have come to seem like necessities. In my own case, I'm pretty ruthless about being a tightwad, but I still waste a lot of cash on cookies and chocolates. And I have an internet subscription that is not critical to my well-being. Heck, I've known friends who had no phone, or acquaintances who routinely ate out of dumpsters and didn't have a regular home but wandered among friends' and strangers' homes, constantly traveling, or who squatted abandoned buildings. So I could certainly trim my own spending.

Instead we let our choices be influenced by a mass culture that has been thoroughly internalized by most of society. People compliment you on having a fancy new appliance/car/outfit; they don't say, "Hey, I really commend you for getting as much use out of those old rags as you possibly could: why, you look positively like a hobo!"

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^^^ June 24, 2003         Expenditures vs. Consumption

[asfo_del]
June 16, 2003:

Expenditures:
work gloves for Mike: $1.99
garden gloves for my sister (birthday present): $1.39
dark chocolate bar: $.44
pretzels: $.50
4 lbs. of pasta: $1.98
can of peas: $.69
small can of tomato sauce: $.35
two packets of cookies: $.70
brownie: $.25
bus: $0 (metrocard reader didn't work; bus driver was not charging anybody)

Consumption:
pretzels: $.50
dark chocolate bar: $.44
leftover pasta: $.30
leftover jelly candies: $.25
bowl of peas in tomato sauce:
-can of peas: $.69
-tomato sauce: $.35
-fresh parsley: $.10
-garlic clove: $.10
cookies $.70
brownie $.25
toast with butter and roasted pepper:
-bread: $.10
-roasted pepper: $.10
-butter: $(...approaching zero)

June 17, 2003:

Expenditures:
cheese: $1.89
can of tomato sauce: $.59
cookies: $.50
donuts: $1
cookies: $.35
can of beans: $.69

Consumption:
macaroni and cheese:
-pasta: $.25
-cheese: $.90
cookies: $.50
donuts: $1
cookies: $.35
cannellini beans salad:
-beans: $.69
-oil, vinegar: $.5
-cilantro: $0 (from garden)
quesadilla:
-two tortillas: $.20
-cheese: $.50

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^^^ June 23, 2003         Italo Calvino

[asfo_del]
From
Italo Calvino's American Diaries, 1959-1960, a log of his thoughts and impressions during an extended stay in the United States.

"No one here knows or even suspects that socialism exists, capitalism wraps itself round and permeates everything, and its antithesis is nothing but a meagre, childish claim to a spiritual dimension, devoid of any coherent line or prospects. Unlike Soviet society, where the totalitarian unity of society is totally based on the constant awareness of its enemies, of its antithesis, here we are in a totalitarian structure of a medieval kind, based on the fact that no alternative exists nor even any awareness of the possibility of an alternative other than that of individualist escapism."

Italo Calvino, Hermit in Paris: Autobiographical Writings, p. 49.

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^^^ June 21, 2003         ...Urban Soundscapes (Part III)

[Richard]
The music that I’ve become most attached to over the past 10 years is global music, especially the kind of hybrid that can be traced from the ‘80s-spawned innovations of
Dead Can Dance and Sheila Chandra to the 1990s breakthroughs of Fun'Da'Mental and Transglobal Underground and the recent releases of Natacha Atlas.

From the 1980s on, Sheila Chandra and Dead Can Dance both created mesmerizing cutting-edge post-pop/rock/Goth music, drawing upon the diverse traditions of Western Europe/England, the Middle East, and South Asia, and centered around dazzling female vocals. Sheila Chandra, who consciously experiments a lot with vocal techniques from India and Britain, has been said to have the most beautiful voice of any pop singer in the world. And while Dead Can Dance owes a lot to the innovations of the talented singer/songwriter Brendan Perry, this band was always carried to its greatest heights by its other singer/founder, the ethereal and operatic Lisa Gerrard.

Transglobal Underground worked with many of the same principles as these earlier artists – especially DCD – but applied them to techno, house and hip-hop. Their music has always had fairly heavy South Asian and Middle Eastern influences, but they’ve mixed those with everything else from Brazilian beats to traditional Balinese folk music. TU made their first relatively big album, Dream of 100 Nations, about ten years ago on Nation Records, a label that also brought us the political band Fun'Da'Mental. Fun'Da'Mental applied South Asian musical influences to hip-hop and techno but in a slightly different way, more closely resembling the hardcore rap of Public Enemy. Meanwhile, Transglobal Underground introduced us to the dramatic half-Jewish/Arab singer Natacha Atlas, who eventually left TU to release several solo albums focused more heavily on traditional music from the Middle East.

One thing that all these great global/hybrid sounds have in common – which I didn’t even think about at first – is that they often draw upon Islamic influences in the context of a potentially hostile Western culture. But for Dead Can Dance (a very multiculturally influenced group originating from Australia) and Sheila Chandra (a cosmopolitan East Indian living in Britain), this probably wasn’t a conscious act of defiance, and it probably wasn’t even a very central aspect to their music. (DCD took at least as much inspiration from Renaissance Christian music, and Sheila Chandra has been equally inclined to draw upon Buddhist or Pagan-Celtic influences.)

However, Fun'Da'Mental and Natacha Atlas (and therefore Transglobal Underground) have all actually been driven, at least to some extent, by the alienation that comes from being an Arab or Muslim in a biased Western environment (i.e., in the UK). In fact, Fun'Da'Mental’s blatantly political lyrics, especially on their first album, Seize the Time (made in 1991), often made this attitude extremely clear. Transglobal Underground’s lyrics have been less hard-hitting but often bring up progressive themes, opposing corporate globalization while urging global integration of a more positive kind. And while Atlas’ lyrics, usually sung in Arabic, are less directly political (in fact, many comprise traditional love songs), they have, on more than a few occasions, mentioned seeking some kind of transcendence or liberation in defiance of political manipulators and the status quo.

Now, I've been trying to pinpoint why it is that I, myself, love this music so much. On the one hand, there is a positive element, being that I have always lived in very ethnically mixed urban environments (from the old hood in The Bronx to this even more culturally diverse neighborhood on the North Shore of Staten Island), surrounded by clashing mixtures of sounds that very much resemble the crazy kind of mix to be found in this global music, particularly Transglobal Underground. I've also had some close Muslim South Asian acquaintances who've influenced my aesthetic awareness in an interesting and positive way. So, I can gravitate toward this stuff with a kind of appreciation that I might not have acquired if I'd spent my life in a more segregated place.

But then there is also a sort of negative impetus. Because we live in an increasingly anti-Islamic society, with racist propaganda being inflicted on us by our mass media and war-mongering government(s), some of us are yearning for a more constructive kind of interaction with the sundry Islamic cultures that we encounter. Additionally, there is now more reason than ever to suppoort the efforts of groups like Fun'Da'Mental to expose and confront the surrounding racism. (Sometimes I think that it is especially good for me to do that, since I am ethnically a Jew, part of a group that has been propagandized to be sworn enemies of Islam. But I consider this a relatively minor point.)

This is not to say that there aren't other, more "purely" aesthetic reasons to love some of this stuff -- especially considering the great spiritual influences in the music that go back probably thousands of years... But as with many other cutting-edge genres of "popular" music, musical rebellion factors into much of this, probably to the bands' own approval or delight.

It’s pretty clear that Fun'Da'Mental, with their overt political lyrics, aim to confront the racism head-on. But even the subtler global bands, especially those that bring out Islamic influences within the present Western environment, are also often challenging the attitudes of the status quo. And in the near future, we'll probably be needing more in the way of political music that mixes up traditionally antagonistic cultures, breaking down unnecessary boundaries, and maybe providing inspiration for a new, defiant unity.

[P.S. Note, For an interesting take on the subversive anti-racist qualities of Transglobal Underground, Natacha Atlas, and Fun'Da'Mental, see the article, "Islamic Hip-Hop vs. Islamophobia."]

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^^^ June 20, 2003         Stealing

[asfo_del]
I'm completely against stealing. That might seem like a no-brainer, but stealing is sometimes seen, for instance among radical anti-authoritarians, as a
legitimate means to take from corporations and capitalists and redistribute the goods to those who need them and have been unjustly deprived of them. A kind of Robin Hood strategy.

I don't particularly think corporations deserve their profits, which, as we know, they get by exploiting workers, raping the environment, and manipulating consumers into yearning for things we don't actually need. But I don't see stealing as a fair or honorable way to right these wrongs.

First of all, it's almost always impossible to know who we're stealing from. We might think we're robbing a big corporation when we may actually be taking from a struggling franchisee. Or the employees might be charged for the items that go missing on their shifts.

More importantly, though, the problem I have with stealing is that it's self-serving. It's a little too easy to hold up as politically and morally righteous a practice that allows us to pocket whatever strikes our fancy, free of charge. That feeling of having gotten over on someone has the tendency to inflate. We might start to wonder how far we can go; we can get to feeling smarter and shrewder than those other suckers who actually pay for things. Then targets can become more fluid. Of course, not everybody takes it too far; but, personally, I think any stealing is actually too far. It too easily turns into an unthinking, selfish slippery slope.

On the other hand, I would never condemn someone for stealing out of basic necessity. I once saw a man run out of a supermarket with a bag of groceries. The cops happened to be just outside and they chased him across the huge store's parking lot, but he ran like the wind and got away. Of course I cheered for him.
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These folks, below, make the case against my anti-stealing views, the first knowingly and passionately and the other two unintentionally, but all the more chillingly for that very reason. These treatises, [the second and third for what they imply about society's evidently sinister values,] are hard to argue against, but for myself I still prefer the morally unambiguous course of being up front with everything [?] I do. I used to work in a [museum] gift shop that had virtually no inventory control and sold a lot of lovely items, including silver jewelry and books, some expensive. I could have taken almost anything I wanted, undetected. But I got a lot of solace out of having completely clean hands, of being a kind of guardian of the items that were entrusted to me. If that makes me a sap, so be it. I still don't think it does. Had I stolen, I would have betrayed the trust of all the people around me, people who were not themselves the owners of the objects in the store, but to whom I would have had to lie to conceal underhanded dealings.

http://crimethinc.com/library/shoplifting.html
Why I Love Shoplifting
from big corporations

[Excerpt:]
"Shoplifting is more than a way to survive in the cutthroat competition of the "free market" and protest corporate injustices. It is also a different kind of orientation to the world and to life. The shoplifter makes do with an environment that has been conquered by capitalism and industry, where there is no longer a natural world from which to gather resources and everything has become private property, without accepting it or the absurd way of life it entails."

http://www.test-surveys.com/honestytests.htm#preparing
Preparing the Next Generation
[Excerpt:]
"Every generation of adults faces the daunting responsibility of helping the next generation of youth become mature responsible adults, a process called socialization.
[...]
Employers also need to play an important role. If employers want dedicated, honest, moral, and diligent workers, they may have to assume a significant part of the socialization burden and help young workers become mature, responsible adults.
[...]
Many eighteen-year-olds have never learned respect for authority, because authority figures were absent or ineffective. Accommodating the demands of two-income families often compromises the exposure of children to legitimate authority. Parents who come home exhausted from work are not as likely to involve themselves in working with their children or structuring their lives. Day care providers may be very loving, but they don't have the same power or authority as parents. Two-parent families have twice as many authority figures as single-parent families; and when they are united, the influence of a mother and father is usually perceived as many times more powerful than when either one is acting alone. Other authority figures can be ignored- if students don't like school, they don't have to go; if they don't like their coach, they can quit the team. They never knew the draft and they haven't been through boot camp. "


http://www.test-surveys.com/honestytests.htm#steal
We know our employees steal, but who cares?
[Excerpt:]
"Why do people steal? It's not because they are poor and need the money. It's because they are predisposed to steal and see little or nothing wrong with it. Thieves who are caught explain their behaviour by saying such things as:
I'm underpaid and take only what I deserve.
Everyone does it. I'm no different from the others.
The company expects it and just writes it off.
The company makes huge profits, so they can afford it.
The company makes me mad and this is my way of getting even.
[Yes! How can you not love this guy?--asfo_del]
Strange as it may seem, people with this kind of mind set will actually tell you that they will steal because they see nothing wrong with it. This makes it easy to use simple, inexpensive assessment instruments that will weed them out. There are several excellent ones available. These instruments are proven, reliable, valid and legal. Here are some you might consider.

The first is a pre-employment screening instrument designed to measure four relatively independent dimensions of job applicants: honesty, dependability, optimism, and customer-service orientation....It includes a scale to detect applicants who try to fake the test.

A second test accurately measures honesty, how likely the applicant will stay with the firm, attitudes towards customers, work values, attitudes about being supervised and whether the applicant has attempted to distort the results. This test is unique in that it generates an Employability Index that tells you how this candidate compares to other applicants in your industry."


An interesting fact about so-called "honesty tests" which you may be asked to take if you apply for a retail job, is that the way they "detect applicants who try to fake the test" or "whether the applicant has attempted to distort the results" is that they assume you are lying if your answers are too honest. The answers they're looking for generally seem obvious enough, [For example: How much have you ever stolen from an employer? a) less than $5 worth, b) between $5 and $20 worth, c) more than $20 worth, d) I have never stolen from an employer.] but the test assumes certain patterns of behavior, so that if you give an overly scrupulous answer, attesting to a choice which the test designers do not believe would be predictable behavior for the average person, you are assumed to be giving false answers and you fail the test. In other words, if you are the kind of sap who would return a lost dollar or not pocket a pen left lying around, like me, you'll be turned down for a retail job as a likely thief.

Another interesting fact is that these tests are quite possibly illegal since they are intrusive, unreliable psychological tests which, in addition, unfairly discriminate against those whom the test incorrectly identifies as dishonest.

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^^^ June 18, 2003         ...And Credit Cards Are Our Social Safety Net

[Richard]
I went for about eight years paying off my credit card balances all the time, but that was during the time that I had regular income and knew how much I would have available to pay for food and rent. I didn't really start going into credit card debt until a period of unemployment about five years ago. I stopped accumulating debt when I got regular employment again for a few years. But during the past two years, as I've depended almost entirely on sporadic temp work and very slim Unemployment checks, my credit card bills have skyrocketed. I now have well over $10,000 in credit card debt, but almost all of it was accumulated to pay for food and basic drugstore supplies, and a good couple of thousand dollars was taken in cash advances to pay for rent.

Many people I know who are unemployed are helping themselves along through credit card usage. And many of those who aren't living at least partly through credit cards have discovered some other way to finance their subsistence through debt -- such as refinancing owned property (an area of economic activity that I can't begin to understand). Any way you look at it, many people see no other choice but to go into a lot of debt. I don't think it's any coincidence that credit card debts have skyrocketed during the shredding of the social safety net, nor that credit card debt has gone up even faster during the decline of the economy. Certainly, a lot of people still use credit cards to fund consumerist habits, but for many people now, credit card usage can't be avoided. Especially if you're used to living at even a lower-middle-class wage and are then suddenly forced into poverty, with no end in sight and no one to bail you out... When you reach that level of desperation, you don't even think about the debt that you're accumulating (except by sometimes consoling yourself that maybe some day you'll be able to save enough money to pay a lawyer and declare bankruptcy). For many of us, credit cards have become our social safety net.

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^^^ June 18, 2003         Credit Cards Are the Devil

[asfo_del]
I have two credit cards, one that I never use and another one that I use frequently and have had since 1988. I pay the bill in full every month. I am so cautious with my small financial resources that the idea of paying extra for something (by adding interest and fees to price tags which I already consider high) is just anathema to me.

This is my most recent credit card bill:

Payments and credits:
04/30 ...................................................$39.33 (Credit)
Purchases and adjustments:
04/17 Duane Reade (drugstore).....................$ 7.44
04/17 Port Authority Bus Terminal.................$27.00
04/30 Port Authority Bus Terminal.................$27.00
(bus tickets to visit my parents and sister)
05/08 Yahoo Mail/Website...........................$ 4.95
(
Collective Book Web Site)
05/09 Juno Online (internet provider).............$ 9.95
Total for billing cycle:................................$76.34

Summary of Transactions:
Previous Balance: $39.33 Payments and Credits: $39.33 Cash Advances: $0.00 Purchases and Adjustments: $76.34 Finance Charges: $0.00 New Balance Total: $76.34

The cost of interest is dizzyingly high. If my balance were $1000, on average, for a year, and my APR were 20%, that would be $200 that I would be paying in a year on interest. That's so much money! How did we get to the point where doing just that is the norm? Supposedly, the average family has $8000 in credit card debt. At 20% APR, they're paying $1600 a year in interest. Are they really? Have we all gone crazy?

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^^^ June 16, 2003         The Opera

[asfo_del]
Going to the movies costs $10 in New York City. I consider that a fortune. Especially when you take into account that most of what you can see at the movies--packaged entertainment that carefully choreographs every emotion that you're supposed to feel at every second--is not significantly different from what is available for free on TV. [And if truth must be told, I love TV. One thing I can say in TV's favor is that it is not on a thirty foot high screen in a completely darkened room where all other sensory input has been removed, so it doesn't quite have that ominous ability to overtake your entire person.]

Of course, there are a few movies that are very good. The last time I went to the movies was in early 2002; I saw a documentary about a team of Italian doctors who set up a hospital in a remote area of Afghanistan. The film's title was
Jung. I later saw a sequel, made post-911, on PBS. Prior to that, the most recent movie I had seen in a theater was Erin Brockovich, which was maybe two years earlier.

If I'm going to go out and spend money on a ticket, I'd much rather see a live performance, something unusual and honest that has not been shaped and marketed [at least not as much] by the business-driven culture of mass entertainment. I used to love, love, love going to punk rock shows when I was about 31, but like Richard I found the atmosphere to be unwelcoming, and I was dismayed by how strictly homogenous it was. Even from show to show, the audience selected itself depending on slight differences in style among bands. Still, the giddy, raw-prankster kind of abandon, the loudness, the driving energy, and--oh, yeah, the music--was and is amazing. In Houston, going to shows by myself and clearly being the only 30+ woman there was actually perfectly okay. But in New York people seem to look at you much more askance.

Now I always scour the listings of cultural events, especially on Staten Island, for stuff to go to. I think it's really important to take Mike's son, who is 11, to see as many different performances as possible, so he can spread his horizons and get a taste for the world outside his daily routine. I don't want his experiences to be limited to what's offered by the mass culture. If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't try as hard to attend a variety of shows, but as it is, we've seen a lot of cool cultural happenings.

Last Friday Mike, his son and I went to see an opera, Puccini's Turandot, staged by the Metropolitan Opera as part of a summer series of free performances in city parks in the five boroughs of New York City. I had never been to an opera, but knew enough to learn the plot ahead of time so we could follow the events unfolding on stage. Since it was held outside under a tent, there were no sets and no costumes, though all the performers were elegantly dressed in either black, sequined evening gowns or white tuxedo jackets.

It was raining. Not hard, but continuously. Only about one hundred or so spectators came, armed with folding chairs and umbrellas. We had no umbrella (I don't think we own one), and we didn't carry any folding chairs on the bus, but I did bring plastic bags for us to sit on. The stage was under a triangular white tent that came to a peak in the center; lit up as it was, in the middle of a huge field that is subdivided into soccer and baseball playing fields, and fringed by a very few straggling, wet spectators, someone commented that it looked like a spaceship had landed. It was surreal.

But the performance was so wonderful it took your breath away. Even when they don't have enormous talent, as these folks absolutely did, live performers always make me feel grateful that they're willing to put themselves out there and pour their hearts out. But these people, in addition to being willing to stand out in the rain, in fancy ball gowns and finery for a rag-tag clutch of die-hard fans [and us], had, in addition, the most unbelievable, otherworldly ability to sing. And of course there were the orchestra and chorus, who sounded amazing as well [though I'm no judge]. There were probably two hundred people in all on the stage.

I don't know who funded this, or who got paid what, but the whole evening struck me as a great example of democracy; the performers were literally bringing high culture to the masses, at no small discomfort to themselves. Unfortunately, the masses didn't show, nor would they have, I don't think, even if the weather had been better.

Unfortunately the show was cut short by the rain, so we had to miss the rousing finale.

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Cultural [and other] events we've been to in the past couple years, not in order. The prices paid are mostly guesses. [Entries marked with a * were on Staten Island]:

*Opera, free (spent $8 on bus fare; most of the following events required additional bus fare).
Baroque dancing, with audience participation, St. Mark's Dancespace, $15 adults, $7.50 child.
Children's theater performances, Children's Theater Company, some free, some $10.
Metropolitan Museum of Art, children free, Mike and I each paid $5. (You can pay what you want; the suggested donation is $12.)
Moravian Pottery tour of historic art-pottery factory, Doylestown, PA, $7 adult, $3.50 child.
Rowboat rental on Lake Nockamixon, PA, one hour, $15.
*Chinese Opera, Chinese Scholars Garden, $7.50 each (?)
*Tibetan festival, Tibetan Museum, $10. Henna painting on hand for Mike's son, $10.
*Christmas Classical Concert at St. John's University, free.
*Poetry reading, with audience participation, free. (I didn't go to this one; only Mike and his son went. Mike's son read aloud.)
*Eco-Fest, free.
*Chinese Lunar New Year Festival, Chinese Scholars Garden, $3 each.
*Lectures at the Unitarian Church, free. Included Phyllis Benis on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, Father Berrigan, Norman Siegal, and a talk on nuclear proliferation.
*Lecture on Dorothy Day, Christ Church, free.
*Two short plays about immigrants, New York Public Library, free.
*Bluegrass band in colonial tavern, by candlelight, Richmondtown, $10 each, including hot cider.
*Fishing in Wolfe's Pond Park, with equipment provided by Urban Park Rangers, free. (I skipped that one, too.)
American Museum of Natural History, $5 total. (You can pay what you want.)
*Pumpkin picking at historic Decker Farm, free, except the price of pumpkins.
Anti-war protests, free.

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^^^ June 14, 2003         ...Urban Soundscapes (Part II)

[Richard]
Many people who've come of age within the past 50 years or so have had the opportunity to express rebellion through some form of youth-oriented, music-based, countercultural consumption. This is a means through which we can, as the anti-cool (and therefore very trend-setting) left-libertarian journal
The Baffler put it, commodify our dissent. Of course, it seems kind of ironic to rebel against capitalist society (if that's what we're doing) through consumption. But sometimes the rebellious form of consumption really does undermine and subvert more established forms of consumption. The punk movement, especially in the beginning, was a perfect example of this.

Punk fractured the pre-packaged youth culture that the corporate music and image industries thought they could continue profitably spoon-feeding to the public until the end of time. It also rejected the dreary corporate-friendly rituals of mass, passive star worship (which actually had been created out of the more utopian mass gatherings of the late '60s), replacing them with a far more democratic, universally participatory, and affordable DIY ethos that has thrived in many corners for almost 30 years since. (Note, by the way, that at around the same time, rap also brought some DIY ethos to young people of color in inner city neighborhoods, making a deliberate break from the excesses of flashy funk and disco. Then, later, all of this DIY history (probably combined with DIY attitudes of reggae DJs) contributed to the strong DIY element in techno music.)

Additionally, before and even during the rise of expensive punk fashion, a make-it-yourself poor people's fashion thrived in the punk scene, with people making creative new anti-fashion statements out of found parents' (or aunts’ or uncles’) clothes, thrift store garments, cut-up garbage bags, and even old household items (vacuum cleaner tubes, lamp shades, torn up furniture cushions…). (And by the way, if there are any younger, hoody-and-patches-type punks out there who don't believe this, take a look at the jacket sleeve photos in an original vinyl copy of The Roxy London WC2 (Jan-Apr 77) – which can still be found in some odd places here and there.) All of this stuff was somewhat consumerist in that it was expression through (anti-) fashion and probably did involve buying some things and did lead to some major money being made through quick co-optation, but it also was strongly anti-consumerist. In ways, this fashion, like the music, was an aesthetic embodiment of the rejection of mass-marketed excess.

Punk rock clubs often could provide the perfect forum for this kind of rebellion. For one thing, good punk venues are always cheap (if not free). And, a big part of the really good punk club – as well as the techno club, the rave event, the musically driven Temporary Autonomous Zone, etc. – is the social atmosphere spontaneously created by the crowd. To me, this was always the most exciting aspect of being in the punk scene, especially when people were out on the floor (whether dancing or slam dancing – which was actually fun and much less violent in the early days). This part of the experience was often more important than the entertainment being provided by the bands – who ideally also spent much of their time as part of the dancing crowd and vice versa.

But there are big limitations to this kind of rebellion, the most obvious being that it is so youth-oriented. I’ve always liked to keep up with new pop – or anti-pop – music and have more recently much preferred listening to new innovations in techno, house, and electronica. But even by the time I really started enjoying new techo and house (in the early 90s), I was already feeling a little old for raves. Moreover, at that time I also had a regular girlfriend who was 8 ½ years older than me, who felt inspired to remark more than once during our nights out for music that she could easily substitute for most of the crowd’s mom.

Ten years later, I sometimes got the same feeling during anti-capitalist/"anti-globalization" demos (though maybe I couldn’t be their mom, but their dad or, more likely, their cranky uncle). And I think that it would be a great step forward if many of our counter/rebellious cultures broke away from the age-biased mold. Popular rebellion, no matter how bold, is always a little easier to keep under control when it’s confined to youth. It’s certainly easier to dismiss, crack down on, and contain when the public at large is convinced that the kids will grow out of this stuff when they finally become responsible adults. Yet I've known quite a few older adults who are very much drawn to the innovations in music, lifestyle, and protest culture, only they're more inclined to stay away from the public spaces where the newer countercultures thrive. Sometimes, they feel a little more limited physically (e.g., not always in the best shape to outrun the cops with the Black Bloc), but most stay away because they feel out of place in the middle of a youth group (better to dance to this music in the living room than be stared at in a club full of kids).

But what would happen if our counterculture-based movements actually overcame all their conventional age bias, rendering the whole issue of youth irrelevant? Whether the object is anti-capitalism or just the expansion of a new music subculture, the result might be downright revolutionary.

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^^^ June 13, 2003         My Beauty Regimen

[asfo_del]
The only beauty products I use are shampoo [ever since I cut my hair to about chin length I no longer use conditioner], soap, chapstick, and
mustache bleach [which I don't use very assiduously]. I do not wear make-up, use moisturizers, lotions, bubble baths, wrinkle creams, astringents, concealers, powders, etc. I cut my own hair. I have not been to a hair salon in over fifteen years. I do not color, curl, straighten, nourish, perm, or alter my hair in any fashion. I do not shave nor remove hairs. I don't wear nail polish. I don't use any weight-loss products. Hmmm...what else? It's hard to think of things one does not do.

A lot of what the media, advertisers, and sometimes even our own comrades, insist we must have depends on creating dissatisfaction within ourselves* with who and how we are, so that we can be persuaded to remedy our flaws by spending our money on products. But constant longing for improvement will not make us happy; accepting ourselves will.

A really cool book [and zine, though I haven't seen the zine] on accepting your looks is Fat!So? by Marilyn Wann.

[* "Advertising at its best is making people feel that without their product, you're a loser." --Nancy Shalek, president of the Shalek Agency. From The High Price of Materialism by Tim Kasser, p.91.]

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^^^ June 13, 2003         A Refusal of Consumption...

[Guest Comment - Spencer]
If you haven't already, go read Down and Out in Paris & London, George Orwell's first book, which just goes to show that nothing has changed since the '30s in the industrialized west for the common people. He was a dishwasher, and I work in a deli.

And, anyway, everyone lives like this on the west coast. Even middle class people do -- the whole "simplicity movement," which was -- as far as my eco-zen-situ-anarchist tendencies are concerned -- one of the more profound movements in recent memory. A refusal of consumption is not just a refusal of Empire (who needs that fucking oil anyway?), but really a refusal of, not just capitalism, but the commodity form itself.

But, as Diane DiPrima said in Revolutionary Letters, "Even the heads on the East Coast don't believe in the revolution."

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^^^ June 11, 2003         Less Is Better

[Mike]
I have sometimes chosen to conscientiously live on less, and of course sometimes had no alternative. Either way, it has been educational and sobering. People have a variety of reasons to be thrifty, and obviously some have more validity than others; that is, some reasons have far-reaching goals and implications, whereas others are simply pragmatic for the time being.

I think the more frequently that people opt out of the rat race of consumerism, the greater the chance we can shed light on issues from a perspective of oneness with the world, as opposed to selfishness and keeping up with the joneses. Everybody can agree, just from looking at evidence built up during a lifetime, that selfishness and keeping up with the joneses, attitudes the system needs in order to function, do far more harm to the earth and its inhabitants than good. Is this the legacy we want to leave for generations to come? So, living below the median income actually opens one's eyes to the consequences of the status quo, so let it go.

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June 11, 2003         The High Price of Materialism

[asfo_del]
I just borrowed this book from the library: The High Price of Materialism by Tim Kasser. What follows are brief excerpts from the foreword by Richard Ryan:

"Whereas first and third worlds could formerly be distinguished along national boundaries, increasingly, and in most countries, one finds relatively insulated pockets of wealth surrounded by ever-widening fields of impoverishment. Most of the world's population is now living in winner-take-all economies, where the main goal of individuals is to get whatever they can for themselves: to each according to his greed. Within this economic landscape, selfishness and materialism are no longer being seen as moral problems, but as cardinal goals of life."

"Perhaps the most insidious aspect of this modern measure of worth is that it is not simply about having enough, but about having more than others do. That is, feelings of personal worth are based on how one's pile of money and possessions compares with others; both those who surround us in real life and those seen only in the pseudorealities of television and movies. In this context, no one can ever have enough because, aside from Bill Gates, there are always others who have more."

"Desires to have more and more material goods drive us into an ever more frantic pace of life. Not only must we work harder, but, once possessing the goods, we have to maintain, upgrade, replace, insure, and constantly manage them. Thus, in the journey of life, materialists end up carrying an ever-heavier load, one that expends the energy necessary for living, loving, and learning--the really satisfying aspects of that journey. Thus materialism, although promising happiness, actually creates strain and stress."

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^^^ June 9, 2003         Finding My Urban Soundscapes (Part I)

[Richard]
Like many people of my generation who have felt a bit rebellious throughout their lives, I've always gotten a lot of inspiration from different forms of "popular" music, starting with the '60s rock-and-roll, soul, and folk music of my childhood: My parents introduced me to Dylan and Seeger before I was 4 years old; they also brought me the Beatles; my hippy neighbors in my building (which was half unofficial off-campus housing for Fordham University) brought me the heavier rock'n'roll (from Stones to Hendrix) (and my sister, though only 5 1/2 years older than me, also brought me some of that influence, though she would never admit it later in life); and the black-owned candy store on the corner (with its fantastic juke box) introduced me to a lot of soul (it was great sitting there drinking my milkshake to Ike and Tina Turner, James Brown, or Sly & The Family Stone)... But then a few years later, I found punk.

I suppose that my discovery of punk -- very early on -- was inevitable. I was a New Yorker, I was into finding the most "alternative" cultures (because I was obviously unhappy with the one being handed to me), I was sick to death of '70s stadium rock and boring singer-songwriter laments (and never quite appreciated disco until much later, when it got reprocessed into techno and house), and my sister was going to school in England during 1976 and '77, visiting back once in a while with the most interesting tunes...

But I never became the spikes-and-leather-jacket kind of punk... Too intellectual and anti-macho for those inclinations, I eventually became the type to wear industrial grey shirts and long drab coats (bought for just a few dollars per item in the thrift store) and listen to Joy Division. Actually, I gravitated toward many areas of punk (X-Ray Spex, Gang of Four, Kleenex/Lilliput, Pere Ubu), but my listening tastes were really centered for quite a while on "darker" sounds such as Bauhaus, Birthday Party, Siouxsie, Tuxedo Moon, The (early) Cure, The Fall (which means, of course, that I was a proto-Goth)...

Now let's rewind for a minute... I suppose I should reflect on this somewhat in the context of my college (non) experience... In 1978, through a confluence of conditions (work-study programs, grants, and a parental family income that was higher at this time than at other times, because my father seemed to be doing well in some of his attempts to work in business -- like department store buying or commodities selling (I forget which one it was because they changed so frequently and always eventually ended in disaster))...I landed fairly easily in a nice, snotty school, the University of Pennsylvania, which actually alienated the hell out of me.

But I loved West Philly (just west of the University, where I chose to live for most of this time). Of course, 20 years ago, it wasn't yet a famous anarchist neighborhood (the way it had become, for instance, by the time of the 2000 Republican Convention), but it always was diverse, somewhat eccentric, and in odd ways and places, bohemian, without the often intimidating or exhasutingly competitive trendiness of, say, the East Village. For me, it was a perfect place to form a sort of counter-cultural existence, something kind of industrial and surreal, which came out a lot in my writing (I was writing a lot of fiction at the time) but also in my tastes, especially my musical ventures into this semi-industrial, also slightly surreal, proto-Gothic terrain (which I would call, if this is not too pretentious, my first personal urban soundscape).

Unfortunately, like many over-intellectual -- but under-mature - white college kids in this place and time (i.e., especially in Philadelphia!), I imported most of my sounds from England and didn't really absorb or appreciate the musical/cultural diversity around me. But, that would change later on...

Meanwhile, for a brief time, I was interested in trying to create my own noise, even something that could reflect my own immediate environment. Thus, in about 1981 and ’82, I joined up with a few friends who were forming Radios Silent, an "experimental," "industrial" (as in the early, garbage-truck-noise phase of of the genre)...“band." Our “instruments” consisted of a few boxes full of macaroni, a xylophone, one decent drum set, an adjustable (two-level) alarm clock, a couple of spatulas, and two frying pans. We would "play" all this shit over mikes in our basement or in the seedy club, while we ranted “lyrics” mostly taken from signs observed while riding on the subways or commuter rails (“Subway Surface,” “Radios Silent,” “Trenton Makes, The World Takes!”) And, sadly, this was really my biggest attempt to participate in a project that actually created sounds...

When my friends started to create real music with guitars and things like that, I just couldn't keep up. So, later, I would write about music a lot (since I was a rock critic for a few zines), but mostly I would be involved as a fan or consumer. I have mixed feelings about being involved in any form of expression or art -- especially if it's somewhat a form of rebellion also -- strictly as a consumer. But then I think this tendency can actually be a good thing, as long as you're not deceived too much into constantly feeding, and supporting, the corporate-capitalist marketplace (or, for that matter, thinking that sitting and listening to something is actually the same as doing something). Also, there are more active ways to consume the music -- like the many ways you can help create the social environment of a club (or rave or TAZ in later times) -- in which case you do, ideally, help to make something... [To be continued.]

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^^^ June 7, 2003         The Suburbs

[asfo_del]
Suburban dwellers, although usually relatively affluent, arguably receive
more government assistance than people on welfare due to the added public cost of building and maintaining the infrastructure to serve far-flung communities: massive networks of roads, utilities brought over greater distances, public commuter transportation, and so on.

[The average welfare payment is less than $400 a month for a family of three. In some states, it's as little as $160 a month for a family of three.]

The suburbs make driving a necessity. Driving is, of course, a major source of greenhouse gases and other pollutants. The demand for oil, which is created by the only practical way to get around in sprawling communities, has been a source of geopolitical conflict and wars, (as we all know), which of course cause terrible human suffering, at least some of which we could perhaps have avoided if we were simply willing to live a little closer to one another.

The suburbs are isolating. It is very rare for someone who lives in suburbia to come in contact or have friendships with people of a different social class or race, unless that contact happens at work. When we live this way, we lack perspectives other than our own narrow one. We become much more susceptible to the propaganda of corporate interests and government because we lack any first hand knowledge or testimony of experiences that might deny or render suspect the assumptions that are presented in the media as universal.

For the sake of quiet enjoyment and manicured lawns, we sacrifice democratic principles, the environment, and even human lives.

I don't know of any other society, outside of suburban America, in which people live in such hermetically sealed bubbles. People reside in detached, clearly demarcated parcels, where they are unlikely to have anything but the most cursory connection with neighbors; move around in cars, often shutting out even the weather, to travel to dystopian shopping centers that are not within living, existing human communities--or are near them but set far apart by vast parking areas and vehicle-only access ramps; and then come in contact with the outside world only through the heavily spun images and rhetoric of the media. There is little hope in this set of circumstances to shake loose large portions of the public and demand that they care about things they never see or hear about--things that fundamentally have no impact whatsoever on their lives, like worldwide poverty or unnecessary and deceitful wars waged only for the profit of the few. I myself care about these terrible injustices but don't know what to do about it. I'm no less ineffectual, in any real, useful sense.

I know it's easy to look down on the suburbs, to treat them as humdrum and boring and lacking in urban sophistication. That's just our snobbery talking. The fact is that on a broad, societal scale, the suburbs are the place where most people have to live, simply because they're what's there. That's where the housing is. It's where the services are, the less alarming schools, the strip malls, the pretty lawns and open space--all the conveniences that people have become accustomed to.

For every bohemian type who is willing to put up with a cramped, barely functional apartment in a crime-riddled, dirty, and congested city neighborhood, in which the only stores around sell nothing but lotto tickets, malt liquor, and chips, there are hundreds of families who just want something nice. They're not thinking about the wild spaces that were destroyed to build their new development, the pollution and oil consumption caused by their and thousands of their neighbors' long commutes, or the fact that only having a Wal-Mart as a shopping choice means having to support unfair labor practices and the homogenization of the culture.

It's not an excuse. But it's the reality.

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^^^ June 4, 2003         Brief Notes on Poverty and "Mental Illness," Part Three

[Richard]
It's pretty clear that increasing alienation in the workplace negatively affects "mental health." It goes without saying that some people like to feel that the work which they do has some value beyond generating profit for the bosses, as there are good reasons why the word "alienation" might apply not only to an economic or sociological process but a psychological condition as well. There are tons of books that you can read to be educated about this connection (lots of Marx-related stuff), but most people can already feel and understand it at a basic level -- i.e., anyone who's ever had to do work that had no meaning for them other than trying to pull in enough money to pay the rent or utilities...

Now add to that the feeling of utter powerlessness that comes with always depending on varied forms of contingent work, being completely at the mercy of the whims of abusive/neurotic/harried bosses, who may, themselves, feel a need to bully their employees in order to compensate for their own general feelings of powerlessness. Take a good look at what it's like to endure these kinds of experiences on a constant basis, over and over again, and it's not hard to see how being a contingent and/or low-level wage laborer might challenge or compromise personal "mental health."

Of course, the consequences of severe alienation at work and constant subjugation to the whims of bosses probably aren't as great as the consequences of severe poverty, homelessness, and/or complete dependence on an inadequate system of public assistance. Often, when I hear dreary statistics about the high rate of mental illness among the homeless, I can't help thinking that this must be a chicken-or-egg situation most of the time...or that it must simply be the homelessness or the poverty leading up to the homelessness that drives people into states diagnosed as "mental illness" in the first place.

Personally speaking, I can't imagine living out in the street for a week without becoming at least slightly insane. In the past, I have had to endure maybe a day or two here and there trapped in another town with no housing or money, and maybe one night spent in a "homeless shelter" that consisted of a carpeted floor inside a church. A few other times, I've had to endure sleeping within crowds on the floor of some school or squat (usually in either freezing or sweltering conditions) the night before a big protest/activist happening, and I have to admit that I've found that experience to be horrible. When I think about my own reactions to such minor simulations of homelessness, it becomes even harder for me to imagine what it would be like to actually be homeless for real, indefinitely.

This is not to say that all homeless people live in the street... Homelessness exists in various degrees and gradations. I have a few activist friends who have not been able to afford to pay rent but have been able to get by more or less living in other people's places. The amount of hardship involved in that kind of situation depends on the permanency thereof. People who can stay in one place a long time (even if it's an office of the Indymeida Center) will have it better than those who must constantly shift from place to place, always looking for someone generous to put them up. Always, the hardship increases with the lack of an end in sight. (I've known some young anarcho-punks who've gone and slept under bridges along with other A-Ps for a while, talked a lot about being homeless, then ended up moving back to their suburban parents' comfortable homes for a while -- not the same situation, I imagine, as those who sleep under bridges without an eventual option of suburban parents' homes.)

Yet, getting back to my present, not-quite-homeless (yet) situation, I sometimes do feel that the constant anxiety that comes with wondering where my rent or meals are going to come from next week or next month is not nearly as bad as the depression and feelings of despair that come with having to spend 40 hours a week or more doing things I have no interest in doing, in an environment that I can't stand, in order to command a "real salary." (On the other hand, I haven't forgotten for a minute that I've never exactly worked in a sweatshop either, and many other people probably must endure a much closer approximation of Hell.)

It has been said that our present society is experiencing an "epidemic" of anxiety and depression, as Prozac, Zoloft, and a host of other mood cures enjoy unprecedented popularity. Many people in the mental health professions would like us simply to accept the "epidemic" of these problems and other "mental illnesses" as some sort of physiologically determined disease developing within each of us individually. This naturally helps the pharmaceutical industry and "mental health" profession while discouraging people from thinking too much about changing the social conditions that might be at the root of any sickness that they feel.

Sometimes I think about all that money that gets poured into the "mental health" industry and related pharmaceuticals, and I wonder what would happen if the bulk of it instead somehow went toward a guaranteed social wage and available housing for everyone. Maybe it wouldn't do much for troubled and neurotic rich people, but surely, it would do a lot more than most of these drugs and institutions to ease anxiety and depression in many of the rest of us. It wouldn't be the complete answer -- we've got to do a lot more to create a healthy (i.e., totally different) kind of society -- but it could be a constructive start.

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^^^ June 2, 2003         Simpler, Tax-Free Living Blog

[Guest Comment - Dave]
I saw your Living on Less blog and thought you might be interested in mine:
http://www.sniggle.net/Experiment/
It chronicles my recent experiment in learning to live below the tax line on a lower income.
Dave Gross
dave@eorbit.net

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^^^ June 2, 2003         I'm Not Poor

[asfo_del]
Although statistically I am below the U.S. poverty threshold, [and even that is debatable*], I have never considered myself poor because 1) I have everything I need, 2) I have nearly everything I want, 3) I have an expensive education, 4) I am part-owner of a house (in Texas), and 5) I am not in danger of falling off the edge into abject misery.

[However, I am not able to support myself due to chronic illness, so if I were not a privileged person I would be in very serious trouble.]

As poverty is relative, so is privilege. We are, all of us, generally so accustomed to complaining about barely being able to make ends meet, no matter what our income, that whenever somebody talks about being privileged the immediate assumption is that they must be comfortably affluent.

To me, privilege is the luxury of being able to survive peacefully within one's means, without constant struggle or worry: by that I mean survive with plentiful food, reasonably serviceable shelter, and enough cash left over to enjoy a treat now and then, like going out to a show or a low-priced restaurant, while stashing away, little by little, a small fund for a rainy day.

[Most of the people who are alive today cannot even dream of this kind of security. According to the U.N., more than 3 billion people have to survive on less than two dollars a day; 1.3 billion on less than one dollar a day. There's no doubt that unremitting poverty is a fact for the great majority of humans.]

It's slightly shocking to me that American culture [European culture is not that much better; there's only a shift in people's priorities to emphasize different ways of wasting and consuming] actually abhors the notion of squirreling money away. People who save are treated derisively as "cheapskates," "tightwads," and "misers," as if not spending wastefully were the same as being selfish. Should Wal-Mart and the cable company be the recipients of our generosity?

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U.S. poverty thresholds:
1 person (unrelated individual).... $9,182 [I easily fall under this figure; my yearly income, including gifts, is less than $7000.]
2 people .......................... $11,752 [But if I were to include Mike, who is after all part of my household, although we are not related and we do not pool our resources, our combined incomes would be more than this.]
3 people .......................... $14,351 [Even if I were to include Mike's son, who is 11 and lives with us part of the time, my income and Mike's combined is still higher than this.]

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